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I asked my doctor point-blank today how much longer she thinks I have left to live, and she feels with my current symptoms, I have around 3 months left at this point. I am scared, obviously. I am already on morphine and it will be increased as time goes on. I already have trouble breathing and the morphine helps make things a little bit easier.
I need to go to bed. I can barely keep my eyes open.
Tessa
Friday’s here and so am I with your Stream of Consciousness Saturday prompt. This week has just flown by. Seriously, where did it go? Here’s this week’s prompt:
Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “joke.” Use it any way you’d like. Have fun!
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I have a friend who’s whole life revolves around telling jokes that she makes up herself. She does a pretty good job of it. She keeps us all laughing and living in an assisted living facility we need something to keep us happy.
I find it hard to keep laughing in here. Things are so horrible that we need something to keep us laughing.
Today I have no hot water and this is my scheduled shower day and I can’t have it. That really sucks. Wish I could make up my own jokes like she can.
Tessa
“We are born in one day. We die in one day. We can change in one day. And we can fall in love in one day. Anything can happen in just one day.”- Gayle Forman
It’s the final weekend of the month, and it’s time for the One Day Prompt.
All you need to do is include the words ‘One Day‘ in your post and let your creative juices flow!
Our challenges are as flexible as you’d like them to be. Interpret them in a way that suits you — words, Pictures, Poetry, or Rhyme..
Please tag #Weekly Prompts The One Day Prompt 17.
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One Day my writing will come to an end due to the symptoms from my COPD. Today it is getting harder and harder to put together a blog post and write something to fit the prompt.
I am on Hospice and they tell me all the side effects are normal and will simply get worse. I am getting worse for sure.
Tessa
There are two ways in which you can participate:
Leave your answers to this week’s questions in the comments box below or create your own post and link back to this one.
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To make it easy for others to check out your post, title or tag your blog post “Share Your World”.
Here are this week’s questions:
1. Do you like having your photograph taken? No, I look horrible in photos.
2. Did you have a school photograph taken every year? Yes!
3. Do you take photographs using a phone or stand alone camera? Camera Phone.
4. Are you any good at taking photographs? No, I cut off heads, feet, sides, etc.
Tessa
Welcome to Share Your World.
There are two ways in which you can participate:
Leave your answers to this week’s questions in the comments box below or create your own post and link back to this one.
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To make it easy for others to check out your post, title or tag your blog post “Share Your World”.
As always an optional gratitude section is included at the end.
Here are this week’s questions and my answers.
Tessa
About two weeks ago I had a really nice bike ride on the Waterfront Trail from Coronation Park to Mimico Waterfront Park. It was a gorgeous sunny day. This section of the Waterfront Trail hugs the shore of Lake Ontario with a string of beautiful parks and beaches. On a nice summer day, there are usually lots of recreational activities in the lake. I enjoyed the bike ride and the scenery along the way. I hope you enjoy the photos.
For my Public Art photo challenge this week, I am sharing a sculpture titled Campfire at Humber Bay Lookout. On a clear day, when you look through the opening of the sculpture, you see the CN Tower and Toronto’s skyline.
How was your week? I’d love to hear from you in the Comments or Weekend Coffee Share link-up #222 below. If you have public art images to share, please leave link in the Comments or create a pingback. I’d love to see your photos.
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Thanks to Natalie, the Explorer, for hosting this prompt.
Grab a chair and something to drink. If you were here, I would tell you that I am becoming very much more frightened about where my health is going. I know I have a terminal illness, and they can’t tell me how much longer it is going to be before I kick the bucket, as the doctor puts it. She is so knowledgeable, and she feels that I should know what is going to happen eventually here. I am getting worse, and she just keeps telling me that it is normal for this situation. I can’t stay awake. I fall asleep while eating dinner or even driving my power wheelchair around. Scary. In addition to the COPD, I have very swollen legs covered with sores. I have constant cellulitis, and it is making the sores leak pus, and it is very easy for me to get an infection in there, and that could make me lose my life even faster. Sepsis is nothing to play around with. My appetite is dwindling, and she says that it’s normal and I will eventually lose all desire to eat, and at that point, they will stop checking my blood sugar and take me off the insulin.
I hope my glasses arrive soon. Still waiting for them.
My feet are so swollen that wearing anything on them is very uncomfortable, and the men’s slippers didn’t work. I don’t know what will happen once I can’t wear anything. Will I be confined to bed at that point?
It’s the weekend again, so I am on my own in taking care of myself. I don’t shower because I can’t do it alone. It’s embarrassing to have someone bathe me. Things will worsen as time passes.
I sometimes wish that I knew how much time I have left, and other times I am glad that I don’t know.
I finally got my morphine straightened out. I get three set times a day. Originally, it was four. They changed it to 3 times a day for some reason, unless I misunderstood, which is possible. I am finding it increasingly difficult to understand things. I am having trouble telling time now as well. This really sucks. I would hate to not be able to use my computer anymore and write. That is also getting harder.
Hope everyone is doing well.
Tessa
Welcome back!
The theme this week is
Compressing an Emotion in Few Words
Write a piece—poem, microfiction, or even a single sentence—that captures a profound emotion using minimal language. The challenge is to evoke depth, resonance, and imagery with as few words as possible.
You may choose one of the following emotional tones, or anything else that aligns with your mindset.
Optional constraints (Not Compulsory)
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Regret/Disappointment – As my life comes to a slow halt, I find myself disappointed in how I missed so many chances to really live. I should have pursued my desires and not let the timer on my life run out without truly living.
(I am sick with a terminal disorder, COPD. As I near the end, I find myself regretting not living a full life. I let fear block me from living.)
Tessa
I have been waiting for my morphine for days now and it still isn’t in the system and I am having problems breathing.
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As with Stream of Consciousness Saturday (SoCS), if you see a pingback from someone else in my comment section, click and have a read. It’s bound to be short and sweet.
Unlike SoCS, this is not a prompt so there’s no need to stick to the same “theme.”
The rules that I’ve made for myself (but don’t always follow) for “One-Liner Wednesday” are:
1. Make it one sentence.
2. Try to make it either funny or inspirational.
3. Use our unique tag #1linerWeds.
4. Add our lovely badge to your post for extra exposure!
5. Have fun!
Tessa
Here are this week’s prompts:
I chose 1 and 2.
Tessa
1. Is your home heated by radiators, underfloor heating, or an open fire? I don’t know what you call it. It is a reconstructed hotel and has the heaters in the wall under the window.
2. What is a comfortable temperature in the colder months for your home? I don’t know what it will be this year as my terminal illness will control my thermostat, and I had it set on high air conditioning this summer, which is very rare for me. I prefer it cold in the summer and much warmer in the winter, but my thermostat is way off due to my illness. Thankfully, I don’t have to pay for the utilities, heat, or electricity.
3. What is more appealing, a mug of hot coffee or tea, a bowl of warming soup, or stew and dumplings? I don’t drink coffee so tea and I don’t care for soup or stew.
4. Would you prefer to share the dawning of a new day or a beautiful sunset? I would say the sunset as I don’t like getting up early. Though to be honest I am not too interested in either.
Tessa
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