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26th November 2008, it’s been 3 years since Late Amy left us, yet everything is still fresh in my mind. On that dark afternoon, I was sitting in front of my PC doing some work. Amal called me, crying, telling me the news. I just couldn’t believe it, I was speechless.. totally speechless. I picked up Amal from work and she was crying all the way while I could not utter a single word. Later that night, we opened our hearts to accept the hard fact. Allah loves Amy more than we do, and life has to go on. May Allah bless Amy.
29th November 2008, it was Amal’s birthday. No celebration this year, I texted her but she didn’t reply until now, I wonder where is she. 3 years ago, we held a celebration, not a grand one though, just gathered our close friends and had dinner under Amal’s treat. It was somewhat a somber night especially when one of the seat was reserved for Late Amy. Amal cried again and I gave her a hug. I bought her roses to cheer her up, and later that night she was a happy girl when I sent her home. Now when I thought of those good ol’ days, I cam feel the space between me and her.
1st December 2008, it was Late Amy’s birthday. She could have been 23 years old now. But she didn’t even make it for her 20th birthday.
And also happy birthday to my Star and Rainbow, many happy returns dear.
I guess the past week has got significant dates for me huh.. Not to mention my Cute Little Hana’s birthday coming up too. Looks like there’s going to be a celebration, I accompanied her pre-ordering her cake yesterday. She’s been a company to me lately, at work, MSN, text messages, as usual with our craziness and jokes. As always, she never failed to cheer my day.
I’m still feeling tired, I was basically spending the whole weekend at a best friend’s wedding. Syaf, who I’ve known for 15 years, is now officially a husband as of yesterday. So I spent my whole weekend being by his side, helping him out with the usual wedding chores where I can. Not only we’ve had our share of fun and grief during the 15 years period, his family is like my family already. And when the rest of our close friends came, it was a hell of a time, laughing and reminescing our good times together.
As a result of coming home late last night, I was an hour late for work today. If it wasn’t for Eza’s text message this morning, I could have been still asleep. My Star and Rainbow texted me she saw a rainbow on her way to lecture, thanks Eza, you’re a savior. At work, I didn’t do much work, after all there was nothing urgent. So yea, just another slow and boring and sleepy Monday.
Oh well, I gotta catch up on my sleep now.
It’s our nation’s 24th National Day tomorrow, somehow 23rd February meant something to me and my Star and Rainbow Eza. It was last year’s National Day that we met each other, although we didn’t really talk. She was in the parade and I was taking photos with some photographer friends. Eza posed the moment I pointed my little camera towards her, but that was it, we didn’t talk.
Some few weeks later, or was it months, we met again and this time we talked. We exchanged phone numbers and since then we became good friends until now. With the friendship we built, it feels like we’ve known each other for years, although basically our friendship is just one year old. She is really a star and a rainbow especially when I am in sorrow, a moment with her is never dull. We don’t see each other often but we’ll chat on MSN or texts if we’re not busy. Even during busy days, I’d take a minute to send her a hi especially if I don’t hear from her for some time. I know I owe her coffee though. Heheh!
Happy anniversary Eza, my Star & Rainbow, always!
I hate Mondays, two days off during the weekend wasn’t enough for me. Seriously I need a very long vacation. No work, no phonecalls, no nothing. At work, people around me are beginning to behave like pricks, each of them with their own interests. Nothing compares to my previous colleagues who I clicked so well with them. More reshuffling on the way, those who are close to me are getting transferred soon, seems like I’m gonna be a loner here. Deep inside I pray so that I will be transferred to my previous branch.
Anyway my depression eased a bit when I get to see My Star and Rainbow Eza for a while. It was a busy day for us but a few minutes with her is enough to make my day today. It’s not everyday that I get to see her. And Fizz, she’s in Singapore right now, shop till you drop girl! And Cute Little Hana, she’s sad over something right now, all about men! Cheer up sista!
