Acts 9:10-16
10 Now there was a disciple in Damascus named Ananias. The Lord said to him in a vision, ‘Ananias.’ He answered, ‘Here I am, Lord.’ 11The Lord said to him, ‘Get up and go to the street called Straight, and at the house of Judas look for a man of Tarsus named Saul. At this moment he is praying, 12and he has seen in a vision a man named Ananias come in and lay his hands on him so that he might regain his sight.’ 13But Ananias answered, ‘Lord, I have heard from many about this man, how much evil he has done to your saints in Jerusalem; 14and here he has authority from the chief priests to bind all who invoke your name.’ 15But the Lord said to him, ‘Go, for he is an instrument whom I have chosen to bring my name before Gentiles and kings and before the people of Israel; 16I myself will show him how much he must suffer for the sake of my name.’
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If you have been in church for any length of time, then you know about the Apostle Paul. In truth, you may even know about Paul without any kind of Biblical education (I use this in the broadest sense). After all, even with authorship disputations, he is the most prolific New Testament writer, thanks to his many letters or exhortation and admonition. Paul is so central a figure to Christianity that many the faith’s critics shoot it down, calling Paul its grand manipulative architect. Undoubtedly, the Paul’s reputation precedes him, and many a Sunday School student could dispassionately recite his story.
In reading back through this account on my last time, verse 16 really stuck out to me. I knew that Paul suffered for the gospel. Indeed, it seems to be a marker of his ministry which he recounts to the Corinthians. I’ve always assumed that this was par for the course for him. Since I was so familiar with Paul’s story, it was easy to see his sufferings as a nonspecific consequential result of his actions: traveling and speaking controversially to people. But to read this verse, suffering is part of his calling? If you asked me what Paul’s calling was before I noticed this verse for the first time, I probably would have given the answer “to spread the gospel” or something similar. Never would “to suffer” have entered my mind as a possibility.
Often hear Paul’s life preached as “Saul, Jesus Christ’s chief persecutor, becomes Paul, Jesus Christ chief preacher,” but, according to these verses, that is only half the story. We should recognize also that “Saul, Jesus Christ’s chief persecutor, becomes Paul, Jesus Christ’s chief persecuted.“
This becomes strikingly clear when looking at the parallelism in the text. Ananias objects, citing “how much evil he has done to [the] saints in Jerusalem” (v.13). But Jesus counters “he is an instrument whom I have chosen…I myself will show him how much he must suffer for the sake of my name” (vv.15-16). The “how much” used in both these objections is also the same word in Greek, ὃσος. While Ananias points what extent Saul’s reputation is, Jesus says that he is going to take this exact reputation and turn it on its head. His reputation will no longer be Saul the persecutor, but Paul the persecuted.
In glossing over Paul’s suffering as a consequence, I trivialize the great importance of his sufferings to the very mission given to Paul and miss God’s own call on my life to suffer. Christianity is, after all, in some capacity, a call to suffer. Jesus’ earthly ministry ends in a brutal passion at the hands of the religious leaders of the day. The problem is that we point to his death, and claim that we are free from this kind of suffering. To the contrary, in John 15:20, Jesus reminds us that this is not the case because “‘Servants are not greater than their master.’ If they persecuted me, they will persecute you.” So, if I truly embrace my call as a Christian, I need to embrace not only my call to a victorious life, but also my call to suffer.
I think too often we idolize Paul, put him up on an impossibly high pedestal, so that, maybe at least subconsciously, we excuse ourselves as not being the great follower that we could be for Jesus. But the call to suffer, is a choice we can all make when it comes–it may be unpleasant, but we are able to do so. As we choose this path, though, realize that it is not futile, but will only serve to advance the Kingdom of God. Paul writes concerning his imprisonment to the Philippians:
12I want you to know, beloved, that what has happened to me has actually helped to spread the gospel, so that it has become known throughout the whole imperial guard and to everyone else that my imprisonment is for Christ; and most of the brothers and sisters, having been made confident in the Lord by my imprisonment, dare to speak the word with greater boldness and without fear. (1:12-14)