♥: 2008

Monday, December 15, 2008

God is fooling us with the DEATH =(

Sigh~=(

I' m feeling bad and almost 1am now,i m suppose to sleep but this sudden disaster strike me up.=(

just heard a sudden death of my beloved uncle,omg.

I did rather bluff myself or ignore what sis had just told me,yea i 'm right,sis is just kidding with me,yea guess so..yea...sucks ='(

I just watched a video which made me smile on my own when i was sitting alone in the room,ya,before i heard the sudden news,but after that video,everything is just switched to reverse mode.Now,i feel godamn bad,i can't even smile.My jaw is in a curve but opposite from the one we used to smile.What the heck.(I know is ugly=( but i can't control).

I'm worry...

Worry for my granny...

what will happen to my dear granny when she knows that?somemore is her younger bro.awww..i cant imagine,screw it up man,HELP~~~sob

I know i shouldn't have bother DA REN's stuff so much but..please,he's my uncle.He treats us very nice ok,he treats everyone as his family.He bought us health stuff and teach us the way we live our healthy life,he's good,superb...so and so...how could god fool his live when he is not around with family?how could that be happen?he 's healthy but what happened.god

Ya i m sad,somemore suffering for gastric pain.(although i took my dinner,stupid stomach)

guess what can i do is just go into bed now and attend the class punctually,perhaps.What m i suppose to do..i can't regain any things,i have no supernatural power,i m not the latent HEroine.

Somemore i got some prob with my laptop,my stupid window software almost crush,i hope it can stand until the CNY,if not,i have to go back on the coming xmas(need to spend hundred bucks for the tickets which i don't wish to spend on,i did rather get a pair of converse shoes(longed for couple of months) and new jeans,sigh),just to format it and i know family will be that dull as a black parade.lol..crapping still.ish..till then -.-

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Hols-holidayssSSs

Well my hols is gone,starting my term3(last term) which is a crucial term for everyone of us,before that,i was really had fun with cousins and family at the 'familiar hols venue'-Genting.That is a place that my family and cousins used to go annually.*cough*(although i longed to go other place for vacation) =)

-we people-

-my family(except cousins family)

-daddy

-poser^

Hahahahehehehe,it was really fun with cousins.God~i miss them!haha.um,should have tell something about our hols.On the first day,we were supposed to stay at Theme Park Hotel but because of some mistakes,we stayed overnight at Awana resort,the first night.Meanwhile,we had our steamboat there,ya,for the whole day.haha.We went swimming at the evening and of course chilled for pool(snooker) at night.Gosh~my skill is...'awesome',-.-'''...my face was blushing all the time while pool -ing.arggghhh.....

-nah,serious~haha

The other morning,we went to the theme park,of course.Bro was not following us as he went back to KL to hand up his assignment,how about my sis??ya right,she was with her bf most of the time ,and that i chilled with three of my cousins,they were just cute and funXxx!That was more fun as we tried out everything and CHALLEGED OUR BRAVERY!(being force actually=x).

-with sis and lengzai,opps!

-Santa Babe

-There was a Chocolate Wonderland.

-In the
choc wonderland-nice

-we people

haha,after a tiring but fun afternoon,i thought of laying over the cold ,soft bed and sleep like i never sleep before!haha,but....that was just what i thought of,as my little cousins jumping on the bed and taking pics~yayaya~i did that too.'jumping' as i m a model and posing while jumping.xoxo (actually we took lots of pics for jumping not only in the room,is EVERYwhere,hah!)

yea jump!!!

nah..wahaha

OPPS!

my lit cousin,cute XD

my cousin,she's pro=)

haha,landing.

Shouldn't jumped for such a long time,burning calories just for our so called 'Jumping Shots' as i got muscle cramps afterthat,ehemz,wasn't that i m the oldest ok,just that...um...huh....okay...enough!haha =p

Around 9:30pm,little cousin still dragged us out to the theme park (outdoor),it was late as theme park outdoor games closed at 10pm,by the way,i don't know whether or not to consider it as 'fortunate' for MEEEee because at the time,Space Shot was still available.grrr..majority of them wanted to play and that i had no choice,waaaaa...played for two times,it was quite fun and for

the second times,we sat at the seat where there was a camera stand by for us,muahaha..took pics up there.at that seat,we saw the KL night scene when we reached the peak!wow~that made us 'relax' while looking at that awesome,fantastic night scene but 'Die' of pressure and screamed like hell after the space shot fall,GOd!!Its killing me ok!but still that was fun!will try it out again!

after the Space Shot,we went to play mini F1.haha,yea seriously i 'almost' can't reach the qualified height but...ehemz..then i got to play it !yahoooo,my lit cousin(13years old) can drove and even got the first,clap!muahaha..

We went back on next day after a luxurious vegetarian lunch,was nice but it cost a bomb weir~haha.yea i miss all the time with family and of course fun with cousins!arrggghhhhh...They went back to the hometown and before that shopping together but i followed my bro and his gf back to KL as my bus back to the 'jail'(opps!is my 'lovely' university) was on the next day.

Well,still we got the time to hang out for a movies,- in One U,haha,Actually we were heading there to look for my high heels,i need that for my prom night,hehe.i got it at vincci after a 'rushed searching around-.- '.Went for supper after movies and bro went to his college(Segi col) for a while.nice =x

Ok ,i leave KL the next day as my class starting the other day then.The scary thing happened when i crossed the road with bro,i saw a cab drove too near(in the white line) while bro and i standing on the white line at the middle of the to and fro roads,we stepped one step in front but i forgot the big bag i was carried,then the cab's side mirror banged with my bag that i carried,but luckily i didn't fall down,i hate that reckless taxi driver,wt*.grrrrr!anyway,was my fault also,ish..dumb

That was my hols and after that i have to start up sem3& busy for my Dinner and dance (a.k.a Prom night) !wooo~12th dec.yea was actually yesterday as i had a prob of undating my blog~ok,will update the event then!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Awww...

