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Went for Tuition in the morning at Clementi, If not because my kid is having exam next week, and I'm driving there, I won't bother going all the way there on a lovely Sunday morning. Thereafter, Went to take something from Mindy at Balestier Rd, before heading back to NUS.

Realised that there wasn't food available in the canteens, no choice but to go to Fong Xing for Lunch. Quite happy with it though, cos the Cheese prata was good. Coupled with an egg and a plain, 3 pratas in all, to fill up my grumbling empty stomach..... Yum yum...

Met with my Pool Kakis to study in Central library. It was a worthwhile trip. Environment was conducive, and I was productive.. lolx. Bet if I came home after tuition, I'll be slacking at home, waiting for the second session to start. But had to leave early, cos I've another tuition session at home at 5pm. Zzz... spoils my studying day once again. At least being productive for 2hrs is better than nothing. Should have more of such studying sessions. See everybody mugging hard, motivates me to study hard too. haha..

Was told my n3ng and Jean that I had the Vincent look, cos I was mistaken by n3ng, and she kept refering me as Vincent.. Aiyo... I've many nicknames before, e.g. Otah, Tang Yuan, Zee , Alvin,. and a few closer fren, yuan, yuan yuan.. How can call me vincent... Hmph!!

Underestimated the time to go back, thought would only need 25mins back from sch, but the traffic condition at certain areas were bad.. and time was running short, I've no choice but to speed a bit to reach back in time.. And guess What.. I reached home 1min before the student came.. wahaha.. Phew. At least I wasn't late...

Went back to VJ in the morning around 11am, studied till about 7pm. got super tired half way thru though.. Some how didn't had the feeling to chiong so much.. At least Meng helped me to solve most of my questions.

Came back, without dinner... Went for a short run around 10pm... just 8km to Bedok reservoir and back. Comfortable pace to warm up for the 20km tomorrow night. Have to force myself to train le.. Anyway, was wondering why running at night was bad.. but that's the coolest time of the day. perhaps, there's some things that I don't know about. 8 more weeks to go... 42.195km. Now mileage only half way there... need to jia you le.. far behind my schedule...

ARhz... headache.. very bad headache.. Have been having that for the past few days... Irritating.. can't even sleep well.

You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. In love, you express your emotions through actions.Taking care of someone is how you love them. And you do it well! At work, you do well in a structured environment. You complete tasks well and on time.You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist. How you see yourself: Competent, dependable, and detail oriented When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, dominant, and stuck in a rut

Had breakfast with Jean in the morning, at the Bugis Mac, followed by studying there... Which was later joined by KW. Was actually quite productive for a period of time till... it became a bit noisy, and a bit of chatting started rolling in.. nevertheless, finished whatever I planned to do for today.. So still Okay..

Played pool from 3-6pm, after that, for the pool buffet at Pool fusion 3. Supposed to be a training session, to train on my positioning. Focus was on follow thru and draw back.. Quite satisfied with my performance today. Though I didn't really pot well, it doesn't matter, cos I was playing with the positioning. So even if I didn't pot the ball, as long as the positioning was there, it was still fine.. haha... Next up, to improve on my accuracy le... Positioniong, almost there...

Had a quick dinner, before heading back for more "training". Actually I felt the afternoon session was more effective. Cos there were a bit too many ppl playing at that time, and its a bit too noisy for me to concentrate. Just play play here and there, sparring with ppl who i've not played with before, and I went to challenge Jia Bin.. Lolx.. That was exciting.. He's quite good, and I decided to play with him, hoping to learn something from him.. hehe... and I realised that I play well when I'm under slight stress and pressure to perform. With the best efforts coming, when I know, I can't afford to miss.

Total played around 6 hrs of pool today. Which is quite xiong. Haha.. Since I enjoy playing, it wasn't that bad. Or rather, it was good.. Guess there won't be anymore such pool marathon, until the end of yr, after the exams le... Its time to start mugging... I need a motivator to push me for it... Currently, quite sianz.. Zzz... hopefully my own motivation will kick in somehow... not much time left...

