Don’t Understand
I wanted to blog something about my work.
Was multi-tasking and surfing a renovation forum and saw that I missed Teka (in case you don’t know, its a cheap and good brand for hob, hoods, ovens etc) promotion. I’m upset because I’ve been waiting for it since January. Posted a reply in the forum thread to ask when will it be on 11-March, someone replied on 12-March that its on BUT I did not check back the thread till today and its over.. OVER.. O-V-E-R.. I really want to cry. Frustrated.. Super.. Duper..
Ok, back to what I originally wanted to blog about.
As mentioned, on top of my assignment that is due tomorrow, I’m taking my Bank’s internal product selling and process tests – about 11 of them, which involves insurance and investment. I’m actually not so worried about the investment as we do them everyday (or so I thought) and stressing over the insurance as my segment need not do insurance so totally like zero knowledge.
Skipping all the boring details, the morale is I did not study for it. There are 2 ring arch files of notes that I’m supposed to understand memorise but I just did not have the time as I was focusing on completing the assignment. On Friday night, I had to take them and I really went in blind.
Though it was MCQs, when I looked at the question paper, I’ve never even seen/hear the terms and everything before. To make it less painful, I just chose whichever answer looks more like the answer or did a probability analysis (like those that have 4 options and the answer is a combination of the options type) of the answer, shade the answer and submitted. It took me 30 mins to answer 8 papers with about 100 MCQs.
I spent the whole Sunday yesterday studying till wee hours this morning on the papers as I’m like 250% sure I flunked all. Even took the whole afternoon today to write notes (WRITE NOTES FOR OFFICE TEST, SUPER SIAO ONE LIKE THAT). But guess what.
At 7pm, when I was about to take the re-test, the training coordinator informed me that I passed 7 of the 8 papers and only need to retake 1. &@*#@&%@&#^(#&(@#.. Why don’t want to tell me early morning so that I did not waste time studying in the afternoon.
Then she asked me to take the investment tests since I cleared majority of the insurance. As it was pretty chaotic today, the coordinator didn’t really bother to invigilate me and so it somehow became a open book test for me flipping the notes under the table. I took 2 whole hours to complete 2 papers seriously.
AND I failed. &*^@#*^@*#&@*&%^#*$ I tell you, no words can describe my anger plus frustration plus sadness plus all the negative emotions running in me right now.
Why like that!
Progress
I nearly went crazy yesterday from the immense stress on the number of incomplete things I had to do.
Feeling better now that my individual assignment due on Monday is half done.
Also feeling safer in way that my preliminary exam schedule is out and I’ve informed my boss the dates I’m going too be on leave.
Moved to my parent’s house temporarily while my new place is being renovated but at least I’m not in a hurry to move out again. Plus, its great staying here – got maid, free parking, lots of food! Bad thing, I seem to have downgraded to a one-room flat with everything Dar, Regan and my stuffs squeezed into my tiny old room.
My new place is also taking shape. The living room floor tiles and toilet wall tiles have been layed. They hacked the walls yesterday but I haven’t seen it yet. Excited and exciting lor! Got lots of photos but no time to upload it.
Actually how I wish now is next year where my studies are over, my renovations are complete and I can focus on my job.
I’m just choosing to be an ostrich about my job that is hanging on the line as I was not in office yesterday, called in for urgent leave today and will be on leave tomorrow. On top of that, I’ve about 20 over tests on internal insurance and investment products for my office to be passed on Thursday but I don’t give a damn honestly. About the tests I mean, I care a lot about my job one lor. Hee..
I always like certainty in my life especially when it comes to work and school.
That’s why I’m starting to feel extremely frustrated now at this hour (3.17am) fretting if I can get a Pass with the assignment I’ve done.
Drowning
My lack of blogging has everything got to do with my work, my renovation, my studies and my famiy. Everyone whom is blogging, please continue to do so. I do log on to read your blog – Calyn, Daphne, Keith & Tania, Mengli, Lim Buey Tor, Mr Brown. And I feel happy to read new posts always so that I know what is going on in your life. Please pardon my stagnancy. I’m really drowning with the renovation (80% – discuss with designer, shop for house stuffs) and school (50% – 2 assignments due this month), so you can tell I’m over 100% now.
Sighs… If only I can outsource my assignment. Any one interested for $200 to write one on Singapore’s Corporate Governance?
Somewhere Over The Rainbows 