Expect The Unexpected

In 2 days time 2009 will be coming to an end... I guess everyone is doing the same - reviewing their achievements in 2009 and make new resolutions for 2010.

For me, time passed by very very quickly this year. It's been an emotional year for me. Very
emotionally worked out. A lot happened.

After a year of measuring floor, I finally stepped into the working world in March 2009. Challenging, every now and then we're learning from mistakes and try to be better and better.

Grandpa's pass away few days before I started work didn't help at all. It makes me hate the number '18' a lot. A lot. Very often you just can't help missing the past, wishing you could turn back time and just stay there. There in the Neverland.

A year that I see D the LEAST. 10 fingers can count the amount of times I see him this year. WTF. Missing him loads. But one fortunate thing is i bumped into him! Haha. Lucky me. This year, I'm like an outcast from the 'star chasing' group. From totally active to totally zero.

Met a lot of new friends, bumped into some old friends, most importantly still keeping in touch with many old friends, although the opportunities are rare. Everyone is busy at different times, not easy to plan and gather everyone at the same time. Some special people entered my life, and I cherish them a lot because they taught me a lot. Isn't it amazing fate can be? It's just unexplainable.



All I can wish for is a better, more independent, more disciplined me in 2010. Work smarter, work harder. Yes! I can do it!

Wishing all of you a Happy New 2010!!! May your 2010 be filled with prosperity, happiness and lotsa love! There's definitely some love from me! Haha! Mwaks!

912 was Sage's 1 year anniversary. Yup, the place I'm working at currently. Pronounced as "Sayj" not Sah-geh or sack or watever.

Though only a mere 5 months in the company, but everyone working there is like a family, a team. I feel the warmth. Everyone is willing to help each other. Stress is there of course, but it's a cool place to work in.

United we stand, divided we fall. Love ya all :) Mwaks!! Happy birthday Sage!

Everyday is a new chapter...

大佬，生日快乐。

祝你健康D，赚多D，吃多D，玩多D，开心多D.

And，是时候考虑你的另一半了。。。

1707，我会永远记得的。

Love always.

One cannot deny how fast time flies...

I still remember the first day I saw this angel, I was too afraid to carry her up, worrying that I'll end up crushing her tiny little bones.

Now she's a cheeky, intelligent, amazingly charming little brat angel who is too active that you can't even get to her even if you wanted to hug her.

Happy birthday my love.

050709 - At this time, you should be checked in at the airport already. The French girl as we always call you. The girl with the sweetest smile and the most beautiful eyes. The friendliest girl I've ever met. Have a safe journey to Guangzhou, enjoy your work there, and do remember that all of us here will miss you dearly. Perhaps when you come back, you can speak Chinese more fluent than me! Lol!

525 marks the first anniversary of the birth of Baby Globe, the birth of "All In One", the birth of a stronger friendship among the Gangstas.

It also means, I 3 months never see dai lou already. Broke the record. Previously the longest time was only 2 months. Damn suffering. Sigh! :'( Seems to have lost contact with everything regarding him. Didn't even know he is hosting a food show until recently. I don't even know how is he. Sigh sigh sigh.

I need to lead a better life. Existez-vous?

I feel like a total different person compared to 2 months ago. Long gone the days of US time zone (sleeping at 6am, waking up at 3pm), the days of seeing my idols every weekend, catching up with entertainment news everyday, go to mamak whenever I want. I don't even bother going online. Yes, you didn't hear me wrong, going ONLINE. Wharhhht?!?!? Onlining, for me, was just like daily dosage of nicotine for smokers, addictive gambling for gamblers, clubbing for clubbers. Friends will always see my name appear on MSN almost 24/7, but now... (CY, right?) I take a look at my portable, I lie flat on the bed.

Ohh, back to the topic. An hour ago, it was still mother's day. We never really celebrate the occasion among my immediate family *guilty* I remember buying a gift set for my mum few years back, when I don't even have income on my own. So indirectly, she's buying it herself =_=" This year, bro and I surprised her with a homemade card & few slices of Secret Recipe cakes *guilty* (last minute beli punya *gulp*). No special gift as my salary this month left only bits and pieces. Sigh! Anyhow, she was surprised.

We usually celebrate the occasion with my mum's family. This year, we couldn't have any celebration, so we just had dinner at grandma's. Since grandpa passed away, we've been spending a lot of free time together, and nonetheless every Sunday, we go for breakfast and dinner.