My weekend, I spent as much of it resting, compensating for the lack of sleep during the week. Watched Rambo 4 with Emma on Friday, while Saturday she went for a party. I didn’t come though because it’s her time with her friends. One thing about Emma, she love dancing and parties. Well, as long as she’s not over the limits, I am fine with it. She knows the rules. I know I easily trust people, sometimes to the extent of giving too much freedom. I gave too much freedom to my ex-girlfriend and she abused the trust. But yea I think I can trust Emma.
So I spent my Saturday night with nothing much to do except lazing around. There was a bloggers’ gathering in KB and a blogger friend wanted to take me there. I would have attended anonymously but hey, it was by invitation only. Heheh!
Nothing interesting happening at work today, everyone went on Christmas holiday I suppose. So apart from 2 pointless meetings with some jokers, I spent the day with minimal paperwork while my colleagues decorated a Christmas tree. Such a quiet and peaceful day, I didn’t even get any phonecalls except for a text message from Ayu which I totally ignored.
She was enquiring something about work, I expected her to text me today so I deliberately switched off my handphone. I’m sure she’s been trying to miss call me the whole day. Well I don’t mean to be unhelpful, just want to give her a taste of how it feels to be treated like shit. Furthermore, I’m sure she’ll manage with her duties even without my help. Her text ended with the usual *mwahz* which means poison for me. I could have replied her with a very short and cold answer to her query but I opted not to reply at all, thanks to Fizz and Eza for always supporting me. I know there’s a little corner in my heart made me miss her, especially when I remember the good times spent with her. But a man has got to do what a man got to do to maintain his pride.
Merry Christmas for those who celebrate 🙂
Keep on posting the comments on the previous post guys. The comment which make an impact to me will win. Heheh! By the way, me and Fizz pulled a little trick on Ayu yesterday just to see how genuine she is in appreciating a friend. The game plan is like this; I am to text her and ask her out last night, and see what’s her answer to that. If she said yes, I am to cancel it two hours before the date. Heheh! Nasty? So yea, she was on MSN and I asked her,
“What you doing tonight?”
“Ermm, I dunno ah, nada apa-apa kali.” she said.
“Mau jalan tonight?” I offered.
“Lain kali saja, maybe me jalan karang malam. Sorry ah?”
I’ll let you guys to analyse that little conversation. That’s when Fizz said she really wanted to push me away from her bloody precious life. Oh well, who gives a damn anyway.
Went out and hang out with Fizz last night. Emma went out to a party with her friends, Eza had to take care of her sick granny while my boy friends are on night shift. And that crazy little plan to take Ayu out, I’m not going to drive 200kms just to get hurt right? So yea, fetched Fizz and we went out for dinner, talk and quality time somewhere in Gadong. Thanks for your time dearest.
My eyes are still red and squinty, the after effects of not having sufficient rest for the past 4 days. And guess what, I am asked to come to work again tomorrow for some never ending corporate thingy. That’s it, I’m taking off on Monday and switch off my phone. Now I miss my old work place, at least I don’t have to work on weekends despite having bosses with self interest. Seriously!
Now I’m gonna bitch about my current boss. He’s the type who will talk about one thing to one person and then say a different story to another. In another words, two-face, or twisted tongue. And if we’re not careful he might get us in deep trouble especially when there’s money involved. He’ll just instruct us to do a costly project but in the end, when there’s a problem with it, he’ll just wash his hands and said he never instructed anybody to do it. I’m beginning to hear disgusted comments from my colleagues.
And he’s a big time dirty old man. I’ve seen his girlfriend came by every now and then and God knows what on earth are they doing in his office, not to mention his wife and kids being ignored at home. I remember when Eza came by few days ago, the way he looked at my beautiful Star and Rainbow was just like a hungry alligator eyeing on it’s prey. And if he ever touches a thread of Eza’s hair, he’s gonna get his protruding teeth rearranged!
I’m kinda nasty tonight ain’t I? 😉 I’m just tired that’s all. Night!
