November 30, 2009
I amaze myself with how drained and brain-dead i feel at this moment even though i barely did anything stimulating for the entire day except ploughing through many emails, clearing my inbox and doing my write-up.
So tempted to skip the lecture tmr… =S
k time to sleep, goodnight!
November 29, 2009
Old things
Over the last few days, i’ve cleared out, arranged and re-organised a lot of things.. from my books, notes and files to my phone messages and photos to my email (!!! omg spent 3h clearing that). and next up will be my wardrobe. i’m in such a packing mood recently.. haha maybe cos i refuse to get any work done.
but anyway as i was clearing all my stuffs, it dawned upon me that it’s so much easier to let go as we grow up. i used to keep all the letters that my pri/sec/jc friends wrote to me, all the presents i’ve received since pri school even those small lil gifts for friendship day, valentines day etc, the presents that teachers give and blah blah. basically i used to keep EVERYTHING and refused to throw anything away. and i dont even use them.. i’ve a weird habit of not using any of my presents.. so i just accumulate and store them in the cupboard. despite my mum’s yearly nagging to give them away, i just refused to. but as i was packing over the last few days, i find it a lot easier to just either give them away or throw away the useless things..i used to keep them for memory sake, but then i realised that there’s no point in doing so anymore for the people whom you’re no longer close to. somehow there’s no significance anymore.
And that’s when i know that letting go isn’t so difficult afterall (: that being said, i dont mean that i don’t cherish memories anymore.. or that i’ve become skeptical. I still do for the ones that matter, and those are the memories that are meant to be held close to the heart and that’s all the matters; not those that are left to accumulate and collect dusts in the cupboard/cabinets.
November 27, 2009
A day of self-awareness
Have you ever shopped so much till you decide that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH one fine day?
Have you ever shopped so much that your wardrobe is gonna explode anytime and you feel like fainting looking at it?
Have you ever shopped so much that you receive mails of clothes 4 days in a row?
Have you ever shopped so much that you still have clothes not worn before but still continue to buy even more?
You know you’ve been online shopping way too much when you walk on the streets and find clothes on others SO FAMILIAR because it has appeared on your computer screen before. You know you’ve been online shopping a hell lot when all the clothes in the shops ring a bell even though you havent been to shopping malls in a while.
This is devastating.
It is not so much the amount you spent or that aching pain upon the depletion of your bank account savings. You just feel the need to curb this habit before it goes out of control even before you officially get your first pay. So, no more shopping between now and taiwan. and we’ll see how long i can last.
A day of new insight, only because I am way too free.
Funny things that my friends say!
while i was out with cel just now and i asked her abt shopping in taiwan, she said…’taiwan clothes are frigging small! i swear the girls there have NO SHOULDERS!’ — omg it was so damn funny i laughed so loudly at clarke quay.
then came kangya the genius.. while she was typing my url on her ipod touch, she accidentally typed… youATEsomebody– hahahaha!
okay then came kayleigh and her weird comments but i can’t post it here cos.. it’s too public. heh. only my close friends can ask!
and of course not forgetting the weirdest things that the smurf say all the time.
And finally, it’s the long weekend!!! yayy! 😀 😀 😀
November 25, 2009
The ONLY time med school is slack
fam med posting is the best posting alive! in pancake’s words, i can really do this for the rest of my life…from a student’s point of view, it’s the best posting cos it’s damn slack and chillax. like report to the gp clinic at 1030am and can go off in the early afternoon?! SINCE WHEN med school so slack right?! OMG TOTALLY LOVE IT. although i know there’re quite a number of things to be done before taiwan la but still. short days are good (:
even though i’ve only spent 2 days in the gp clinic, i guess family medicine is sth that i’d consider going into in future. it’s not as boring as what others make it sound… in fact, it’s pretty exciting and intellectually stimulating!
the ONLY bad part is that.. there’re so many gps in Singapore, you gotta be a really really really good one to be known so that you can actually earn a living…sigh. the doctor at our clinic is SOOOO SMART i’m really vvv impressed!
fam med posting really rocks! shall enjoy this short-lived happiness for 2 weeks… (:
November 23, 2009
Run smurf run!