Dad cooked yesterday. Sang har noodles, crab noodles, kai lan siew yoke, boiled chicken, stir fried crabs. Yummeh. I made some Mango Yoghurt Pudding & Chocolate Brownies, which didn't turn out that well. Still need to try harder.

Bro asked me when was the last time I said I love you to mom, I said 'never'. I guess, we just couldn't say it out in front of our parents. I need more courage to do so.

Happy Mother's Day to all the wonderful mothers in the whole wide world. You are the best, moms!

现在的这一刻，突然间您的脸孔浮现在我脑海里。想了一想，一个月了，整整和正正一个月了。时间好快过哦，上个月的这个时间，才刚从医院回您家。一个月没见了，对您的思念一点都没消。您现在应该享受着环游世界吧，在哪里了？美国？欧洲？上海？

玩得快乐点哦，您最喜欢出去走走的了。我会常常写信给您的。

突然好想，好想，好想念您。

A piece of advice: Show your love to your loved ones as much as you can before it's too late, even if you have to sacrifice.

This is just damn fcuking true. I wish everything is just a dream, a nightmare. I hope I can wake up from it and realize everything is not real. I don't want this to end this way, it's just not time yet.

People tend to put things on hold, thinking that there's still tomorrow. Today you couldn't wake up for Sunday breakfast with your grandpa, thinking there's always the following week, the next thing you know you no longer can go for Sunday breakfast with him. On CNY you thought of taking a family photo with everyone since they're all back but missed the chance, thinking there's always next year, the next thing you know, the chance will always be missed. You thought of treating your grandpa for a luxurious meal upon receiving your first salary, only to know he's gone a week before you start work. You hear your dad talking on the phone with your grandpa asking him out for dinner, the next thing you know, he's not here anymore. You made cinnamon rolls for him, the next thing you know, he don't have the chance to eat it. The fears in me when I went to the hospital previously came true. Too soon to be true.

I wish I can cook more often for him. He loves eating the bread I made. He never complained if the food is not nice to eat. I wish I can go for breakfast with him every Sunday. He loved each of his grandchildren to bits, he always ask us to go gain more knowledge, travel more, study Chinese, be good and wise.

Yeh yeh, I miss you already. R.I.P. I'll be good and make you proud. IMYVVM.

Happy belated Valentine's Day! 情人节快乐! 不知道大家如何度过2009年的情人节呢？我啊，就去了ONE FM的LIVE CONCERT, 跟很多DJ，艺人共度最浪漫的情人节耶～有我的超级偶像DANELL啦，帅气偶像宇中啦，JOHN啦，伍家辉，曹格，卓文萱，温岚，郭晓薇，吴忠明，潘嘉丽，方炯镔，慢行还有一班DJ们-JEFF，SUMI，SUKI，JACK，KYAN，LUCAS，RYAN。

22年来，都没有庆祝过情人节，因为没有情人啊。但是刚才被人‘骂’了一顿说情人节也可以是跟朋友过的啊！今年跟很多朋友一起庆祝，不错嘛。

每个人心中都会有一个难忘的‘他’。一个在心里有着重要身份的‘他’。不要算父母啦，他们的位置都是最特殊的。我的那个‘他’，是一位普通朋友，是一位曾经同班三年的学生。当时，还在小学的我们，根本不知道什么叫恋爱，什么复杂的感情世界。但是在我心中却有着一个特别的地位。

认识他是小学二年级的事了，而且还是同一个体育队。那时的他，男生嘛，都是调皮，捣蛋的。 三年级有一次体育课后他不小心用体育衣打到我，把我弄哭了。给我朋友骂了一会，过后他道歉。也许他已不记得他说过什么，但是他那句话我一生都会记得。其实学校一直都有传我们俩的‘绯闻’（哈哈，太夸张了吧）可是就没有去真正的理解。

五年级，我考进了第一班，就没有和他说话了。有一次学校旅行，朋友告诉我说他有了女朋友，好失望哦，但又有什么办法？六年级合唱团比赛他帮忙搬用具，只是说了几句话。不是，才几个字而已。有次UPSR考完试我们因巴士在不同地方要朝反方向走，走过彼此就马上低下头看地上。

中学我们俩就读不同的学校，我有尝试写信给他，也许他没有收到吧。就这样，缘分已尽。可是，不知怎样，我们又遇到，现在也有保持联络 :)

也许有一天你会读到这一篇，想告诉你的是，看死你没有去留意或在乎一切曾经发生过的事情吧。但是你说过的那一句话，你写过的纪念册（你的字体很难看咧咔咔咔！），我们最后什么时候见面，一切我都会记得的。放心，现在你不是我所需要的人，但是以前你曾经是我一个很特别的普通朋友 :)

情人节快乐。

PS: Hope this won't haunt you for life :p

By now, I think Bibi is in heaven already.