It’s 1130pm and I just got back from work. As I mentioned before we had this office thingy going on and thank God it’s all over. I can’t wait till the weekend where I can sleep till late compensating for the lack of sleep I’ve had for the past 4 days. It’s good that I worked with wonderful people and we never failed to share lots of light moments. Apart from working with my rowdy new colleagues, I got the chance to meet my lovely previous colleagues too. If only my buddy Amal was there for the whole 4 days but she was only assigned to attend on Monday.
I am not a workaholic person, and I never took my work home. But somehow I can be committed to it because I enjoy making everyone happy especially customers, both internal and external. All in all, despite the eyebags and all, it was all good!
Oh yea, and I get to see Eza for 2 days in a row. Don’t ask how and why, but basically the 4 exhausting days somehow led to an opportunity to meet My Star and Rainbow. It’s not everyday that I see her or talk with her. So many things to talk about in so little time. I hope to see her again very soon.
I need a beauty sleep now, it’s not my day off yet so yea, still and early day tomorrow. It has been a wonderful week!
It’s kinda funny since last night I’ve bumped into the girls from the header image. First I met Eza doing some shopping at The Mall, it’s been ages since I last met her. Well we don’t meet up that much, especially with her busy with her studies and all, but it was great to see her last night. Pretty and cheerful as always, and her hair, yes her hair looks exactly like in the header image. Heheh. Hope I’m gonna see her again soon, perhaps for coffee, just to catch up on so many things.
And today, we had this corporate thingy going on. Yea never ending! I wasn’t into it but heck it turned out to be a great day. If last weekend I spent half a day with Ayu, today, unknowingly, Amal my buddy was assigned to a same task with me. So basically I spent a whole day with her. She wasn’t really feeling well, but she adapted well with the team, we were like laughing and joking all along. Singing our favourite songs, having the time of our life just like the good old days.
After work, me, Amal and few other friends went for dinner at The Mall, and I bumped into Cute Little Hana who was about to watch a movie. Cute as always, like a little baby holding a big cup of popcorn, I was so happy to see her, I think it was August since we last met.
And back to the dinner, Amal wanted to eat dinner at the restaurant where we celebrated her birthday two years ago. The place never change, we reminesced where we sat during that birthday party, she still remember how she cried, how I hugged her, what gifts I gave her, etc. It’s all coming back to us now. Well, I’m glad the bond between me and Amal didn’t change, we’re still as rowdy and crazy just like those days. I don’t know when we will do this again, I hope the time will come.
So yea, I bumped into Eza, Amal and Cute Little Hana. Of course I did see Emma for a while today. Except I didn’t meet Ayu and Fizz. I talked with Ayu on the phone for a while though, and as always there’s my daily text conversations with Fizz. Oh yea I think I haven’t mentioned this. I’ve met Fizz in person, the only reader I have met in person. That was last week I think, I was just accompanying her while she had her hair treated at the salon.
To wrap it up, it’s been a happy but tiring day. It’s almost 2am now and I gotta wake at 6am tomorrow, I am tired but I still feel hyper. Perhaps it’s the coincidental and unintentional meeting and seeing Eza, Amal and Cute Little Hana resulted in this adrenaline rush. The girls I don’t get to see often 🙂
It’s kinda funny how the past few weeks have been birthdays for those so dear to me. First it was Amal’s, then Eza’s, and today it’s the Cute Little Hana’s birthday. Wish you a happy birthday lil sister, and hope you enjoy your day with a blast. It has been ages since I met her except for some text messaging or MSN. I even missed her Hari Raya open house and I know I owe her chocolates as a birthday present. Heheh! Like Eza, I know she’s been busy with her further studies thus we haven’t been catching up on things lately, but I’m sure she kept track of me by reading this blog. Well lil sister, God bless you with success and happiness. Can’t wait for you to return to our workplace.
