Offshore
I was surfing through my ‘Colleagues’ album in facebook and a surge of emotions suddenly flooded me. I realized I have so many memories during the short time of two years I was with the department. Before the restructuring, 2008 was really a year of family spirit. We had many activities together that year alone. From my very first CNY Lion Dance for our department in 2008, CNY crab dinner at Melben 2008, Kite Flying followed by sumptous dinner at Seafood International, Hong Kong trip, Ah Lian and Ah Beng theme D&D 2008, Bintan getaway and countless happy hours, clubbing experiences, business trips to slog together. 2009 after the restructuring was quiet for deparment activities but cliche activities was aplenty. I sincerely hope the vibrant culture will be back with a vengeance to make up the lost time..
Disappointment
I am disappointed I was not part of the list. It’s really sad to know I am not valued. Though the new boss says otherwise and gives the politically correct answer, I am not convinced. Ultimately basic is still important because it is how the organization perceive you are worth. I know I will be taken care of as long as I perform but that’s the future and noone knows the future. And to people whom say incentive is more important than basic, why not you cut your increment to me? Since your incentive scheme is much better than mine.
Circle
My life is moving along this circle line. I crave to break out of the circle. The world is a bigger place outside the circle. It’s the first working day of the month and I am now at the starting point of makes me feel demoralizing. Many of my colleagues have the same thinking. But my boss says “Don’t tell me you are low morale now. Wait till you lose your job, then come and tell me you are low morale.” I think my boss is trying his best to tell a joke, however, looking at my colleagues responses, I don’t think they find it funny. My circle is turning into a circus..
Breaking Eggs
Day in day out I keep thinking how to break eggs. I finally broke one quail egg. But it was a bad egg and got thrown away. I need to find and break an OSTRICH egg. Actually broken one also never mind, as long as there is still egg left and taste good. Where is it?!?!?!
Ignited
I am ignited. Thanks to two people whom specially take time out, come all the way where it is hard for me to say no so that they can wheddled me out despite my excuses. They gave me the spark through their amusing and exasperating advice.
People have been really kind to me. They come by my desk checking if I am doing all right. I am really appreciative.
Thank you my friends..
Derivatives
Spot call put expiry maturity options swaps.. I need to memorise them by hard. Derivatives was my weakest module during my poly days and I narrowly escaped flunking it. I still remember the lecturer, Mr Chong Chin Siong, though coz he was our favourite lecturer. Time flies, that was ten years ago and I seem to be back to sqaure one trying hard to recall what I learnt back in school. 加油加油加油！
Overwhelming
I’m exhausted and feel like giving up. That’s why I have been procrastinating about doing this for years. And there is never so bad a timing as now. I need to steepen my learning curve..
Carpool
I’ve been taking carpool to work for the last two weeks. I love it!
I used to take SMRT express bus to work every morning paying S$3.60 per trip. I would need to be at the bus stop before 7.55am to wait for that one single bus service. Missing it means standing all the way by bus and train or in the comfy bomb-costing cab. The last cab fare I paid for going to work in the morning was S$42! Regardless of the modes, (even if I managed to catch that bus) I will be late as I will reach office at around 8.50am. My boss has been very anal about us being in by 8.30am since the start of the year. The only way was to get out of my house at 7.25am and go by train. But I hate morning peak public transport, all the pushing and squeezing drives me nuts. Otherwise if its not the pushing and squeezing, the express bus aircon will freeze me to death though I get to sit down and snooze.
During a CNY gathering with some colleagues, I was lamenting about getting to work everyday and a colleague said there are a private school bus that gets to Shenton Way earlier. So I went to google it but instead of that, I found something better – carpool!
Now, I get on the car at 7.20am and reach office at 8.10am. Along the way, I listen to nice music, enjoy the comfortable aircon temperature and snooze all the way to work. I was late for a couple of minutes once but I know I won’t missed it. All for only S$4!
Decision
I hate making important decisions. I always like the decision to be made so I can make myself blameless when the decision goes wrong. I’ve been so troubled for the last month and especially over the last two weeks that I can’t get to sleep. Just when I thought the dust is settled and I put my mind down, the wind comes again to stir it up making me confused and frustrated. Should I follow my head or my heart? Arghhh…
Moving
Received the email on my new desk, my new number and all the administrative details this morning. Suddenly, reality seems to sink in that my team is being disbanded, BAT family is no more. And tears just started rolling.
Somewhere Over The Rainbows 