Bibi is my dog. Yeah, not everyone knows I have a dog. It belonged to my relative, and we took it home 8 or 9 years ago. Now that we've moved to a place where we can't own it, we had to do something. No one we know wanted it, so we're left with no choice.


Yesterday the vet called and said SPCA won't take dogs more than 10 years old. Bibi is already an old grandma. Anyway, SPCA is having problems with overloaded dogs too. No one wanted it. We had two options, put it to sleep or let it wander as a stray dog.

Yeah, call me a murderer. I am, I feel like one. Dad wanted to let it wander, but I thought putting it to sleep was less cruel. Why? At least you don't have to worry whether is she still alive, is she hit by a car, is she starving, is she cold... At least she's with You now. To make you feel better, SPCA also do so, even to puppies.

Going back to the old house to clear up my stuff would be painful now. Previously I always ask 'Feed Bibi already ah?' now it's at the slip of my tongue, only to remember she's not there anymore. Planning to fast few days a week to make myself feel better.

R.I.P. my little baby. I'll see you when I see you :)

I like to moo it moo it, we like to moo it moo it! Happy NIU year evlibadi! How is your CNY so far? Hot hot hot right? The weather is really hot these two days.


Didn't do much these three days (including CNY eve), the usual routine every year:

CNY Eve - Dinner at grandparents'. Just a stone throw away distance from my house. We have steamboat this year. Uncle and cousin came back from Australia this year to join us. So there were 27 of us! Crowded, but we had a lovely and joyful dinner.






CNY Day 1 - Happy Niu year. Brunch at grandparents' place again. Traditionally, my family is not supposed to be there, cuz it's my mum's side, and married daughter shouldn't go back to the mum's place on day 1, but that's been our tradition since long ago. We have vegetarian dishes. Mock duck, mock char siew, mock siew yuk, zai choi.

Congratulations to ECX for winning the Astro Battleground 舞极限 2008 champion!!! You guys deserve it!


Nah, I didn't go. Watched from home.

This year didn't really go for the recording every week like two years ago. Only went for a few. Never really notice ECX before, didn't realize they can dance so well! So synchronized! Even Marcus said 'I'm trying really hard to look for a mistake'. If got repeat on Wah Lai Toi please watch it!

Bravo to Astro for making this show such a success. It's so much better from 2007. So proud that Malaysia have such dance competition. And bravo to the hosts! :p (If he not good Astro also won't hire him twice ler teehee!) Danny composed and performed a song for Battleground. Awesome. *clap clap clap* *wub*



Mr Lan Bo and Mr Xue Gao *yeng yeng yeng*!!


Photo credit: Melvin Foong

Already past 4 days into the new year but only now I have the time to blog! Went up north for the new year countdown on 30th, 'enjoyed' 4 days without the net, busy the whole day yesterday therefore only have time to blog now. Will blog about the trip next.

Had a pretty enjoyful new year countdown up north. Stayed in BM and went over to Queensbay for the countdown. Saw my ever freaka-good-looking idol *wub* who gave us (well, for me at least) the best smile ever in 2008. Wait, it's the BEST smile I've seen EVER, which is in my chosen fave video 2008 I've recorded. Will share with you all when it's uploaded cuz it's not with me. On the other hand, feel bad for not going Sungai Wang's countdown this year, I've been there two years in a row for countdown, and this year Danell danced leh, kns. As in HIP HOP dance. Freaka good looking too.

Anywayz, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!! Keep the smile, leave the tear, think of joy, forget the fear, hold the laugh, leave the pain, be joyous, cuz it's the new year! Wish you all abundance of everything - be it health, wealth, luck, happiness, love, wisdom, prosperity, laughter, joy, faith, opportunities, chance... Cherish everything in life and enjoy each moment to the max.

A new year, a new beginning, a new chapter, a new story in life. Reminising what I've done in the past one year, I've had a pretty laid back year, really enjoying my life, entertaining myself. What I achieved in 2008? Nothing promising, nothing great, no big and to-be-proud-of achievements.