On the other hand, I kinda miss travelling. With my new responsibilites at my new work station, I reckon I might not get a lot of business trips just like my previous post. I’ve been flying here and there but honestly I can’t get enough because I just love travelling. My former colleague just got back from New Zealand while Ayu from Aussie. Cool huh? I still remember how me and Ayu had plans to go for a holiday in Australia when we were still ‘together’, that would be sweet ain’t it! LOL! But nah, I don’t think that’s going to happen. In fact I better not make it happen.
I know I’m bad. I know I’m mean, I know I shouldn’t be thinking of Ayu anymore. It is just so unfair for my darling Emma, especially without her knowing my account with Ayu during our ‘cold war’. Sometimes I feel I am being dishonest and lying to myself. Fizz said it is Ayu that I actually want, but the fact is I just can’t be with her. It is not even an option. The only only I have is to move on. Of course I do love Emma, I really do and I am sure of it, not a rebound or whatsoever. I am willing to spend the rest of my life with her by my side, but it is just this one thing; why can’t I get over Ayu 100%? I don’t even know what is there in her that makes me so obsessed.
I don’t want to hurt anyone, especially Emma. Yes, it’s true men are bastards, I might be one, in fact I am one. But I don’t want to be one. And if I ever should get married, I don’t want to be a filthy, scandalous old man. I’ve seen these kind of men at my new work place, locking himself up in his office with someone else’s wife during lunchtime. God knows what the eff they’re doing in there. And it is such a disgusting scenario and God forbid, I don’t want to be that kind of man! Some people just enjoy the pleasure of corrupting love with lust.
Women are meant to be loved, and love is meant to be pure!
It’s 1st December. World Aids Day. It was supposed to be Late Amy’s 22nd birthday, of course she’s no longer around. I miss her. Just few days before she died, we had a text conversation. I still remember when she said,
“Inda lagi lama me 20 years old, I’m getting old. Amalan lagi inda cukup.”
She never made it to 20 years old. The last sentence carried a sign which I only realised after she left to meet our Creator. She was a lovely friend, we all love her so much, but above all, God loves her more. I can never forget the way she look during teabreaks, munching on her muffin and giggling with her friends. I still remember the way she look when she finished up Amal’s salad when the 3 of us had lunch. I remember everything and it still feels like yesterday. Her sweet face, her laughter, her giggles. I will never see it again, except in my memory, her photos, and hopefully in the next life.
I miss you Amy. May Allah bless her. Amin!
After knowing each other for months, today I met Fizz for the very first time, a bit unplanned and impromptu though, she was at a saloon for some hair treatment so yea, I basically spent an hour or two accompanying her there and chat. Catching up on stuffs et al. Of course we still text each other almost every day, as always, since the day we knew each other. Our chemistry as friends never change, not even a slightest stint. Friends come and go. No matter what happens in our lives, I know we will always be there for each other. She has stopped blogging, there’s been so many things happening in her life and she just can’t write about it anymore. Of course she can write anytime on this blog being a guest author, and of course she will have me if she ever feel like letting things off her chest.
And by the way, Happy Birthday to Eza, My Star and Rainbow.
I’ve been missing posts lately, not because I’ve been hanging out with Emma or whatsoever. It’s because I’ve been kinda busy with work, projects after projects on my shoulder. Darn! These people can just come up with never ending ideas without even studying how feasible they are. Oh well, not my money anyway. And everytime I got back from work, the first thing I look for will be my pillow and I would spend some time napping before sunset. Not a good habit, I know.
I chat with Eza earlier this evening and that was our first time chatting ever since that ‘interrogation’ night. Heaven on Earth, God knows how I miss her so much. If only she’s in front of me, for sure I’ll give her a warm hug. Poor Eza, she’s been all stressed up with her studies, never ending assignments and all. Her mind must be crumpled with it all and will need a good ironing. Well, I’m sure she’ll get through with her exams next week.
I’m sleepy and tired and it’s 1215am and I got to wake up at 6 tomorrow. That left me with an unhealthy 5 hours 45 minutes of rest now. Ciao for now.
