If you think sunshine brings you happiness, then you haven't danced in the rain

what a holiday it has been!
really enjoyed myself a great deal this december,
like no other december ever before(:
wonder what on earth was i wasting my december in 2007 for.
this year's, is so much better(:

shall begin with supermassive!
the turnout was good,
and i believe the four of us,
together with some help from the floor,
did a good job fund-raising!
Anne, Rachel and Jane,
great job my ladies!
it was a tiring,
and loud night,
but i'm sure we all enjoyed it aye!
look forward to buying the christmass presents with you all!

oh oh,
the next exciting thing that happened!
tang came back!!!!
had a long chat with her on friday,
followed by dinner with eliz and her at chomp chomp.
love them!

youth in the spirit seminar,
was good.
and i was pleasantly surprised by how i actually handled this thing.
made really good friends from there,
and also allowed my faith to deepen.
saint francis of assisi (my group) is love!

after yiss, it took me some time to sink back into reality.
haha,
i think my group very on.
moses had been organising for our group ppl to go afternoon mass at novena together,
and i must say it's better than expected.
hahah, well done people!

tuesday 16dec,
aggie rachel and i went to sengkang to meet eliz tang huimin sam at about 10pm.
was really great,
had tons of fun chatting with my favourites about anything and everything under the sky.
hahah we had to stop when rachel needed to use the toilet badly,
and we walked towards compass point.
afterwhich we slowly made our way to rivervale plaza.
it was about 2plus 3am,
and we decided to take our time and wait
till 4am for macs breakfast!
yummy! hahha i love hotcakes so much.
we parted at 530am,
and i crashed on my bed at 6.

had to pull myself outta bed at 9 cos i had a so-called interview at sjc for relief teaching.
had a super bad hangover.
dragged my way to sjc and thankfully,
there was no interview,
only filling up of application form.
quite waste time,
but thank God it wasnt the real interview,
which i heard will be held by miss chow leng choo :x

lectors retreat on saturday was good,
but i really felt not fully prepared,
and could have definitely been better if i had read up more on saint paul.
feel really guilty that things turned out so haphazardly.
sorry guys,
i'll try harder the next time i promise!

this holiday has been hella fun.
ok cannot use "hell"
but, its been eventful and not forgetting the pay,
i feel richer.
hahahah definitely beats last year!
with my pay will come along,
black flower, and red nano.
yipee!
i cant wait!

this coming week will also be one that's filled with fun with my beloveds!
merry xmas world!

yesterday, went to ssdc at angmokio to enquire about the class3 driving test that i wanted to enrol in.
my cousin accompanied me since he wanted to register for his class 2A license.
he's my inspiration since he got his class3 already!!
realised that i'd have to pay a bomb if i want to complete the whole driving term.
it could amount to the thousands over the entire course.
i've decided to seek the help of a private instructor,
which provides more flexible timing,
and affordable costs.

yiss is this thursday and i'm really hoping to get something out of it.
something spiritually uplifting?
hahaha then again,
i shouldnt hope so much.
just go there with an open mind.
it'll be good!

and not forgetting i still need to shop for formal attire
to wear to the office,
and in the school in future.

DRIVING. FORMAL WEAR. YISS.
so many things to spend on,
so little money!
rowena lee,
you must work harder!
these two treasures are still etched in my mind as well.




work hard work hard jiayou rowena!!

this christmas wont be the same..

Forget his name, forget his face
Forget his kiss and his warm embrace
Forget the love that once came true
Remember now there's someone new,

Forget the love that you once shared
Forget the face that had once cared
Forget the time you spent together
Remember now he's gone forever,

Forget you cried the whole night through
Forget him when they play your song
Forget how close you two once were
Remember now he's chosen her,

Forget you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the times he was mad
Remember he's happy instead of sad,

Forget his teasing, gentle ways
Forget you saw him everyday
Forget he made your dreams come true
Remember now she loves him too,

Forget the thrill when he walked by
Forget him when he made you cry
Forget the way he spoke your name
Remember now he's not the same,

Forget the way he said he loved you
Forget the way he kissed and hugged you
Forget all those nights when he held you tight
Remember now he holds her tonight,

Forget all those sunny days
Forget all those poems he made
Forget those times through good and bad
Remember he said he'd never make you sad,

Forget the games he played with you
Forget the times he stayed with you
Forget those cold, cold nights
Remember now he keeps her warm tonight,

Forget the way he looked at you
Forget you kissed the whole night through
Forget all you dreams came true
REMEMBER, that he doesn't love you.