(AND this is bad... Just realised that its only 9weeks to SCSM. OH NO.... I haven't been clocking enough mileage... Die... last clocked was 15km, last week, before that, 21km, for SBR, a month ago. Haiz... how to squeeze out time for everything..)

First post was on 16th April 07. To think back, this post is still a baby or perhaps in the infant stage... 5 months and 8 days old, or exactly, 162 days old. That makes it one post per 1.62 day. quite a high rate actually.

Honestly, prior to this, I wasn't interested in blogging at all.. But something happened... and i slogged into a depressed state.. Suddenly, there was no one to share my happiness/sorrows. Cos the person has chose to leave... left alone fending for myself. I search in vain for some avenue to relief myself. And I found this. Some where to pen down my thoughts, my feelings, my happiness, my memories.. It brought me a moment of relief, as I no longer needs to swallow down my feelings to myself, at least the com would share with me. And sometimes, when friends who cares, take a look at it.. A simple tag, or comment brightens up my day...

Now after many months, and I've woken up from that nightmare.. I've grown stronger and I guess I'm back on my feet again. It no longer serves as a place for me purely to express my emotional side, but now it serves as a place when I jot down my happiness, happenings, sadness and every little thing that makes/spoils my day.. It has become my diary.

For the past few months, my posts were generally emotionally charged. Only recently, that has changed. Thanks to all my friends that have been constantly standing by me, even just by reading it. To a few that has never posted anything/Tag, I don't know who you are, but thank you for reading as well..

Back from cyclohunt'07. Finished 2nd, 3 mins behind the first team. Kinda wasted,cos we were actually in the lead, but we slacked off towards our last stop, and decided to take a long break before coming back. If not we could have easily gotten 1st.

The route was fairly easy... There were 2 routes, north and the east. we got the North route, and Marcus and Ben are both quite familiar with it, so no prob. went to 10 check points, starting from East coast park..
1. Cedar Girls
2. Serangoon central
3. Serangoon gardens.
4. Kovan
5. Hougang plaza.
6. Jalan Kayu
7. Lower Pierce reservoir
8. Upper thomson road
9. Yio Chu Kang Mrt
10. Bishan Stadium

and finally back to east coast. Covering a total distance of 65km. In a time of 4hr. Including all the navigation and stuff, the pace was quite fast. The 2 energizer bunnies in my team are crazy. Just keep chionging, and I was the weakest link, cos I'm the only one on Mountain bike, and the 3 of them are on roadies. But still managed to catch up for most of it. Very tired though.

Started the race around 10.10pm, finished aroud 2.10am. But Had to wait till the last group to be back and that makes it about 6am. Zzz... Waited for nearly 4 hrs, was killing time by chit chatting, and towards the back, I was KO. Just slept on the bench. and to get the Prize, which is a blinker and head lamp, with a $50, restaurant voucher, which is rather useless, when its split with 4. Kinda wasted my time waiting for it actually. Should have just came home earlier to sleep..

Now I'm off to sleep, after a sleepless night, I'm very tired.. Time to recharge, and prepare for the tuition later at night. Still need to study and prepare for CAs. Sianz....

Z monster is calling me and its time to go... YAwnz... ( hair just got dry... Finally.. )

Just came back from several hours of pool. It was NUS 8 ball pool carnival at Mambo, Bukit timah. Though I went out in the first rd due to some lousy playing from myself, I felt I should have won it actually. I was really off the cut, and simply couldn't pot the Black at the impt moment. Thus handing my opponent the game. Nevertheless, I stayed on to watch other friends play. Stayed all the way till 5.40pm. and got a chalk holder as a lucky draw prize... was actually hoping for a cue.. Got the third prize... Cue was the top 2... so close but yet so far...