I miss My Star and Rainbow. I haven’t been chatting with her lately, she didn’t reply any of my text and nudges. I think she is mad with me for being unintentionally harsh to her on that night she ‘interrogated’ me. No hard feelings my dear, and I don’t want any personal grudges between us. I AM SORRY, I didn’t mean to hurt a woman’s tender heart. Last night I dreamt of her staring me with fiery eyes and said “Yes I am mad at you!” with her soft voice.
Eza, you may wish to ignore me, you may not want to talk to me anymore, but you will always be my friend, my star and my rainbow. You have always been a star on my dark nights and a rainbow on my rainy days. (Thanks to Unsilent Reader for the quote idea). I know my stubbornness about Ayu sickens you, I’m sure the rest of my readers feel the same way too. I am sorry for everything. Eza, whatever you do out there, take good care of yourself.
I miss you. My Star and Rainbow.
I had a hard time trying to open my eyes wide and digest the truth. I thank each and everyone of you for your concern about me through your comments. I do not regard your comments as attacks or what soever. As much as you want to see me and people around you happy and live a perfect life, I do appreciate and accept all your comments and critics with transparency. If it was hard for you to see me falling in love with someone I can’t have, I know you all are well aware it must have been harder for me. And to tell you all the truth, yesterday was a HARD day for me. My mind and my heart battling each other. The facts that I am loving Ayu and that she can’t be mine, it is wrestling deep within me. And for the ladies, your opinions about Ayu from your perspective as a woman is seriously taken into account.
The assumptions that Ayu is just enjoying the affection from me, her being unfaithful to her fiance and the chances of her doing the same thing to me, her playing with my heart and all. These are real possibilities although only her herself has got the actual answers. Whatever we conclude about her, the bottomline is that I cannot be with her. And then I need to see myself in front of a mirror and analyse myself as indecisive, hypocrite and stubborn. Love, it made me do things that obeys instructions from my heart bypassing my brain. Love happens, my heart took control, dragging me into an ocean that I can’t swim, thus I drowned.
I guess I had too much to digest and absorb, but once again I thank you all for your efforts to make me realise what I have done, where have I done wrong. I might be of a fully grown up age but I know we will keep on learning the facts of life even when we are about to draw our last breath. It was a painful day, and when Eza again interrogated me with the subject of who is ‘someone’, I thought I couldn’t take it anymore. Too many things were already squeezing and battling in my mind and I wasn’t ready to be questioned with another issue. I broke down, I couldn’t take it anymore. My brains are just overloaded with data. Obliged to answer like a witness taking up the stand, I had no choice but to make things clear for her, as clear as a star on a clear night, as clear as a rainbow against a gray sky. With my last comment on the previous post, I hope it is now also clear for the rest of you. And I do not wish to talk about ‘someone’ again.
Eza, please forgive me if I was in any way harsh to you last night. I didn’t mean to and have no intentions to give a slightest scratch to your heart. My readers, I’m sorry if I have made you guys upset or ruin your happy day with my stories, and sorry if I have created arguments amongst yourself.
I need to rest now, I need a very long, uninterrupted, peaceful sleep. No dreams, just a deep sleep.
For the past two days, I’ve been chatting and SMSing with Ayu apart from my daily SMSs with Fizz and at times Cute Little Hana. I don’t know where is Eza and how is she doing, guess she must be busy. My conversations with Ayu, just the usuals. Talks about work, jokes and from movies, music to furnitures.
Last night we talked about marriage and wedding photographs. I said I will recommend her my photographer friend to cover her wedding, but instead she wanted me to take the photos for her. I declined for two reasons, first I’m very lousy in taking photos especially on an event such as a wedding. I’ve seen my photographer friend at work and it’s not easy as it may seem. Second, I told her I can’t stand seeing her getting married and it will hurt me bad. Can’t imagine seeing her sitting on the pelamin with the man she’s going to spend the rest of her life with.
“Napa plang inda mau? Oh well, inda apa lah, actually inda plang me mau you ambil gambar. But will you come to my wedding?” Ayu asked.
