OHDEVIANTLOVE

A short post before tucking in cos apparently I am too bloated to sleep!

NIKE SAMPLE SALE THIS MORNING.
This is too adorable! Shawn and Viona each got one :D



Brenda got this for only 20/30+ what a steal!



I WANT I WANT THIS :)

To all who came all the way from expo to lunch with me. 11 of you darlings!
- Ruiting brenda waikeong jeslyn shawn darren viona doreen charmaine and two interns from tp! Some I may not know but yeah you people warmed my friday afternoon :) Dor came to picked me up with her boy at sk to her house for dinner! Her mom cooked really awesome satay kangkong! Droooools... Dessert over at Ice Cream Chef at east coast rd, 'the other guys' at kallang followed by soya drink cum mee sua at yong he! Tell me all I had today wasn't sinful.

Going for a run tomorrow morning then to SPCA with dor and james. This time not as a volunteer.
Hyped hyped for tomorrow night with the ladies!! Put on a nice dress and make up :) Can't wait, egggcited!

“We come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. Only after we have lost everything are we free to do anything. Throw things out there and not be perfect and not have answers to anything and see if people understand.” - Angelina Jolie



This is every reason why, I still love you, and miss you.

I am so tired.
It had been such a happy/sad week for me.
I'm so disturbed that I've even lost my hype for shopping next week.

To make my life too occupied - deliberately, totally a silly thing I would attempt to do next time. True, they stopped my mind from wandering, for that moment. However it tires me out big time. Anyhow, will be submissive next week. Work has been really hectic and I'm in the mist of learning to mange the whole process well. Am already one month old in the company. I don't expect myself to still cont. going around seeking for permission on tasks. I need to know. Colleagues have never fail to be understanding. Count my blessing meeting these awesome people at work.

I would not say that I'm totally over it. You influenced me.
I'm smiling through this cos' you made me a better person. You taught me so much; everything's so priceless. I understand how very disorientated I used to be. How people think I am so fragile, so vulnerable. I may appear to be but I know I am strong. I learnt to be independent. To know where my goals are and stopped being indecisive.
I never want to be the burden, the worry for you.

Be proud of me, for once. Will you?
That something which never fail to flash thru my mind whenever I am low or on the verge of giving up
- that smile of yours. Motivates me and push me forward.

We didn't mean to jeopardize this relationship we had.
It was a good start, after all.

Any form of breakup is never a good thing. I never spoke much bout our lost, our love.

And what is love, we are just a bunch of amateurs.

But when it comes, it goes with hurt. Who doesn't hurt from a breakup?

You used to say I meant the world to you, the only one for you. Someone you would love to keep. We had the best time together, we had the wildest dreams and the sweetest moments.

You said you need time for transition. We weren't mature enough to handle our differences. You weren't ready to change for me, but I know I tried my best, I compromised. I always love you more.

I'll miss the times you never fail to bring me out for supper when I'm famished in the wee hours.

I'd always remember how you rushed down when you were already homed to my place cause I called you on the phone crying because my parents got a tiff and I'm so lost. No second word, you were there trying to console me. Even though I didn't manage to leave home just to see you a second downstairs.

For a few times when I was seriously upset with some friends. You will be there to help me out. You couldnt bear to see me hurt and it angers you that someone would make me cry.

For weeks you never fail to send me home from work when I can tell that you were really sleepy.

You'd always let me choose what I want to eat and let me have whatever I want. You'd always pay for me and fetch me whenever you can.

You'd always tell me you love me and how much I mean to you. Even when I made you angry, all you'd say is "Don't think too much. You were never a burden to me". You always try your best to help me with the downs in my life though many a times your advice ain't the best, but whenever you were there, you made me feel a lot better.


You are the first guy whom I had let enter my life with such a short period of time. I felt comfortable with you, you always made me laugh, you made me feel so protected, you cared about me and I've never felt that way before.

But I didn't let that over write our differences. The time we had together wasn't short. The good times were definitely more than the bad. But it was gonna be difficult in the long run with our differences. You'd go out with your friends late at night. You priorities school and work. You'd never wanted to fit me in your life when I tried so hard to go along with yours. I had all my time for you, but not you. You are the total opposite of me. You weren't ready to love me. You claimed that you underestimated school load. You only can apologize that you can't neglect studies and work. You totally neglected how I feel.

Be it personality, interest, character, thinking, upbringing. everything. We couldn't even have anything in common that we like. From the food we eat to the things we like to do. From our habits to the way we speak.


Its amazing how we got together.
And it was an amazing time with you.

However I know that you'll never be there for me anymore.

I envision myself having a beautiful apartment. It'd be on the third floor, with a stoned-floor balcony over looking the calm waters of the pool. The lights shimmered in the translucent water, portraying the reflections of my night.

I always needed a place to hide in. I always needed a place to go home to.

That moment, I will not ask myself endless questions. The restless thoughts from all day, smeared. Its not joy I'm yearning to recite. Its the balance I need to find.

Eventually, your soul will know when to settle. You just got to learn to trust that it will.

My love.

How's your long weekend?

I spent my thrusday with darling danTheodora after work in town, as usual we gossips and these indeed relief my mind from office work :) Subway, icecream and of cos, the damage on clothes! Never ending love.



Friday with Bitc 'chao recruits' can see that they're kinda excited about serving the nation! You need to believe that my ears were open to this topic from 5pm to 4am the next day hahaha its horrible, really. Anyhow, the small catch up was a blast! Really. It made me realised that its always the parting that led to people cherishing one another more. That's life. It goes on, just like that. Awesome camwhoring session I missed loads! ♥






























Saturday evening with boyf to expo food fair! Damn sinful I swear, the things we ate. I love the twisted potato! Haven't seen dear for almost 2 weeks. Gosh, I don't know I how survived thru. But I just did! Sorry for all the nuisances caused. The hug is all I need from you. The misses were gone. The assurance was there again.
You're nothing short of my everything.