Found out something today... The girl that I was interested in, is actually amber... meaning, with bf le... Green for go, open , amber for stop, got bf, red for nono, married. Haha... something new that I learnt. With reference to the traffic light. Sad sad... actually thought of going for it le... just to find out from another fren that she's got a lovely bf. haha... Too bad... Most of the time, the better ones are usually taken. She's pretty, with similiar interest,( play pool ), and most importantly, can chat and click. Nvm... will just maintain as friends...

Anyway, got to go now for the night cycling le.. CYCLOHUNT organised by NUS rovers. Hopefully will still be sound enough to complete the whole thing. Quite tired already actually. but friends are chionging to get top few position... Will try by best to do so... Yawnz... sleepless night again...

Got a real shock when I did my stats mid term test this morning. There's so much of the paper that I'm not sure, and upon checking with my friends, realise that I got quite a lot wrong. Partly cos I didn't sleep well last night, secondly and most importantly, I didn't prepare for it at all. Took it for granted that the tutorials are too easy, never went to study for it. Instead of testing on the application of the formulas, the focus was on reasoning. Which means dead if you didn't revise. Quite sure that I'll fail this paper and it'll be my first ever math related paper that I flop so badly. to make things worst, its 25% of the overall marks. Need to score nearly full marks for the next 75% to pull myself out of the deep pit that I'm in now.

Immediately after the CA, went for Chem lect. And got my CA result. Totally disappointing. But I know where I went wrong. It wasn't a difficult paper, but just didn't answer correctly to some parts of it. Did rather badly for this, around the 60% percentile. Guess this should rate a B or B- grade or perhaps a C + ? This is really bad.... though its 10% of the overall marks.

This is a double shock. Atrocious results for the first few CAs. And I've calculus and Biodiversity CA immediately after the recess week. Can I study in time to prepare for it ? I guess its not a matter of choice. I MUZ finish in time. Haiz... Things isn't looking good at the moment. and the grades are far from satisfactory.

Came back this afternoon, and without second thoughts, I know I must change the way I'm doing now. I'm putting a FULL STOP. to my online gaming, aka, DOTA, COH. Those are addictive. No more of that until the end of year when my exams are over. Trade off for bridge, pool and studies. If I still can't manage to pull myself up, bridge and pool will go next. There's simply no other choice. No life as it can be, but there's no 2 ways about doing it. Just too bad that I'm not that smart as some people who can handle all together, having the best of everything. The sad truth is facing me.. And I've got to live through it.

Saw a shooting star just now, while standing outside the toilet waiting for some friends to share cab back. This is one of the rare few times that I get to see a shooting star passing right infront of me. It was quite a scene.. With a blazing streak of light just zooming past infront of you. Many ppl say that making a wish upon seeing a shooting star, the wish will come true... I had no time to make a wish, cos it was only for abt 1-2 sec ? And my only reaction then was.. " Wow " ... haha.. nothing went into my head...

Was still in school at 10.30pm, due to bridge ending late... once again. nothing unusual.. lolx.. but this time round, the difference is that my fren, who usually comes along, is not around, so cannot take the ride back together..." usually his dad will come and pick him ... damn.. lol... " Played rather well today, with a few crazy bid. But that's cos we were playing with some of the newbies.. So its not that challenging and definitely much easier to play better than them. Experience counts a lot. Whatever the case, managed to meet some new ppl, and did enjoy myself today. that's all it matters at the moment. To enjoy and have fun.

I'm going to play punk and pangseh that yr 4 guy that suddenly joined our group for IT project. he was groupless and he suddenly ask to join our group, consisting of only me and liang he... supposed to be a 3-4 man group, but we both opted for 2 person, so as to facilitate our timing and working preference. we've already came up with a few ideas on what to do. and he's not contacted us at all... I'm going to just hand in the proposal on thurs, and leave his name out. Since he's not interested in contributing anything, TOO BAD. GO AWAY... yr 4 still taking level 1000 module.. wth... not interested in doing, and hope we'll do for u? Blah.. I'm not so nice... Shoo.. wahaha..