My reply, “Sedih jua me tu liat Ayu besanding. I will come though, but awal me balik, me call Ayu saja before Ayu kahwin ok? If me kahwin Ayu datang or not?”
“Aik! Indakan balik awal? Tani begambar dulu sama-sama batu tah you boleh balik. If you kahwin? Kalau kena jemput! You ani! Macam tah me kan kawin any sooner!”
Hehe…Ayu, Ayu! She must be kidding me. Told her I can’t stand seeing her bersanding and yet she still insist to take photos with me on her wedding day? Mun faham bisai! She can be funny sometimes, that’s why I love her 🙂
I was chatting with MY Star and Rainbow this afternoon when beep beep, an incoming text message came in. I felt cold all over when I saw the name on the screen. Ayu! Yes it was from Ayu, inviting me to come over to her open house on Sunday. My God! Why on Sunday when I am fully booked? There is no way I’m gonna cancel other appointments. Ahh well, so I replied explaining to her that I could not make it. So yea, I asked Eza if I should give Ayu a call since it’s been a long time I didn’t talk to her. My Star and Rainbow said yes, call her as a friend.
I was indecisive at first but I did made the call, tried to change my voice just to surprise her a bit, but the moment she heard my voice, she gave a long “Hiiiiiiiiiiii”. Ahh no chance to tease her, she recognised my voice. So we talked for a while, again the tone of her voice sounded sad coz I’ll be moving soon. And again she said,
“Nada tah ada letter lagi dalam my mailbox ni.”
Well, I still can send her notes through internal mail though.
I thought she threw away all the notes I gave her all this while, you know, just to be safe from the daily ‘spot checks’.
“Inda kan dibuang, mestilah me simpan.” she said.
She still keep them in her locker and she will read through it once in a while. Hmm so sweet. Didn’t expect she still appreciates those cheap short notes. Somehow she appreciates me and my feelings even though I don’t know what exactly she feels for me. She do have a feeling, she do love, but to a limited extent. My Star and Rainbow said actually Ayu does not have the loyalty I look for in a woman, otherwise she wouldn’t have a hidden feelings to anyone other than her fiance. Oh well, love happens! That’s the only explaination I can find.
I can’t help saying “I miss you” to her. And she replied with the most soft and manja voice I’ve ever heard from her,
“I miss you tooooooo…”
Enough to sweep me off my feet, but I’m glad I’m still standing. After all, it was just a friendly call just like Eza said, nothing wrong to call Ayu as a friend.
Keyword: “But me tunang orang udah.”
Speaking of chatting with My Star and Rainbow, today she insisted me to tell her who is this ‘someone’ and she was really serious to know about it. I felt like a criminal in an interrogation room, blinded by the 100 watt tungsten light in front of me. Eza said I shouldn’t be keeping secrets from her, being My Star and Rainbow. Yes you are right my dear, I shouldn’t be. I ended up giving her the name and vague description of who is ‘someone’. But I know Eza will ask more and more until she is satisfied 🙂
So here’s a little description I gave My Star and Rainbow. Her name is ‘Siti’, Eza insisted to give the full name, there are lots of Siti around, even her name has got Siti, so does Ayu’s name. She is the same age as Eza. Not working yet. She’s beautiful, pretty, gorgeous and sweet. Jokingly Eza asked who’s prettier, this ‘someone’ or her. Haha, well I don’t want to compare anyone, there is a beautiful person in each and everyone of us. I fell for ‘someone’ because of her personality, her loyalty. Not because of her looks, otherwise I would have fallen for her from the first day I saw her. She beautiful alright, so then that’s a bonus.
‘Someone’ reads my blog almost everyday, I know, coz I chat with her almost everyday too, or at least when we got the chance. And then, she’s taken. So there, I’ll step back for her own happiness. I can only love her as a friend and I don’t want to lose that. Now that she’s reading this, all I ask from her is at least she appreciate how I feel, just the way Ayu appreciates me. I’m not asking for anything more than that, all I ask for is an appreciation as a friend. That’s all. Even if she’s gonna hate me after this, the only answer I can give her is that love happens. Sometimes it happens when you least expected it, it took time to realise even if the person has always been by our side for some time. I just hope she will understand.