• Best one of the year is of course, able to graduate with a degree cert topped with an unexpected mention, when I almost flunk my thesis.

• I mention it all the time, I say it every year, and I realize more and more day by day - getting to know more new friends, getting closer and closer to known friends, the satisfaction you get after working together to do something, to know that they care for you, to feel happy that they remember you (although I emo about it sometimes :p) and a bonus is that your idols know your name by heart. Hu la hu la la, hu la hu la hu la la~ Hehe. To all my friends out there, words can't describe how thankful I am to have you all. Like what I've read in someone's blog, for my past 22 years of life, with our individual backgrounds and lifestyle, we might not have crossed path. Fate brought us together. If I were to chose another road, I wouldn't have met you. So thank you from the bottom of my heart.

• Realizing that I am lucky to have very understanding parents

• Own a PSP and an SLR camera :)

• Slowly learning to achieve my dream goals and objectives in life

• Had my first and a funtastic holiday in Bangkok with CY and SS

• Travelled domestically (hehe!) a lot, ate a lot when I was supposed to lose weight.

Told ya there's nothing much. It was a year that I think a lot, I emo a lot (seriously a lot), I expected a lot yet at the same time surprised me a lot.

So new year, let's start afresh! I wish it will be a good year, but my senses are not convinced about it. This year I only have one resolution (supposed to be two but I think the second one will never be realized :o) - FOCUS!!!

So, let's pray~~~

Merry Christmas everyone!!!

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed 'yesterday' and was cursing everything and anything under my breath.

Anyway...

My Christmas tree is up! Yayyy! Kinda late but, anyway, all done by me! Some help from my aunt too hehe!

This is without the ornaments... Will post it tomorrow hehe!

What's christmas without cookies!! Need to make another batch! Phew! Kinda tough work to make this one though!

Did some groceries shopping with parents in MV today. It feels like weekend there! 'People mountain people sea', doing their last minute xmas shopping! I see a queue in Memory Lane, at the gift wrap counters. I see people with bags from Isetan, Robinson, and Presents 4 Them, I see empty compartments in Jusco cuz everyone is shopping to cook for christmas! Imagine, the canned whole tomatoes were out of stock! And oh oh, I saw these packets of imported strawberries from Japan that costs freaking RM68.90! Wth!

Cooking family dinner tomorrow. Turkey turkey! Yeah, mum bought a turkey. My first time roasting a turkey. Supposed to start some mise en place 'yesterday' but I'm so lazy! Plus we came home late cuz packing stuff in the old house. Hopefully I can do everything in time later.

Nothing beats a can of cold beer after a long day's work.

Drink Heineken but use Anchor mug?!? Wth...

I received my Christmas present already! Wahoo!! Thanks mummy and daddy! Well, not JUST xmas present but it's xmas cum birthday cum graduation cum new year cum midautumn festival cum hari raya cum deepavali present! Ok lame, but basically it's the only one I got for this year la.

Supposed to be buying Nikon D60, but the salesman manage to upsell this Canon EOS1000D to us and it was at the same price range so here we go! Thanks mummy and daddy again :) Well, just a beginner's one. I shall learn my best to understand all those complicated terms of photography. Phew! Manage to learn some from the salesman. He must be thinking why would such a noob buy a DSLR...

Ok, better catch some sleep now.

Joyeux Noel! (No i'm not calling anyone by the name Noel)

1709 - 祝自己birthday gembira!

Ok lame. Harks! This post is freaking delayed so bare with me.

Actually, I am not a person who likes grand celebrations. I don't like to get surprise songs/cakes. I don't like having a lot of people staring and singing at me while I look at the cake and don't know what to do. No no, let me explain, it's because I just don't know how to express myself and I don't know how to react. I feel that it's not worth it for a person like me and I might not be able to repay what you've done. Ok, I know I should be grateful to have people to celebrate with. YES, I AM ABSOLUTELY, WONDERFULLY, GRATIFYINGLY, GRATEFULLY, AMAZINGLY, SURPRISINGLY, SHOCKINGLY, TOUCHINGLY grateful, *swearing with the ikrar pose*. I'm sure a few of you have been told by me about 'no song no cake' statement, argh, I don't know lah, I just prefer a quiet birthday, perhaps only a makan session with NO SONG, NO CAKE.

