June | 2013 | Kkhymn's Corner

A Beautiful Day

Well, I have been struggling along still. Minimizing my medical stuff until I can figure out all the Medicare coverage, which still needs sorting out. Worse case scenario, I have no coverage for the last four months of the year. Not having physical therapy appointments is killing my mojo to get anything done – crafts, knitting, running errands, and just going out is a challenge. But, I am trying to stay positive and believe things will get better eventually. Each day is unpredictable.

Reina kitty has her own share of medical stuff. A few weeks ago, she started squinting her right eye. It seemed like she was blinking at first. But, then it completely shut. I took her to the vet to find out she had a corneal ulcer! If it did not heal properly, she could lose her vision in that eye. Yikes! We did her eye drops faithfully, and four days later, she was all healed. But, it did not stop there. A week and a half after her first corneal ulcer, she had another one in the same eye! The vet suggested we take her to a vet ophthalmologist, cause something more serious could be going on my sweet girl’s big eyes. I did not even know that existed. A kitty eye specialist? We took her to the vet ophthalmologist and now Reina most likely has feline herpes virus. It lays dormant in cats who have been exposed to the virus, and then flares up in times of stress.

My first thought was “Oh no. My sweet kitty has a chronic condition like her mum.” It makes me sad to think my sweet Reina is stressed out in some way. The condition is treatable with more eye drops. We have to follow up with the specialist in three weeks to see if it has healed completely. And, then hope that she doesn’t have another corneal ulcer any time soon. If she does, more tests to figure out what else may be going on. I need my sweet Reina to be better, for good. Her sweet big eyes don’t need this. I have enough chronic crap for the entire household. Please send her some kitty mojo, love and prayers. And, of course, any prayers for financial miracles to recover for the vet bills would be appreciated.

I am trying to stay positive despite it all. And my dolly collection continues to change, with some dolls going to new homes and other new girls coming in. I have fallen in love with Pullip dolls. They are big eyed dolls, like Bythes. But Pullips have more articulation in their bodies, allowing for great posable photos. You can also easily change their looks with different wigs. What a difference new hair makes! They have little sisters called Dals and Byuls. I have managed to get a couple of Dals in my collection too. There are several US sellers for Pullips, Dals and Byuls. It makes it so much easier to get that dolly mail. Several US sellers are even on Amazon, with dolls on Amazon Prime! Perfect for the impatient collector. LOL.

I was reminded of a wonderful music artist named India Arie this week. She was on Good Morning America promoting her new album. I started thinking of how wonderful her songs are – speaking love, truth and strength in her lyrics. One of my favorites is titled “A Beautiful Day” and it is what I wish for everyone, no matter what their struggles are. May you have more good days than bad, and things to be grateful for each day. I know it is not easy to be grateful or positive in the midst of endless crap. But, it helps me live in the now and make it to the next day, hour, minute.

I also know my friends want to pray and wish for a miracle for me. Something that would fix and cure me from the lupus, fibromyalgia, back and butt pain, and everything on my medical list. But, for whatever reason, this is what has been given to me. I don’t look for the cures and hope for the miracle healings anymore. I look and find the smaller things of every day life to celebrate and be grateful for. And celebrate the mini miracles. It is the way I can find my beautiful days in the midst of my daily battles.

Let this song sing in your day today. Let it run through your head, and speak to your heart. Don’t worry about fixing me. Don’t feel sorry for me. Celebrate you. Your life. And have a beautiful day.