Still not clear right? I’m sure My Star and Rainbow will keep on asking me more and more high level questions the next time we chat. And so does my readers. Keep on wondering people. Like I said, I’m trying to bury this feelings for her own happiness.
Just another lazy Sunday morning, came home around 3am last night after hanging out with some friends and a solo highway cruise to kill the time. Fizz was around the area and I thought of seeing her but somehow it didn’t happen. Hehe, maybe next time Fizz. Otherwise it would have been my first time seeing her. I didn’t sleep the moment I got home, did some stuffs on my pc and I hit the sack around 5am and here I am fresh at 10am and blogging.
I’ve got numerous questions on meebo, especially with regards to who is ‘someone’. Hehe, I sure did created one hell of a stir didn’t I? I can’t tell for the time being people, and I’m not sure if I am gonna tell. I thought of spilling the beans to her but when come to think about it, I don’t want to gamble the friendship coz I can’t afford to lose it. But I am the type of person who will tell her if I like someone, I do not expect her to love me in return, and I do not expect or hope for anything. I’d just let her know and I’ll be relieved to know that she know. Ahhh let’s see. I’ll just keep quiet for the time being.
My Star and Rainbow Eza asked me if this ‘someone’ is one of the characters on the header. Hehe well IF she is, that’s gonna leave either her or Amal then. Can’t be Ayu, Fizz or Cute Little Hana. Heheh! I know I am making her really curious but yea, she will find some day, sooner or later.
I first met Eza during National Day early this year, I usually got acquainted with a lot of people during events like that. Few months later we met again when I approached her office booth to enquire about something. I didn’t recognize her though, coz she wasn’t wearing tudong like she did during National Day. She rang my bell, how could I forget her beautiful face, cheerful smile and sparkling eyes just because she didn’t wear a tudong. Heheh! That was careless of me.
From then on, we became friends, not just purely business. Although we don’t see much of each other except during transactions, we still keep each other’s name in our MSN contacts. Even now that she’s pursuing further studies and handed over ‘our’ business to someone else, we still maintain our friendship.
On a day when I feel so down, when the sky go dark upon me, when happiness seems to go down the drain, looking at her beautiful face, cheerful smile and sparking eyes brings a soothing feeling. Feels like you’re in a colourful garden with white butterflies flying around. Just like millions of twinkling stars on a dark night and a rainbow on a rainy day.
I know Eza is having problems of her own which made her sad and hurt. I dare not ask what exactly happened as I don’t want to hurt her more with such questions. She’s just too nice, tender and lovely to be hurt and bruised, she’s like a delicate flower, deserves to be handled and treated with extreme care. I just want the stars to keep on sparkling and the rainbow to keep on shining.
So darlin’. Whatever happens in your life, be strong! You are my Star and Rainbow, so stay a star and a rainbow that will always sparkle and shine forever. Love ya!
Yesterday we had sungkai at a restaurant with my office mates, except the bosses! Haha! I’m sure you all heard about this place which serves grilled food buffet for $10.90, don’t know the place? It’s just behind the QAF Plaza in Beribi. Now here’s my review and comments, or more to critic.
First of all, the food was good. I helped myself with the grilled lamb chop which made me kinda warm and restless this morning, but yea I love it! Now here’s the down part. Towards the course of the buffet, they did not refill some of the food especially the grilled items. Once all was grilled, then that’s it, you couldn’t ask for more, especially when you had to go through a big flock of hungry piranhas to get your share. I didn’t get to scoop the grilled prawn and when I asked for it, they were about to cool the coal already. And whats worst, they accepted customers’ reservations when they have a limited food preparation. Even before I could speak up, I heard some diners complained already.
