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Sorry for the lack of updates lately people. I feel like I’ve been working 7 days a week. Just when I am beginning to enjoy working with my new colleagues, some prick up there suddenly broke up our team for their own benefit. Leaving my section slowly crumbling due to insufficient manpower. Oh well, mana saja kamu lah. Pricks!
Today I took one day leave, so I switched off my phone supaya inda kena call dari office. I hate that, really! Especially when I needed my weekend for a good time. My hiatus will carry on until Sunday, coz I know there’s gonna be some sort of an event this Sunday and I want to avoid that. Not because Ayu will be there or whatever, I just don’t want to attend it. All those pricks will be there!
By the way, there’s this girl at work, lawa ani bah hehe! Don’t mean to be gatal or whatever coz for me Emma has got everything I want. But this girl, lawa bah. hehe siapa inda suka tengok orang lawa kan. I can only admire her beauty quietly, we haven’t talked much though, except a quick introductionary and a few talks about work. Ok that’s it, melarat karang! LOL!
I was sending a text message to a friend yesterday when actually I sent it to the wrong number. I only realised my mistake when that person replied my text,
“Sapa ne?”
“Owh sorry, aku salah send, sorry once again.” I replied.
“Jangan main2 wang ah! Jgn msg sini lagi! Ku report polis krg” that chap replied.
WTF! Ok, I know it was my mistake, but hey! I did apologised, case supposed to be close no? But that prick inda mau2. Hmm malas ku kan melayan. I could have make things bigger but I was in my best of mood yesterday.
Oh well! Sad to say, some people around us only have negativity and violence in their minds. They think problems can be solved with their fists. What a shame!
My legs hurts. It was Maulud on Thursday so I went lah. Its not every year I participate in such events. And its proven that I really need to regain stamina. Kalau dulu kan, kalau setakat bejalan 5-6 kilometers atu, boleh tahan tu. Bukan cakap besar. But I’m just not good in climbing, but on flat surface, give it to me baby! Well, that was before. Yesterday, baru jua 4.3 km walk around the capital pun pancit rasanya. Darn! I think I should go back to the gym, i.e. if I can still find my way! Heheh!
Apart from that, my week has been an uneventful one. Work, seeing geeky faces everyday, occasional dinner with Emma and late night chat with Cute Little Hana. Us being full of crap as always, but yea I always enjoyed chatting with her. Emma, being a career woman herself, she would go home and sleep after her long day at work. So yea I don’t get to see her often.
I’m lost for words actually, like sometimes I just dunno what to say or write. Ok lah from now on my language will be rojak2 one, kes malas kan mengarang lah ni. Tulis saja apa yang terlintas di kepala and send the data directly to my fingers without proof-reading Heheh!
Since I’ve been in the mellow mood lately, I opted to turn on my 90s playlist, the songs which has some sentimental memories for me. Songs like Roxette’s Vulnerable, Def Leppard’s When Love and Hate Collides, E17’s If You Ever.
E17’s song If You Ever has got a lot of meaning for me. You see I used to be close with this girl, say this was like 10 years ago. We’re still close though but it’s just that we don’t see much of each other lately. Just like me and my buddy Amal. This girl’s name is Ira, we were as close as couples. We do things a couple would do, things like me sending her and picking her up from work everyday, do shopping together, pokoknya everywhere we go, we were always together, macam belangkas nya orang tua2. Even sometimes bejalan pun pegang2 tangan.
So yea, of course people thought that we were couples kan. But we agreed that we won’t bother what other people say about us, as long as we know who we are. Hmm maybe there was some mutual but unspoken feelings between us, but I guess it’s better if things stay that way. So that E17’s song, it’s the song we always sang together. We used to spend time cruising the highway from east to west and west to east, singing, howling in the middle of the night. And when I hear this song, for sure Ira will be the one who came into my mind.
Speaking of Amal, she texted me last night to tell me that she got promoted, so I replied asking for details but up to now she hasn’t responded, I guess her credit ran out. Biskut tah jua banar, sekejap ader, sekejap takder.. And she mentioned about how she miss our good ol days together. Heheh blast from the past kept coming huh?
For the past few nights, me and Cute Little Hana have been putting ourselves in a mellow mood, listening to songs that has connection with the story of our lives. Ungu’s song Cinta Dalam Hati is currently in her top chart and I am sure that it’s a favourite for almost everyone right now. And yes, the same goes for me, being a fan of Indonesian bands.
Somehow few verses from the song are kinda touching and expressive on my part..
