Ya,the day is coming..this friday I will leave here..
wow, i didn't know that myself going to study will be causing such a big fuss..
my uncle treat me to a dinner and gave me a big angpau.. my kai ma also gave me angpau..my grandma too.. THE AMOUNT in all these angpau remind me that i should not give up my studies halfway if i couldnt get use to it there..st.john gang hold a farewell for me, ree ann did something special for me(thanks so much girl,i nearly cried)..wow,they all supported me so much and i don't think i am dare enough to give up and disappoint all of these people.. all these are the source for me to force myself to keep moving forward..thanks for encouraging and supporting me..I will try my best in everything and hopefully someday i can repay them with big angpau too ..
Monday, June 28, 2010
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Separated
Just back from gathering of the Form 6 gang..looks like we will be dispersed to different parts in Malaysia..not just 各分东西，but 各分东西南北.. Wen Wei and Hong Giap to Sabah, Yee Teng and Chee Meng to Melaka, some to Pahang, some to Serdang, some stay in KL, me to Penang..all going to chase for their dreams, and are willing to suffer inside the dorm instead of staying comfortably in KL,this is how great dreams can be..i was like "wow" when i knew that hong giap, wen wei and another friend are going to Sabah without the accompaniment of their parents..Hope i can become as brave and independent as them someday(I even was nagging and getting furious when my mum said she'll just let me go to Penang with my dad)..
hmm..I know 1 semester won't be long and we will gather again very soon.. Hope the best for all of them and myself of course..
(too bad no picture was taken again during this gathering, gotta rush home to watch brazil vs portugal that time)
hmm..I know 1 semester won't be long and we will gather again very soon.. Hope the best for all of them and myself of course..
(too bad no picture was taken again during this gathering, gotta rush home to watch brazil vs portugal that time)
Saturday, June 19, 2010
university
ya..I had been offered the course Bachelor's Degree of Accounting at USM Penang.. I had been thinking much b4 accepting it.. i don't wanna leave KL, the only city that is full of entertainment..KL,a place where I know all of my friends here..KL,place where my family will be here all the time..
So,why did i accept it in the end? well,first, I dun wanna lose the chance to enroll into university..which people stated as one of the best part of life..secondly, it's my first choice,i want that course,coz it had good prospect,m i interested in the course?not sure,had to study first.but 1 thing for sure is, i dont wanna work in a lab in future,i dont think it suits me,office life,is more of the kind i prefer..
BUT after accepting the offer,many things were coming to my mind..I realise i am a coward..I am so scared,so nervous till i can hear my heart pumping when i couldnt fall asleep at nite..well,i know many would laugh at me knowing this,but i couldnt help it,my biggest weakness AILUROPHOBIA(fearing for cats) is haunting me..why?coz most of the students would eat outside at foodcourt,which means getting along with those creature..can i survive that?when i am with my family,we can avoid going to those places,but with those fiends?am i expecting others to tolerate becoz of 1 person?NO!i should overcome it..i should..i hope i could..
other than that, living in a dorm is what my life all about after this..4 years..without ASTRO(which is essential to my life),maybe without access to some of the internet side such as youtube,facebook etc(ban by school),will i survive?
i had been CRYING few days before this..coz the most important thing that i cant let go is MY FAMILY.. till now, only i realise i had a strong bond to them.. i am extremely close to my sis and bro.we will laugh and share jokes together..singing kpop songs that only the 3 of us know..even for a day,i already miss them to death..yeah, i am a sentimental person..and it is a weakness..i keep telling myself to be STRONG..STRONG HEART is important when i am living alone all by myself..no more pa to settle things for me..no more mum by my side to let me discuss and talk bout conflict i had been facing..i am all alone..
it is a big change to my life.. my uncle said everyone had to grow up,somemore i am already 20 this year..yea,i havent even close to the word mature..it is a good chance for me to grow up..overcoming every obstacle..i will come back strongly and proudly after 4 years..BELIEVE IN MYSELF AND STAY STRONG, ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH!
So,why did i accept it in the end? well,first, I dun wanna lose the chance to enroll into university..which people stated as one of the best part of life..secondly, it's my first choice,i want that course,coz it had good prospect,m i interested in the course?not sure,had to study first.but 1 thing for sure is, i dont wanna work in a lab in future,i dont think it suits me,office life,is more of the kind i prefer..
BUT after accepting the offer,many things were coming to my mind..I realise i am a coward..I am so scared,so nervous till i can hear my heart pumping when i couldnt fall asleep at nite..well,i know many would laugh at me knowing this,but i couldnt help it,my biggest weakness AILUROPHOBIA(fearing for cats) is haunting me..why?coz most of the students would eat outside at foodcourt,which means getting along with those creature..can i survive that?when i am with my family,we can avoid going to those places,but with those fiends?am i expecting others to tolerate becoz of 1 person?NO!i should overcome it..i should..i hope i could..
other than that, living in a dorm is what my life all about after this..4 years..without ASTRO(which is essential to my life),maybe without access to some of the internet side such as youtube,facebook etc(ban by school),will i survive?
i had been CRYING few days before this..coz the most important thing that i cant let go is MY FAMILY.. till now, only i realise i had a strong bond to them.. i am extremely close to my sis and bro.we will laugh and share jokes together..singing kpop songs that only the 3 of us know..even for a day,i already miss them to death..yeah, i am a sentimental person..and it is a weakness..i keep telling myself to be STRONG..STRONG HEART is important when i am living alone all by myself..no more pa to settle things for me..no more mum by my side to let me discuss and talk bout conflict i had been facing..i am all alone..
it is a big change to my life.. my uncle said everyone had to grow up,somemore i am already 20 this year..yea,i havent even close to the word mature..it is a good chance for me to grow up..overcoming every obstacle..i will come back strongly and proudly after 4 years..BELIEVE IN MYSELF AND STAY STRONG, ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH!
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