Played one of my better pool session today.. Paired up with a girl, Jeanie.. She's good man.. Rare to find female players of her standard.. Together we formed a good team, and we had good streaks, causing us to hog the table for a very long time.. wahaha... Quite a nice and cheerful girl, Which made my game today even more interesting and fun. Its important to enjoy the company of your partner...

Liang He and Tuck Weng keep making fun of it, and said I've got the Jeanie aka " Genie " power. haha... whatever they say, as long as I have enjoyed my game there...

After the formal session with the club, we extended our play and the 3 of us continued to play for an extra 1 1/2 hr. It was supposed to be an hour only... but after the first 15 min, I went on a winning streak, continuosly winning all the way... I think maybe that's about 12 games? in that hour? I wanted to go off after an hour.. but then they say will play till I get dethrone.. Lolz.. And so I played on and keep winning.. :p And then again, the "Jeanie" Aura was giving me the power and providing negative Aura to my opponents.. Wahaha... Guess they are just finding excuses..

Anyway, Its good to know more ppl, especially with the common interest... just too bad that she lives at CCK, if not can ask her out to play pool.. haha... Nvm, will try to get to know her more in the future..


I'm starting to enjoy my Uni life more now.. its getting more lively and fun... even though the workload is getting very heavy.. Muz strike a balance for it..

Went for a family dinner today... Such a nice feeling.. Its been a really long long time since we last went out as a family to have a dinner together. Partly because of my schedule, I'm not home for dinner 6-7 days a week. Went to Grand Copthorne hotel to have the buffet dinner. The food was quite good.. and to list a few fav, its the drunken prawn, the fresh sashimi, and the delicious lamb steak.. yum Yum... but all comes at a price.. $45 per head. Sis's treat, Occasionally, will bring our family out for expensive dinner... Now its always on my sis, when I start working, I promise, i'll take over the role... hmm.. perhaps ... share the role. hahah..

Just some food that I had just now... ONLY the appetizer and the Dessert, cos too busy eating the main course... forgot to take some shots.. Lolx.. *Slurpz*

Operation Isaac Ervin was a success. It was supposed to be a surprise for Ervin Bdae. Ervin was supposed to meet his cousins for Kbox, but we managed to get in touch with his sis, ethelyn, and her cousins, to arrange for them to pang seh him, so that we can "kidnap" him. So I went ahead with the planning on timings to meet, the place to do the " brazilian Waxing " and the venue for lunch. Brazilian waxing, was suggested by HS,knowing that Ervin will be game enough to take on all challenges, we didn't think twice to go ahead with it. The coordination was a bit tough.. Need to coordinate with 8 ppl, spreading of msg, relaying, waiting for response from Ervin's counsin side etc.

The actual exection of the operation was really exciting. With Ben coming up with in-prompt to idea. Writing a note and asking some stranger to pass it to him, before meeting us at the carpark, with Me acting to be there coincidentally, and HS blindfolding him from the back. Lolx.. It was really fun and adrenaline filled. We caught him totally by surprise and gave him the special Present that I'm sure he would never forget.. Wahaha.. Who can forget the first " brazilian Waxing " on the 21st Bdae.

Guess such things only happen when you have a group of army buddies who are Onz and brother enough to organise it. How many friends will you be okay and not shy to do such things. Not when there's girls around isn't it ? Hmm.. perhaps for Ervin is different. haha...

After that, after 1 1/2 hr of waiting for Ervin to be done, we went to Marina Square Waraku to have our Lunch. The Sashimi there is quite nice. Hang around till 5.30pm before heading back. Guess what ? On the way back, the Tyre Burst.. TMD. luckily i've already turned out of ECP, if not high chance an accident may have happened when you are travelling at 100+ on the expressway. the sudden change in pressure may cause me to lose control and crash. Had to do and immediate action drill, ( IA drill ) .lolx.. so army.. So had to change the tyre on the spot. Luckily Ben was there to help me with it. First time doing such a thing, what an experience. took abt 15mins... rather fast... Managed to learn something which may come in handy next time..

