Monthly Archives: December 2011

What would you do when faced with the option of expressing your own heartbreak or protecting a girls feelings?

True men suck up, smile in front of said girl and proceed to go punch the shit out of something (out of sight of course).

Dammit

I’ve always thought that what other people thought of me didn’t matter. That my life was mine to lead. After all only God has the right to judge me, no?

It took a while but a few years of humbling and heartstring tugging have made me realize of late that other peoples thoughts did matter to me.

My parents, my closest friends, the one I love.

The straight paths. Why is trust in God so hard?

Everyone looks up to the doctor, the dentist, the scientist, the engineer. Their works are valued, they’re esteemed. Of course the price they have to pay is that their work is hard.

The path I’ve chosen will (hopefully) be one where I can do the thing I love. Will there be respect involved? Probably not in the same way. Self achievement? Who knows? Do I want to be respected? Do I want to be looked up upon? The answer is obvious.

I guess the practical application of this (for a guy) is where your wife carries a prestigious title. Imagine it; Mr Ezra husband of Dr. X, world renowned specialist in the field of oncology (cancer). It’s hard to imagine having to live with that.

Of course, love overcomes everything. I’d think that if I could find a girl whom I loved alot it wouldn’t matter so much what she did, because I would know that at the heart of everything, a relationship is between 2 people, and everything else should be inconsequential.

Perhaps It’s still a mystery to me because I’ve yet to experience it.

Anyway, just an Honest thought.

to be angry at God for the opportunities he doesn’t give me?

To quote Job 1:21

“and said: “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised.”

Lord, give me the wisdom to know what I should fight for and what I should give up.