prom was goood(:
things turned out great!
from the hair that i went with aggie to do,
to the makeup that dearest elizabeth so kindly and patiently did,
to ensure that aggie and i looked up to mark!
hahha rachel also came to help and look at our prospective makeup artist do her thinggg!
we then cabbed down to meritus where eliz made her way to traders hotel for her class dinner,
and aggie and i went to guest rooms to place her bag.

so many beautiful people in the function room i tell you.
though i was slightly blind without my specs,
cos i just dont dare to stick that damned contacts into my eye,
the ambience was great cos there were many ppl that we havent seen since A's were over.
took many pictures,
and i really regret not bringing my own camera!!
hahaha.
during the whole thing,
played some really lame games,
and went to the toilet several times.
OH, what caught my attention the most,
was the top lucky draw prize.
nintendo wii!
i want.. .. ..
it went to someone else though.
hahaha i think the best part of it was the end.
where everyone just scattered around to take pictures together.
it was a good feeling,
seeing faces that used to be so familiar,
because of all that everyday study in school.
but also, a nostalgic feeling?
cos we might probably not meet anytime in the near future.

after one hour of camwhoring,
2t34 came to a decision to watch a midnight movie.
Four christmases!
i was really reluctant cos i was dead beat by that time,
and didnt want to part with my money cos i already spent a bomb on prom itself.
but i guess i dont regret it,
cos it was a good movie
(i'm surprised i didnt fall asleep!)
and smth else happened,
which actually made watching the movie a blessing in disguise!
shant blog about it though.
ahhahahah.

well well, gotta sink back in to reality,
cos i've got to work later in the afternoon.
yeaa man.
no joke. no more slacking.
(for today and tomorrow that is)
cos it's party time again on thursday!
supermassive at Oldschool.
cant wait!
moreover it's for a good cause.
not to mention the good music that will be played!
ahahah supermassive people, i'm advertising for you guys!
(hurr, but its not as if anyone reads this blog)

yup, but for now.
its work work and work.

did i mention?
reese witherspoon is damn hot.

A levels are so over.
well its been over since 14th,
and i'd like to say i spent the free time rather competently?
hahah call me NO-LFE,
but i was working
and earning income.
shopped, ate, watched movies, chilled out,
apply for driving..
i did nearly everything i hoped to.
fall short of only earning enough money to sustain my spending.
so many things to buy!
recently laid eyes on the 4th gen ipod nano,
which i'm considering getting.
with the increase in disposable income with time,
i dont see why i cant!
ahahahh work hard rowena!

just two days ago,
i was enthusiastic about prom.
but now, it just feels weird.
for obvious reasons.

gotta say big thankyou to eliz and rachel for taking time out to help me.
with everything.
i'll just pray that tomorrow ends up well.
and that i do not behave like a self-centred and immature friend.

what'll i do without these darlings! <3 <3 haha :D

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken,probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.you'll fight with your best friend.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures,laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Find a guy/girl who calls you beautiful instead of hot; who calls you back when you hang up on him; who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.Wait for the guy/girl who kisses your forehead; who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats; who holds your hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he/she cares about you and how lucky he/she is to have you.


Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,
"..that's him/her."

study study study.
the most sian holiday so far.
everyday is a go-back-to-school day.
and when in school, it's a peridiocally-stoning time.
did mostly maths.
chem is progressing slowly.
i'm really determined to do well for pure maths paper,
and make up for the loss marks in stupid STATS paper.

christi is sick.
i wanna visit her, but she insists i spend my time studying.
i miss studying with her!

feasting on chocolates now.
it's a random mood of mine.
till then,
it's exactly one week to the end of prelims.
=)

we played our hearts out,
made some blunders here and there.
but after 6 weeks, we emerged victorious!
yeaaa T34.
you guys are the best.
andre ezra nicholas chengyou nicole aggie.
best teammates who fought and practiced hard,
especially the guys,
with the ultimate goal of that gold medal.
now we have it!

next thing to look forward to: teachers' match.
let's trash them as well ;)
after that, nothing much to look forward to anymore.
study hard for prelim friends!
let's perform as well for studies as we did for the matches?
(:

i'm officially in the econs tuition in bishan.
the teacher's really good.
hopefully i'm headed towards churning some positive results?
hmmm.

today was supposed to be study-chem-and-econs day.
but my mind just had to wander off again.
couldnt sit still.
headed to bugis to get the books for grade5.
i'm all set to take the next exam now that i passed grade4,
by the grace of God.
hahaha.
walked all the way to marina square to get my pen refills,
only to find out that christi was in suntec.
but i couldnt meet her,
had to be home for dinner.
someone's birthday's coming!!
=)

Nightstudy shall continue till kingdom come.
i'm gonna start on history essays later.
now for the olympics!