Can't imagine Why I've always encountered so many stuffs while driving. Within a short span of 8mths driving, I've encountered many things. Accident with Motorcyclist, Tio Summon for not using coupon, issued warning letter for parking at reserve lot at Raffles the plaza, Near accident with a SBS bus.. and now. Tyre burst.. lolx.. what an exciting driving career.. Can't imagine What's next on the list...

Studied whole day in VJ yesterday, didn't really get into the studying mood initially, so the rate of absorbing in the afternoon was rather slow... Things got better when we went for a run around 5.30pm. The run was exceptionally refreshing and when we got back , I was able to absorb well.. Amazingly. haha... the running some how unblocked my rusty brain, which was trying damn hard to figure out what the hell the notes and Tx bk was talking about.

Anyway, planned quite a few things to surprise ervin, for it is his bdae on monday. and he personally requested for a surprise party.. wth. haha... I'm sure he'd definitely get a real shock when he know what I have planned for him.. " brazilian Wax at the Private Area.. " Lolx.. Confirm unforgettable for lifetime.. Wahaha... hopefully he'll be game enough to take it on.. Though we didn't really give him any chance.. unless he back out last min. Before they start Operating on him. haha... Shall see what happens later..

Going to see Karen off in a few hrs time. Rather tired le.. but I know once I sleep, I won;t wake up.. and there's still tuition tomorrow.. Die liao larh. need to survive tomorrow and revise for Chem test tomorrow night..

Went for my first ever Pool training yesterday evening at Pool Fusion 3, Bugis. I've never being through any proper training nor coaching in Pool and to have a coach tiving some tips and guidance is just so different. The coach was Ricky Chew, among singapore's Top 10 players.

The lesson was focusing on basics, which is what I need, cos I think that my basics are really weak. No foundations at all, just getting use to the style that I prefer for myself, but that means no consistency, which is very much needed in playing pool. He gave some tips on how to maintain a good posture and how to maintain good cue-ing. Took a bit of time to get use to it... and could see the difference in the stability of my strokes. Would take more time to in build into my playing.. hopefully it'll be effective in the future.

One bad thing about the session was that the Coach to Students ratio is ridiculously big. 1 coach to 22 students. with a session spanning over 2 hrs, its quite impossible to have much 1 to 1 guidance, even having a min is considered lucky. Though its the basics that he can impart to us, the rest is up to ourselves to improve and have our style. Out of the so many players, I've got a feeling that there would be quite a few of them that would drop out eventually. That would be good news for me, cos that means lesser ppl to fight for the table time and time from the coach. Though that may mean a higher training fees per month. Hmm... a trade off I guess.

Finally submitted my first Lab Report. Its really quite a chore to do it. the long hours spent in doing and editing it.. To think that I'm in Life Sciences, means the next 3 yrs would be filled with that.. ROFL. What have I gotten myself into.. Still got a chem CA next week, and a Chem lab report to hand in my tues. Need to balance up the time to finish the report and at the same time, study for the test.. Feel so time tight.. how I wish I have 30 hrs a day. So that the extra 6 hrs, 4 could be spend on studying, 2 for sleeping... I'm seriously lack of sleep for the past 2 weeks. Fatigue is building up, and I'm starting to have problem waking up on time to go for lessons. Yawnz...

Took a photo with grace this afternoon while having IT lecture. Was a bit bored, so decided to do it, of cos with her agreeing lar.. haha.. quite a pretty girl, but don't think she's the type of girl for me.. and there's SO many guys on her heels. lolx.. I won't stand a chance man.. seriously. She's a bit too " xiao Jie" for me I think. Though this is a general remark, cos I've not really known her for that long, just that for the past 4 weeks, we've been attending most lecture together. Not a really fair judgement call.

