Tuesday, February 13, 2007
change.
I feel weird these days. I know I always feel weird.
I feel as if I'm slowly becoming a hollow person...scary huh?
It's a feeling of numbness, no feelings. The feeling of not being able to feel.-_-
I know it sounds contradicting.
I don't know. I don't find any excitement in my life for the moment.
Currently reading this book called 'The 7 habits of highly effective people'.
A rather motivational book which I'm thinking of change. I need to start changing.
My life at this moment is shit. LOL. It sucks when you realise you're only using 20% of the potential you have. I know I can achieve better. I know I can do things more efficiently. I just know it.
But the fact that I'm still using only 20% of my potential cripples me.
Personal change and personal dealings come first. Before anything.
Before I get involved with another person. Before I start to work. Before I move on with my life. It all requires me to orientate myself in a direction that will not change.
It's amazing how the principles are absolute. How if you don't follow the principles, certain negative results occur as a consequence. Hmmm. And how if you follow them, you reap the rewards.
However, I guess this is part of growing up. Getting jaded. Being cynical.
Irony is that things that use to bother me so much last time just don't bother me anymore.
I don't know what's happening to me. Maybe I'm losing myself. Omg.
Anyways..just thought of ranting it out here. I'm off to do some work.
Till the next post. ¶ 4:13 AM
I feel as if I'm slowly becoming a hollow person...scary huh?
It's a feeling of numbness, no feelings. The feeling of not being able to feel.-_-
I know it sounds contradicting.
I don't know. I don't find any excitement in my life for the moment.
Currently reading this book called 'The 7 habits of highly effective people'.
A rather motivational book which I'm thinking of change. I need to start changing.
My life at this moment is shit. LOL. It sucks when you realise you're only using 20% of the potential you have. I know I can achieve better. I know I can do things more efficiently. I just know it.
But the fact that I'm still using only 20% of my potential cripples me.
Personal change and personal dealings come first. Before anything.
Before I get involved with another person. Before I start to work. Before I move on with my life. It all requires me to orientate myself in a direction that will not change.
It's amazing how the principles are absolute. How if you don't follow the principles, certain negative results occur as a consequence. Hmmm. And how if you follow them, you reap the rewards.
However, I guess this is part of growing up. Getting jaded. Being cynical.
Irony is that things that use to bother me so much last time just don't bother me anymore.
I don't know what's happening to me. Maybe I'm losing myself. Omg.
Anyways..just thought of ranting it out here. I'm off to do some work.
Till the next post. ¶ 4:13 AM
