I have been doubting my role an engineer, and the doubt is becoming more overwhelming than ever. I am more destructive than I am in constructive. Or maybe I am just a smart aleck, and reality hits right smack in the face.
This project has been a steep learning curve, compared to the previous two internship, this is actually the worst by date. At first I was still contemplating doing research in engineering, then I am rather certain of not doing it. My mom claims that once I complete this project the sense of achievement would change my mind. I have my qualms, seeing this project is not progressing on a positive note at all. But I cant foresee impending situations, and mom's best. Ill just keep my hopes up for the moment.
Now, I am even doubting my capability to be an engineer. Maybe I am just better off working with a computer and causing no damage to anything else. On another note, a job in IT seems more inviting than ever looking at the bleak future of me being an engineer.
I hope this is just all a phase. A phase I have to go through seeing I was certain ill be an engineer since young. Maybe it was influence. But I cant shake off this perturbing feeling. Maybe... Just maybe...
Peepz, don't worry. Ill survive... I always do... Hopefully I make a come back with a bigger bang :)
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