Fine, I shouldn't be emo-elmo. Sure kena marah by some people.

"iaalsdmwm" - Thanks for the be-earlied lunch @ Pick&Brew

Pumpkin/kaya - Thanks for the photo and card! Mwak mwak mwak!

GIBs - Thanks for not caring, not knowing and not wanting to know :D Thanks for the cardS, the heart-attacking surprise and cake.

Golosifo - I'm honored to have you all in my life. Thanks for everything. E: Thanks for the sms. Double J: Thanks for the message.

Pokok - Thanks for being the first to call ;)

4 sakais - Thanks for being trapped in front of the gate :p

Sotong, Butterfly - Thanks for the extremely cheap bag. It's so ugly I feel like throwing it away heehee! *wub wub*

Datin LUA - Thanks for the cake, even though I feel like slapping you but I lub u! Lol!
Gnet - Thanks for the 2am card. It's really nice. I cried. Lol!

WT,ML,SF,PK - Thanks for the frower and turning my darling GAY. Now he doesn't allow me to take it off. Lol! *wub*

7 Cupids - Thanks for the card and products! I know it's a warning for me to wash my face more often. Steamboat coming soon ya? :) Fi: Very touched that you exam also still come out. Sobz! Thank kiu!

The SK Gang - Thanks for dinner, the card and the pweety pweety products and the 'my shop' paper bag (koff koff). C: Thanks for planning it. Mwaks.

Isa - Thanks for buying me mamak as present. Hohoho! It's my favorite present this year ;)

Thanks to those who sms, called, msg on facebook, msn, blog, friendster, chatbox :) I am still keeping all your messages. Sorry I didn't reply. *lub lub* Thanks so so much.

LM - Thank you *wub*

Sorry if I missed out anyone. I lubs you alls from the bottoms of my hearts!! Lubs lubs lubs! Mwaks mwaks mwaks! Next year no more ya, pls. I'm not joking. No more! Full stop! The end! Save money for yourselves, for studies and work. I damn guilty seeing 'have to starve till next month' kinda msn nicks. Sigh.

Once again, thank you, xie xie, doh jeh, mm goi, terima kasih, merci beaucoup, kam siah, arigato gozaimasu, kam sa hamida, gracias, kap kun ka, salamat, nandi, shukriya!!

Happy Mid Autumn Festival everyone!!!

It was a quiet one for me. Chilled with some friends in the afternoon and family dinner at grandpa's house at night. Parents are away for holiday in somewhere in the world. I was looking for a cute tanglung but couldn't find any. So pfft, end up didn't play tanglung. The pic above was my baby cousin's one.

Very relaxing day. During dinner me and cousins recalled how we used to play tanglungs and burnt some. I wanna be back as a kid! :(

Anyway, hope everyone had a good mid autumn celebration. Wishing everyone rounds of happiness, joy, luck. Hope everyone have a great family reunion, stay peaceful and harmony. Always remember, family is the most important thing in life :)


Uncle bought mooncakes from Hilton. Blueberry cheese mooncake, choc baileys mooncake! Interesting. Oh, dad made some ping pei ones too! :) Our usual mid autumn celebration - homecooked dinner, followed by 'yum cha' session - chinese tea, mooncakes, pomelo!

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I collect fancy mooncake boxes! Whoever who don't keep them can give them to me ;)

For the past week I've been kinda emo, well, I don't see it as negatively emo, or the rather contradicting 'positively emo', but I'm just 'gratefully emo'. Those who have seen my 'change-by-the-minute' msn nick might accidentally noticed my emo nick last week - 不想有人对我好 (don't want to be treated nice). Maybe I'm feeling really guilty because I'm always worried about neglecting my friends or family. Be it consciously or unconsciously. Be it knowing or not knowing. I feel bad when people treat me good and I can't repay for their kindness. I feel sad when I know I don't deserve it. Teng even helped me analyzed the pros and cons of it. Haha thanks gnet ;)

At the same time, I'm glad to be part of your friendship circle. I'm grateful to have so many wonderful friends in my life. I'm happy that at each single stage of my life I meet someone new, and great.

Quote soursand - * Time might lead me to nowhere and fate might break me into pieces but I will always be THANKFUL that once in my life's journey, our path crossed! *


Thank *you* (you know who you are) for the wonderful pressies. Totally unexpected. Expect the unexpected *chuckles* Very nice of you. I count this as the 'present' already ya?