Told karen abt her, and she said both she and fang also quite " xiao Jie" mah, but I still can hang around with them.. Lolx.. yeah.. I guess that's a bit different ba. both of them are good friends of mine... haha.. That's quite self explanatory I guess. I just feel comfortable with them.. That's impt. Regarding Grace, I have my doubts on it.. I've got a feeling it'll just be another of those Hi-Bye friend.


Anyway, I'm Supposed to be doing my LAB report.. KNS. should get back to work le.. I'm so behind in my Tutorial and Readings.. I'm so dead.. Got a lot to catch up liao. ZzZ.. only 4th week, got so much work to do.. How to squeeze out time?!? give me 28hrs a day pls...

Took part in the NUS-NTU bridge competition this morning. Represented the NUS team in the Junior Team. The format is 4 in a team, and there's 2 teams from each Uni. One senior team and one junior team each, playing against each other.. Started at 9am in the morning at NTU, playing a total of 4 rds, each lasting abt 2 hrs each... So a total of 8 hrs of gruesome mind training. Though we were allowed to swap with the reserves, but my partner, who is the Chair-person, choose to play all 4 rds.. So... ya... have to play on.. not that I mind playing , but thought there could be equal chances for my other team mates to play too.

We started off badly, falling behind by 37imps in the first round, second round, lost another 3 imps... worsening the condition. But in our 3rd round, we manage to crawl back 37 imps, so we were just 3 imps behind by the end of the 3rd roud. Rather happy that we put in a good performance for that... Then came the last round. Rd 4, don't know what happened, we got beaten flat in that round, throwing away all the hardwork we have done. In the end. we lost because of that last round.. so disappointing. but it was a good learning experience. Though I had my unhappy moments with my partner... Partially because I'm still not use to the bidding that he's using...

Don't know why, but my brain just don't seem to be able to digest all the information that he has been throwing at me... and When I compare myself with those better bridge players, I know there's a huge gap to be filled... Perhaps I'm not cut out for contract bridge. Feel like quiting it le.. Knowing that I can improve more if I carry on playing it, but that will take alot of time, and I'm not sure if I will be willing to do so.Spending so much time in it, is it really worth it ? To make things more difficult, I've no confidence that I can do well. If there's a high chance that I will succeed, definitely it'll be worth a try. Haiz.. Don't know what choice to make... perhaps taking it as a recreation, can be an option, but I don't think I'll be happy with just that.. I enjoy playing bridge yes.. But who plays something without the intention to get better ? together with my competitive nature.. I'll definitely strive for the best if I can.

Recently, I've been facing with dilemna. I don't know what I really want to achieve in Uni, other than getting honours. Is that all that I want? Life's being quite a bore for me.. Many ppl have asked me, how come my weekends are so free.. e.g. of FAQ , " Today is saturday, how come at home ? " " Today weekend leh.. so free arh? never go out ? " Its not a matter of whether I'm free.. Its just that nobody ask me out.. and I didn't bother asking anybody to go out.. Cos there's nothing in mind for me to do.. The only thing that I've been doing for the past 2 weekends , is that I'm in VJC studying. So by right, that's going out... but by left, that's just studying. lolx.. Watever...

Maybe I should get myself a gf, to kill some time. though I don't have much time for it actually.. haha.. contradicting. I'm not making any sense as of now... Slept for 3 hrs last night... and today, can only sleep for 6, cos there's Lecture at 8am. Zzz.. Speaking of a zombie... combining my drained brain, I make a really good half-dead.. or is a zombie an undead? hmm... no idea.. Blah... I should get to sleep soon.. killing more of my little brain cells that's left, struggling to keep my body going.. Long live the ..... uhm.... " forever strong brain cells "