So the day is looming with each passing minute, i only have 13 days left. i’m thankful that i’m doing the slacker postings now so i can still find time to run though i spend half my time falling asleep and skipping my runs. prognosis on 6th dec looks very bad BUT, i’ll not lose faith!!! (positive self talk once again)
at least i’ve been running. at least i made the effort to START running again. even if it’s too late to train for the day to come, maybe i can lose weight through this la huh. i certainly hope so!!! the weighing scale shall be kept out of sight…. let me stay in denial plz. if you’re my good friend, pls say nice things to me hoho. i promise to keep you in prayer thereafter!
anyway! since running alone can get really boring and mind-numbing, i went to compile a list of songs to keep myself motivated! and after today, i decided that my fav starting song has got to be Insomnia by craig david (oh the irony, nth to do with the lyrics fyi) cos it really gets me psyched up! the other songs i like a lot include viva la vida and lovers in japan by coldplay, let love in and iris by googoo dolls. really love the songs by googoo dolls!
then my cooling down songs are the emo ones like calendar girl by stars, blind by lifehouse etc..
i dont even know why i’m giving such a detailed account about my running playlist, i must be too bored… but yeah if you’ve nice songs that you think can help me in my running (i.e no lullaby), pls send me!
I SO NEED A LONG LIST TO CONQUER THAT DAY. i’ll write my will soon too. sigh.. SUCH IS LIFE LA. you make decisions in life that you regret only seconds later then you lament about how stupid you were then you decide it’s too late cos the damage is already done then you try your best to psyche yourself up and prepare yourself although v grudgingly.. and the complaints never end….
Welcome to my life.
November 21, 2009
Around Singapore in a day!
today has got to be the most productive day in a long while- since psych med started haha. we finally got down to visiting our cmps patients all the way in the east and i must say that we had 2 very different but enriching experiences. there’s really a lot to learn from home visits, from the structure & layout of the house to the family relationships. i’m looking forward to the palliative care sessions during fam med!
after cmps home visits, went for service then we had authentic korean food for dinner!! the soy garlic chicken sauce was soooooooo good. just as i was finishing off what was left on the plate, the waiter came up to our table and asked (with eyes wide open), ‘WANT SOME MORE???’ omg… embarrassing to the max. the smurfs are always ridiculed when we go out to eat, the last time at sakae sushi lunch buffet also like that. that guy wished us ‘good luck’ after serving us our 6th plate of fried hotate.
What’s wrong with girls who can eat? hahahaha 😀
November 18, 2009
Learning to trust
maybe that’s what i’ve been looking for, but i’m not certain.
About 1 month left to hols! but so many things to complete in this 1 month.
i really hope my dream comes true! pls pls pls pls pls. i’m willing to work like a dog if need be!!!
November 15, 2009
2012
While many friends finish their last semester next year and graduate, i can only wait till 2012. But should the world come to an end in 2012, then why should i even bother studying anymore?
Come on friends, let’s just tour the world now!
If only i know when the world comes to an end…
okay back to happyland adventures
November 14, 2009
all about my coach!
my coach can be really nice sometimes and i’d then call her Coach C for,
cute, caring, charismatic and come running with me!
but she can also be really mean on days and become Coach C for,
can’t stand you sometimes..
and for most days, she’s really really stern and turn into Coach D for,
don’t you dare defy me!
REGARDLESS, i’m still thankful for this coach of mine for i wouldn’t be here today if not for her. Come 6th Dec, i’ll be sure to shine and spread my wings!
if you ever need a coach, pls look for her! SHE’S THE BEST YOU CAN EVER ASK FOR.
just don’t feed her bananas.
ANNYEONG! 