Happy birthday Singapore!
independent for 43 years and going strong.
you didnt want to part from Malaysia first as you felt that you would be more competent if you had her,
but now you're alone, strong and better than ever.
ahh what an inspiration!
hahaha.

yesterday's class outing to sentosa after national day celebration was a blast.
we played volleyball, captain's ball and frisbee!
everyone enjoyed everyone's company.
attendance was 17, the most well-responded one so far!
really looking forward to another one probably after A's?
then at night, rachel rang me up
and we ended up having selegie tau huey and chatting.
it was really good talking to that old friend again.
i'm gonna give her econs tuition a try!
yes.. it's that densely cj-populated tuition centre at bishan,
which seems really effective.
so i was just thinking, why not?

it's been a monotonous national day.
did filing in the morning since there's no piano today.
i re-filed ALL my notes for all the five subjects.
feeling satisfied.
but it's only the beginning.

pass few days have been pretty okay for me.
did the usual morning runs and had lessons as per normal.
went for night study the past two nights which i must say,
productive! (as compared to staying home and lying on the couch watching soapy channel8 dramas)
Night study was motivating, with aggie and eliz by my side.
ahahah, plus a bonus which i had on thursday night.
=)
progress in my studies still going slow, but i will try my best to pick up pace.

and i'm officially the clumsiest person this moth yeaaa.
i've been falling and injuring myself for the past month incessantly.
scraped my knee on tuesday while balling,
and yesterday at sentosa,i got hit on the head by the frisbee twice.
the bruise on the left knee doesnt seem to want to subside.
i've got ugly legs now man.
not to mention a dented forehead too.

once again, happy birthday spore.

the friend who's always smiling, and giving me advise, which i think are not bad. she's just acting scared. yes daiwenny's good friend athenanana
the friend who's always hungry during break. sometimes eat bread, sometimes eat japanese food. she likes to kope food too: )

school reopen.
but it wasnt a nice way how i started the term.
ahhh.
i really really regret it now.
i never should have gone overboard.
i really regret it like crazy!
i'm sorry.
i've been such a disappointment.
i promise it will never happen again.
over my dead body will i touch it.

fail fail fail midyears.
that's what they all say man.
what's new anyway.

i miss baking.
chocolate chip muffins anyone?
: D

what we all foresaw,
it's coming.
subtly
and
quietly.
it creeps behind your back,
you know not what to expect.
would it be a pleasant surprise?
would it be a frightening nightmare?
we all wonder?
suspense is what we hang on to.
something we all detest,
but occasionally,
inevitably.
ohwell.
life's a mystery.
really really.

Jer 17:5-10

Thus says the LORD:
Cursed is the man who trusts in human beings,
who seeks his strength in flesh,
whose heart turns away from the LORD.
He is like a barren bush in the desert
that enjoys no change of season,
But stands in a lava waste,
a salt and empty earth.
Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose hope is the LORD.
He is like a tree planted beside the waters
that stretches out its roots to the stream:
It fears not the heat when it comes,
its leaves stay green;
In the year of drought it shows no distress,
but still bears fruit.
More tortuous than all else is the human heart,
beyond remedy; who can understand it?
I, the LORD, alone probe the mind
and test the heart,
To reward everyone according to his ways,
according to the merit of his deeds.

It's not easy becauses we all have our crosses to bear.
Some times our crosses are heavier than others,
some times, lighter.
There are moments when we just want to shut ourselves away,
but let's not.
We can make it work out.
just a little faith will do the trick.
I believe in you.

School's not easy,
assignments after assignments.
I'm doing what I should,
but not the extra (revision, exercises).
No time no time,
that's what they all say.

I miss you.

Here we are at the crossroads once again.

nice song. but here, i'm talking about reality.
reality can be sweet, can be bitter.
but most of the time, bitter.
for the past few weeks,
i've been typing nothing but history tutorial outlines after outlines.
endless amount of work to do.
i'm getting the hang of study study study every single day.
but.
it seems like all this studying isnt reaping meany rewards.
organic chem test was a disaster in my opinion.
and so was economics.
syllabus for maths are getting more complex,
plus having mr thomas ho for lecturer isnt the BEST thing for us.
Mr rajoo just had to pose a challenge for himself and Sarah soh,
to compete and see whose class performs better for h1 hist common test.
and now? it's a whole series of test coming up,
to drill and train us in essay content and writing skills.
somany things, so little time.
Parent teacher meeting = wake up call.
espcially the part where Bro Paul made us seem so indebted to our parents.
i felt the need to realise get the As.
i'd like to think i can.

I believe you can too.