because i need some inspiration
July 26, 2009
I just took a quick glimpse on.. notes I wrote (not seen by anyone) a while ago. And it’s funny, because. I am not 100% sure that I wrote them. I think i did. I mean, I’m pretty sure I did but what i wrote sounded so poetic and poignant.
and i guess, it just baffles me sometimes to think that I thought, I felt that way.
Once again, I am vague with details but details is not important in this matter. It’s an overall general awe that… a entire year can change you, or rather you change entirely in one year.
I don’t know. I’m looking for inspiration, it’s a reverse role now. I never really looked for inspiration in the past. It… always comes to me, it hits me when I see things that make me feel humane. But lately, everything has been such a routine, i need… someone/something to remind me of who i was.
i feel like i need the girl back in 2008. Just because i need some inspiration. I’m just amazed at how much I can forget and in the ability of photography to allow you to remember.
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on a different note: Semester two is looking good. Less hours in classes, more time to shoot.
I have one more set of photos to go for a model then I’ll post images around the interwebs. Keep a look out.
P.S: seriously, someone throw me a bit of inspiration.. :(
we
January 12, 2009
hold on, like it’s dear life.
loosen your grip, my love.
when morning comes,
it’ll all be okay.
you leave,
our hearts still attached
we know,
it’s going to be hard
let’s just take it slow,
remember,
trust
and love.
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i know i shouldn’t be upset while you’re still here but i can’t help it. when i look at you, i can’t help but stare into your gorgeous eyes. They are always filled with such a warmth. So easy to read. And your smile, your eyes twinkle and you’ll have the biggest grin when you’re up to no good.
and it’s funny how we always think of the same things whenever we encounter something out of the ordinary.
and it’s quite amazing how well you know me. I don’t need to say anything, even when i take one deep breath before the tears, you know something’s wrong.
and i love how you always want to pick me up from work (even though you’re feeling sick) and how you’re always so supportive of my photography, driving me to places simply to take photos and spend time with me
i don’t even know why i’m so upset that you’re leaving? and I’m truly sorry for my emotional outbursts lately. I wasn’t prepared for you to leave, and I’m still not. It’s going to be so hard without you but i’ll be okay.
if this doesn’t last, (and i hope it does), thank you for being there, for accepting me, for making me feel loved, for listening to my rants and giving me hugs and kisses when i need it.
we’ll be okay. : )
Leave
January 6, 2009
I don’t think my heart was ever prepared for you to leave, and definitely not this early. I knew that you, we had to leave this town to move to separate places,to start new, important things. And I’m not saying that I’m not happy that you’ll have an interview for tomorrow (because I truly am) and you only had the call back today/yesterday. And I say this with no doubt, that I know you will get that apprenticeship. And more than likely you’ll have to move next week.
I guess I’m trying not to think about it too much but yeah. I don’t want to raise my hopes and say that we’re gonna be okay.So overdramatic really. You’re only going to be a 6 hour drive away.
Ok, I’m over this : )
Tata. Write more later.
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