If you think sunshine brings you happiness, then you haven't danced in the rain

Polar told me I'd be fine, and that I am much stronger than this. But it only occurred to me there and then, that you'd been with me for such a long time, I have long forgotten how to be strong on my own. How to move ahead and be strong when the key to my engine is gone.

How to say, so many things in my mind, and in my box. To forget and move on (ever), is impossible. Why couldn't I just be more calm yesterday.

Come back to me, with all your heart
Don't let fear keep us apart
Trees do bend, though straight and tall
So must we, to others call
Long have I waited for your coming home to me
And living deeply our new life

This song was written by Hosea, a man in the bible.
His wife committed adultery with other men,
But God gave him the strength to forgive her and want her back.
She didn't repent for a long time,
but he carried on waiting for her,
to come back and live deeply their new life.

Isn't this sweet?

I'm at the polyclinic now and I see an old lady pushing her husband on the wheel chair, tired but eager.

mind's a mess now. dont know whether this is going to be the real one.
it feels like it but i am so. not. ready.
it was totally unexpected.
why, was there nothing we couldnt work out anymore?

i dont believe i wont change.
i will.
and when the time comes when i finally can,
i will find you back.

all i ask, and will ever ever ask of you is just this one last request.
why do you say no?

i miss you. i miss you so so so much.

wo bu kuai le

:'(

Thank you.
If you're still single by 26,
Marry me will you?
I'm serious.

please keep my favourite polaroid well.
it's irreplaceable, just like you.

I've been selfish because I don't want us to boil down to nothing.