..mengagumi tanpa di cintai..
..tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia dengan hidupmu..
..cintaimu pun adalah bahagia untukku..
..izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja..
..tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal buat selamanya..
..biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja..
Last night there was a poisoning attempt but somehow I just ignored it although I was indirectly ‘poisoned’ if you know what I mean, enuff said. I told Zara about it and she was pissed. Im sure everyone is. Zara went to the extent of saying,
“If you kan ambil hati apa me cakap ani, agatah!!!”
Sounded like a challenge, but she’s got a point! I know I am stubborn and can’t get Season 1 out of my system. Forgetting might sound easy as saying it, maybe for some people yea! We are all different. At least I tried right, otherwise I would have replied that poisonous text last night. I ignored, it was a win on my side, but deep inside it somehow opened an old wound and I thought I just wanna tell somebody about it, somebody I feel I am close to. Good that Cute Little Hana was there last night to cheer me up, as always, with our gila-gila stuff.
Zara said I need to socialize, go out and meet some friends or something like that. Well, of course I’d love to, but work has been killing me and I need weekends for a well deserved rest. So my socializing days are kinda over, need I mention about those days? I don’t think you all want to know, all I can say is that it was ‘heavy’! I have now come to an age where I need to cool down and retire from my devilish youth. And now most of my ‘partners in crime’ have settled down, happily married and making babies. But yea, Zara is absolutely right, I need a very good time off from work. Yes I really do need it, away from those stack of papers, some shit that I wasn’t even supposed to do, and of course away from those suck-up pricks.
Oh well. On the other hand, I’ve seen long queues at Fun Donuts in Yayasan, people queuing up for hours just to grab those doughnuts. It looks yummy though, but I haven’t tried any, with that kind of queue I’d rather wait till people got bored of it. And oh! A friend went there on Friday evening and was had by a rude local waitress there. My friend was pissed and that girl just walked away like nothing happened and her Filipino colleague had to apologize on her behalf. What a shame yea!
I’m still feeling tired, I was basically spending the whole weekend at a best friend’s wedding. Syaf, who I’ve known for 15 years, is now officially a husband as of yesterday. So I spent my whole weekend being by his side, helping him out with the usual wedding chores where I can. Not only we’ve had our share of fun and grief during the 15 years period, his family is like my family already. And when the rest of our close friends came, it was a hell of a time, laughing and reminescing our good times together.
As a result of coming home late last night, I was an hour late for work today. If it wasn’t for Eza’s text message this morning, I could have been still asleep. My Star and Rainbow texted me she saw a rainbow on her way to lecture, thanks Eza, you’re a savior. At work, I didn’t do much work, after all there was nothing urgent. So yea, just another slow and boring and sleepy Monday.
Oh well, I gotta catch up on my sleep now.
Ok now I guess I’ll just mention her name for the sake of sharing and updating you guys. Sometime last week, I coincidentally bumped into Ayu while on a work assignment. So we talked and ended up having lunch together. Well it was just a friendly meeting, catching up on things. She even talked with her new boyfriend on the phone while we ate, you know, the lovey dovey words when a couple in love talked. I didn’t even get jealous that time. Why should I right?
But I didn”t realise that after-effects does not come immediately. Our body reacts to a drug at an average of 4 hours, of course it depends on individuals. As for me, the lunch with Ayu did have a effect later that night. I was talking with Zara that night, you know I sometimes call Zara with the call ‘baby’ because she has a baby face. That night I said to her,
“Hey, remind me not to call you ‘baby’ anymore.”
“Why is that?” she said.
“Because when Ayu was on the phone with her boyfriend today, she addressed herself as ‘baby”.
Somehow Zara noticed a hint of jealousy in my words. And yes, I was somewhat jealous, the feelings came late. If it was those days during the pinnacle of my relationship with Ayu, I’m sure I must have left her in that restaurant, but then those days she was engaged so I was sort of accepting her for what she was.
Well, the poison is still in my blood I guess. Everytime I see her, the poison will flow through my veins, sending me into bitter pain. But it didn’t last long, the poison will then stay dormant within my system. So I guess the best thing to do is, try not to see her or keep in touch with her often. Yes she will still be my colleague and friend, I cannot avoid it, but I have to keep my distance.
Okay here it is, the blog I’m gonna be hosting, some sort of a spin-off. Don’t ask me who is Umi though, but for sure her expressive writing is going to shed some tears. So check out When You’re Gone, brought to you by cintaislove.wordpress.com
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