May 20, 2012
It has not been easy..
19 days into work and i’m truly exhausted. Been through days when i love my job, days when i absolutely hate it and days when i feel so lazy i wish i was sick.
learning to go forth with a joyful heart even when things are not on my side but definitely hasn’t been easy. each night call just gets worse than the previous one, i dont even know how that is possible.
still thankful to have survived the past 19 days with 1 day off, for all the on-call woes & love and for all the humbling encounters. thank god, only you know best 🙂
May 10, 2012
Since work star…
Since work started, i take comfort in this..
when what you have is not enough, God supplies.
Slowly but surely 🙂
April 22, 2012
the past week has been filled with orientation talks, admin matters and exhausting team building events. but that’s not the end, more to come in the coming week.
tiring as it may be & envious of others who are obviously gloating over the free time to themselves, it is still satisfying to know that i’ve made the right choice & chose the right place. this is possibly one of the few orientation talks that i’ve paid attention to and one of the few whose values & principles i actually agree with and didn’t leave me snorting or smirking half way through. speeches remain inspiring & encouraging & if you actually discount the very lazy self in me who just wants to sleep all day, i truly can’t wait to start work!
honestly i was very very very unmotivated to go for the team building event at cck yesterday, i probably spent 20 mins in bed debating if i should go and willing myself to feel sick enough to skip it. i went in the end cos i really couldn’t decide and that seemed like the easiest choice to make- like just go & dont have to think abt it. So i did and it turned out much better than expected. Of course, the option of staying home to sleep in on a rainy Saturday morning remained the best option but having been for the event & seeing for myself how much effort has been put in to make it happen, i’m so glad i went. the admin staffs, senior doctors (including prof t & k) and the bunch of students from ITE actually sacrificed their saturday morning just for this and i’m very sure they are much more tired than i was. they were not only physically present, they were very sporting and participated in the activities as well! i can’t imagine myself doing all that when i’m their age, my brittle bones will probably break or sth. truly a good example of leading by example 🙂 and for the welfare part, it’s ++++++++. from the time orientation started till now, so many meals have been catered for and even snacks which the admin pple bring for us cos we all love food. from yesterday alone, we had breakfast, lunch, tea & dinner.
for all that i’m blessed with, i can only thank god. and i’m convinced of the importance of praying, seeking & listening to god before going into sth, because i’m assured that if this is what He wants for me, it will surely work out 🙂 & it has been the case so far 🙂
April 14, 2012
grad trip to america! (:
possibly one of the most enjoyable trips!! it was somehow much better than the previous trip to the west coast of US. i think it makes a lot of difference to be able to plan your own itinerary…
we went to new york, boston, orlando & miami! orlando has got to be my favourite with the sunny weather, all the exhilerating rides that never fails to leave me waiting in both anticipation & fear, close proximity shopping and peace of a non-city area. no constant honking and the busy bustling of a typical city. new york was fun for its endless shopping and all you’ve to do is to keep walking down the street but it’s too much of a busy city for my liking.. not too happening there- we sleep at like 10pm. nonetheless, i still think i prefer america to europe as a whole. boston was like cambridge! a very pretty place but with a weather too cold for me.
on this trip, i’ve also started reading the hunger games trilogy and can’t wait to watch the movie now! hope it wont be too gory/morbid and cause nightmares… =X
life feels good after exams… i’m v thankful & happy for the much needed rest & fun! (: hope it continues to be so after monday 10am.
March 20, 2012
Only a week lef…
Only a week left to go!!
i really cannot wait! it has been THE MOST miserable exam ever in my life so far… such a terrible feeling to have LOA (but no LOW) and an utter lack of sleep. but it’s okay.. it’s all ending very soon and i thank God for being so so so so extremely merciful so far.
i dont know who still reads this but hang in there friendssss!!! =)
P.S. studying for gen med is so much more enjoyable than slogging my guts out for surg (and still dont know many things urgh).
March 12, 2012
Your eye is on …
Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand it conforts me
From the ends of my earth
To the depths of my heart
Let Your mercy and stength be seen
You call me to Your purpose
As angels undertand
For your glory
May You draw all men
As Your love and grace demands
And I will run to You
It’s Your words of truth
Not by might not by power
But by Spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace
thankful for this timely reminder before the paper this morning. it really kept me going during the paper when i was so so tired… 🙂
2 more days before a short break!
February 19, 2012
so the studying madness has started… we’ve reached the last lap before our finals.
it can be extremely, extremely tiring & draining to be sitting in the library, studying almost the whole day (except sleep/nap/meal times) and also extremely, extremely easy to feel sorry and sad for myself since the library is always almost empty (obviously not at the med lib).
BUT.
each time i feel sorry and sad for myself, God never fails to remind me of the numerous blessings I have in my life. so during this period when studying gets a lil crazier and more intensive with each passing day, I’m very thankful for…
– a very supportive family who always encourages & brings much joy & laughter to my otherwise very mundane days
– cg friends who go the extra mile to drop me msges just to let me know they are praying for me
– close friend who remembers when exams end and plans meet-ups after that so i can have sth to look forward to
– neighbours who started a grp chat entitled ‘medical exam luck’
– study buddy who shares the same sentiments as me wrt boring studying
– & of course God, for bringing all these people into my life! 🙂
i’m really extremely thankful!!! 😀 and thinking abt all these makes me happy… 🙂
December 20, 2011
the last 5 years- where did they go?
Seems to have lost track of the days/dates since revision posting started. The daily routine of ‘seeing cases’, reading up for tutorials/studying for tests have made the days fly by very unknowingly. though that is not to say that i was really enjoying my surgery revision posting, but merely doing the abovementioned for the sake of clearing the upcoming exams.
And though this week is supposedly a break from school, i find myself returning to school for lessons everyday, even on a Sunday! (all my friends stared at me in disbelief on Saturday night) Tired as i may be, i’m still very grateful for the efforts the tutors put in, just to ensure we get enough knowledge to see us through the exams. that aside, going back to the NUS LT made me miss the good old days of just sitting in the LT going through lecture after lecture. it was a lil nostalgic and a good change in a long while. Since clinicals started, nothing’s been very constant. Not the patients we see, nor the histories we clerk, tutors we meet, and even the group of friends we hang out with. This is life, they say. and it is fleeting.
Soon, MBBS will just be a passing housefly- swift, fleeting, irritating. That pretty much sums up 5 years of medical school- where all things are too fast, too furious, too incomplete.
It was a good day of reminiscence (:
ANNYEONG! 