First time I've gotten non-functionally sick while teaching class. Monday was rough but okay.
This morning was okay but by the end of 2 hrs of talking my voice is now gone. Monday nights coughing was terrible. Last night was better but still not much sleep and not great but taking the guaifenesin w/o the cough suppresent was the smart move or maybe it didn't matter. It sucks and this really sucks.
Tested positive for RSV saturday and I'm still not better.
Bike path isn't clear, way too much snow for the plow. So I'm riding the ebike because not feeling well and having to deal with the road and all the ice on the road (studded tires) is good but now I'm getting the short crank pain from riding it. And it is only Wednesday and I have at least tomorrow to get through. Would be great to feel well enough Friday to be back on normal length cranks but we'll see.
And with the bike path shut down, the insane ride on the busy street and not feeling great, I've been unable to find the space or the visuals to finish the roll in either the p17 or the spotmatic. And that's also frustrating and adding to the malaise. And then there's all the other shit going on. Not to mention there's too much snow and it isn't packed (too cold to actually pack) to ride skinny mtb tires in the woods. And my crank is still halfway off the mid-fat bike that 'MIGHT' work on the packed foot path in the snow but need the part to arrive first. So no MTB riding, no photography, no bike path and light house and stuff, and yeah...
I haven't felt this sick in a really long time, this RSV thing suuuuuuucks. And I haven't been able to just rest, esp now that classes have started and there's no one to cover them for me and there is so much material to cover.
But hey at least commuting in when it is 18°F (or freedom degrees) isn't cold anymore. I mean it is cold but also feels kind of normal.
When is all this fucking snow going to melt? Soon? yeah no. More snow possible this weekend? Oh great.
Gotta keep pushing and trying to make it all happen
I'm still, occasionally opening all tabs and going through the corner of the internet I have bookmarked and arranged into two tabs. Currently called 'Open Tabs 3.0a' and 'Open Tabs 3.0b' (41 and 38 respectively)
Now one of the micro blogging platforms has taken up a pile of my time/attention. There has been some great film discussion (analog as in taking photos, not as in movies) lots of amazing artists sharing their work and some shit posting. But it is also chock full of fellow ASD folks who don't interact much beyond that and are currently terrified/frustrated/outraged/hopeless/all of the above and don't know what to do besides call their congress people and vent. Is it healthy? No but neither is the state of affairs. But that's all for that previous post.
So given previous post, and me showing up late to work, and then not eating breakfast and then waiting till noon to eat lunch because 1pm meeting and then eating so fast, and still being hungry, well. Lets open all tabs. There a few new bookmarks, two substacks in particular. Now, I have a beef with that platform, it is up there with that OG micro-blogging place in terms of rotten to the core and funding the bad people, so my current policy is to read a very few specific ones, but I won't share links. Also I don't feel comfortable paying for premium access and that kind of sucks because Amanda Batty's got some good stuff going and can use the support, and Mike Ferrentino is doing a deep dive into back issues of BIKE mag for his paid subs but paying into a platform like that? For now it is a no go, gotta draw a line somewhere, being broke with zero discretionary funds does make it easier. There are really only two others that I have been reading with regularity and that's feldmancat's and enzotcat's. I'll put in an IYKYK for that. And if you do you do. If you know me you also know other stuff as to why I'm following along. Another IYKYK and you probably don't or if you do maybe you can put the pieces together. If not no worries.
I am not usually that obviously cryptic. Most of the time I'm so cryptic I confuse myself on the re-read.
All that's a pre-amble to something totally different. And of course I'll probably run out of time.
Oh - check the IG (link on the sidebar) been posting more photos there lately. Because why not.
So yeah - Patrick O'Grady. Kind of funny, Patrick and Mike F are two of the people from in the way back machine I'd always said I'd love to have a beer with. O'Grady sobered up before I did. So maybe we just get a cup of coffee some day. or not.
He posted the Truckin' live song in memory of Bob Weir. I am NOT a dead head, never have been, never went to their shows, but I have heard their music.
Listening to this I'm reminded that most of the stuff I've heard are radio edits that are not 10+ minutes long. I'm also not a Phish fan (shocking). So listening to this I kind of was reminded while I'm familiar with the songs, the live stuff is alien to me. It is still excellent and I can acknowledge these guys were good, just not really my thing.
So here: you get to listen to it here if you want.
Or go read P O'G's stuff (it is all good) and read about his reflection about BW
Tapping out and prep'n for the new hurdle at 1pm. Need more coffee for this, and *waves hands around* that too
oh and coffee - coffee grinder got all fucked up somehow. I think maybe I have it working again, that was an ordeal and not a great process but we'll see...
Meaning stop getting info filtered through people I know and go into a full deep dive and dig into all the stuff out there?
Nah.
I'm not ready for that yet, headlines still give me panic attacks. Working on that but I'm not ready for a full dose and I don't think immersion is going to help in this case.
No pedaling this weekend. Just lots of driving. It was good and needed and helpful and I finished a book and got parts and now the road gearing on the Crockett can go to 30, instead of 25.
I'm already late so why not throw a few thoughts up here this morning.
It's kind of terrifying to watch, even as remotely as I am watching it all unfold. How much worse is it going to get is all I wonder, in fear. Yet everyone keeps going on about their life. Those who aren't directly disrupted and that feels not right. Will that change at some point? Will the markets crash first? What's it going to take?
I don't know.
I'm plugging away, photos help. But haven't had time for a good photo walk in a bit. Need to fix that. Tomorrow maybe.
Time to get ready to head out the door, not sure I have enough food for the day but I have more food than many. I'm lucky.I recognize that. But at the same time I recognize while lucky I've managed to get to this point on life with much less influence than many. I don't control much, I have few resources, but I have my family, and my health for now. Here's to hoping at least that continues.
This maybe is too much to say for now here, but it is what it is I guess.
These words began as a micro blog platform thread, but then I don't really want to share that there and these sentiments aren't new here.
I struggle on the holidays, esp this one, mostly because I've still never figured out this whole culture of buying piles of stuff for others in hopes they like them. Mix it with so rarely getting a gift that brings me any joy that I attempt not to do that to others and then lock up, panic, spiral.
Only thing I've ever hoped for is that my offspring don't have this feeling and then that adds pressure, no, it's not something I've been able to figure out. Being blackout drunk was how I coped till 2018. It's been harder since obvs.
Fortunately the rest of the family is good, maybe that's enough.
All this travel to the west coast for concerts every year, cyclocross racing and never being near commercial stores (that aren't bike shops) have been confounding factors. That and no one is into the same things I've been into.
I struggle reading minds and guessing about stuff that people need/want. I'm fairly observative but not seemingly in a way that helps me keep track of what would be a good gift. Hell I can't even tell when people are hitting on me, I have issues or to phrase it more positively those are areas that don't align with my strengths.
We'll get through. So many people struggle with these days and everyone in their own way. Be gracious, be kind. Forgive those you can.