But yea, I managed to eat what I wanted to eat, even though I had to share some of them with my friends, especially the grilled prawn. They didn’t even refill the tea and coffee, with that crowd, they just used a small pot for it!!! I’d say poor management on the buffet despite the good food.
Another thing, the place was cramped and packed. I found myself having to squeeze through my way amidst the crowd just to get around. I don’t know if I had to brush against breasts and butts with people in such crowd. The location of the restaurant was the biggest put-off to the experience, unless you’re early enough to secure a table indoors, like we did. Basically located on a sidewalk, the place did not provide a cozy environment to dine. Outdoors, it smell like drain water and they were lots of flies. Flies on food, that’s a major irritation for me, big time, especially for someone with weak immune system like me. Lucky us, we managed to get a table indoors, even that, they were one or two rogue flies flying around. Any health inspectors reading my blog? I think this place needs a spot check!
I guess that will be my last time visitting this restaurant. I don’t mean to destroy your reputation though nor I meant any harm. This is just my personal experience for your own improvement. Your food are delicious, it’s just that there are other factors you might need to look at.
A little bit on the new header image. I’ve received an email asking me if that’s how I really look like. Hahah! Wish I am as good looking as that image (Update: although my colleague said the guy in the image looks mean, like a serial rapist), but I think there are some resemblance though, especially my hair and facial hair, scruffy. My Star and Rainbow does look like in the pic, the last time I saw her, her hair was shorter but I’m sure it has grown by now. So does Cute Little Hana who has an obsession for shades. Fizz said that pic is so her before she cut her hair, well I’ve never seen her in person anyway. And my buddy Amal, her face and her hair in real life really resembles that image. Except maybe Ayu, the pic did not resemble her in any way or any angle.
It’s been a long day, not that I had my hands full with work, but it was full of boredom instead. At work things were so slow and dull, did this did that and it was like only 12pm when I looked at the clock. That was another 3 hours to go. Boring! So so boring! When I got back home, my tummy started to show symptoms of sickness. For the past few weeks my health seems to be fluctuating, I know my immune system is weak. I felt lousy and down, felt bored and tired of basically everything in this life. It’s the same thing day in and day out. Work doesn’t seem to interest me anymore, I think I need a new challenge, a new job that allows me to meet new people but of course not butt-kissers and bureaucrats, just like my part-time job which unfortunately does not provide a job security.
Before sungkai I was alone at home, everyone went out to a cousin’s place to break the fast there. I was supposed to go but my sickness made me stuck on bed. Just when my boredom reached it’s climax, I chatted with my Star and Rainbow, Eza. Ahhh people like her always brighten my day. She’s been feeling kinda low lately but I’m sure she’ll do just fine. It’s been ages I didn’t see her, her beautiful face, cheerful smile and sparkling eyes. Jangan kambang! Haha! She’s gonna go to the airport to send off her sister tomorrow, but but but.. at around the same time, Ayu will be leaving for Aussie too, as usual few days business trip. Options: Go and see both Eza and Ayu. Or just go see Eza, sit at a corner and see Ayu from a distance. Both ways, I know I will melt if I see Ayu. So perhaps the only option is don’t go at all, furthermore Eza does not want me to see her cry to see her sister off. Oh well, let’s see tomorrow. Kinda miss both of them actually, just that Ayu is a biscuit and it might not be worth it to miss her so much. Heheh!
Added new music to this blog. Hope you all like it, an old school play actually. I thought of designing a new header image which will feature some graphic image of me (yes, me!) and Ayu, and also those who I always mention in this blog, the main supporting characters. But hey! Sorry to burst your bubble, but the images won’t resemble our real faces though. Just an artist’s rendition. Heheh! (Update 26th Sept 2006: Header image updated. Hope you guys like it, especially those featured)
Also I’m gonna write about these people soon, the main supporting characters in this blog, beginning with Eza, how I get to know them bla bla bla. Just something for a change instead of writing about Ayu, Ayu and Ayu.
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