Well...i know my blog is dying.sigh..sorry
guess i have to blame myself for didn't update my blog BUT,
i was having exam and study week for the past two weeks,i have no choice but control myself for not taking out my laptop from my locker and online while others are studying.i can't.:(

Actually, i m suppose to update it with some pics (penang trip with classmates,ainhur's bithday and caryn's birthday),but my phone memory card spoiled by stupid AUTO-RUN virus,god,USB rejected somemore,cannot scan and i really don't know what to do as all my pics inside are not backup yet.awwwww..help~

Somemore I m whirling with lots of memories.sweet& sad memories.i missed the time i drove my 'friend's car(ok,i have to admit that he was my so called 'extraordinary friend').It was godamn fun to spend over time with him after working,he is still that nice but its such a long time didn't get to see him due to our studies.Awww,i miss every of my close friends here.well,i heard lots of rumours about him and me which ruin my image badly,please LAAAR,don't judge me by stupid rumours,i m not that type of pg.No one knows except myself,so don't judge people by rumours.

*well,shall stop for that points as my endurance is almost up to the limit,i HATE rumours*

Let's talk about my hols,after my tiring exam last week,i m now back to my hometown for sem break,please,its only one week,i can't even breath it out man.

I thought it will be a nice yet enjoy hols for me before starting my hectic Sem3(last sem:x) but it was out of my expectation after the second days here.Quite a lot of my close friends here went for vacation.By the way,went out with muchie buddies on the first day here,WAHAHA...fun but emo.Guess what,three of us are typical E.M.O king and queens,

[emo king= emo ----------1 ]
[emo queens= emoS----------2]
____________________
King+queens= emoSssss
*what a lame equation,sry*

we talked,we fun,we laughed,we emo,we shared secrets,gossips,craps,we were whispering each other's ears,aww...i missed them!haha.After our second rounds high-tea,it was about evening.3 emo fellas went up to the rooftop(thx ant^) of shopping mall,it was a beautiful scene for that evening,pretty cool yet FREAKING FUNNY for 3 of US posing in weird freestyle while camwhoring.nah,i will upload some of the funny pics soon!it was a nice outing,emo but fun with buddies.ohya,i received a pink rose on the same day which was also out of my expectation.Thanks anyway.

I m looking forward for the coming vacation with family and cousins.hehe.the surrounding will be filling with lots of laughter,perhaps!Really happy to spend over my time with cousins as i have had happy moments with them in my childhood hols.As the time flies,we are getting older and everyone busy with their own stuff,i m afraid of it,i hope the time can even stop for the time being.i m afraid of ageing too.i know the time are separating us and even closer friends or cousins are becoming strangers ,OMG.I don't wish anything happen to be like that.

Anyway,guess i m over crapping now.haha.i shall stop for today.'Enjoy' hols then.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Boring- bored- Yawn

Well,i didn't go back during this dee hols as i have my own reasons.

Life is really bore that out of my expectation!!

I rejected to step out of my house(not room huh) without reasons.

Everyone is asking me about the way i spend my hols here,

Well,what did you guys expected me to do when i'm still stucked in my hostel,somemore inside campus.AWww...blogging,sleeping,studying,chatting were the order of the days!(Mood:BORED!)

By the way,I'd rejected from visiting my lecturer house yesterday,perhaps mr red pants won't mad with me(smirk!).I have to follow my holidays schedule and hibernate in my room.Really boring,OMG!I 'm looking forward to my outing tomorrow!!chill with classmates over penang queensbay,happy~Guess my tummy will be filling with lots of food tomorrow!They're just live their life with yummy FOODs!lalala~

OH ya,just found something fun in CK's blog-'Does your name fit you'

Let's see mine:-

B-Loves people

R-Good lover

E-Sillier than Jackass

N-Can kick your ass

A-Gorgeous

T-Great kisser

I-Loves to laugh

A-Gorgeous

N-Can kick your ass

Well,does it really fit my name and shows my personality?haha..

Judge yourself!

Till then.

*someone came into my life*...:)

*Miss hulaLA*

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Bad Oct.

I' m so sorry for the lack of updates.Here's my updated blog.

Well,what i can say is 'I NEED LUCKssss!'my oct is totally messed up with lots of problems.

For instance,friendship,assignments,self stuff,projects blah..which drove me nut.OMG!my october was suckz.

I do not know what happened to me,myself.

Screwed up with almost everything i did.

Too stressed of projects,muet exam , studies,friendship and every minor stuffs!I just can't control my emotion!

Then i'd fallen sick,fever and started thinking nonsense stuff.

I was all about depressed.To be honest,i thought of someone holding a knife and standing beside my bed when i was sleeping,as in somebody is going to kill me,then tensed up,anxious and can't sleep well.

Then i was shocked for myself on the next morning,wondered why i did thought so and so on.

God...what happened..

After all,i tried to talk to my friends,classmates and of course my lovely family.Then things get well and smooth after my project and Muet speaking done.Somemore my sweet mummy cheered me up when i was depressed and she was just sweet(Thanks,i love you mummy!).Well,i have to mention about my cute sis too,she did a lot for me ,thanks 'blue'(you know what i meant),haha.

Besides,the things that kept crossing my mind was that whether or not to go back home during this coming deepavali hols,which was a source of tension too.I missed my home,serious homesick.

However,i decided not to go back at the end,i had my own reasons.:(

Phew...finally reached the end of the month,i m looking forward to my 'fresh' Nov!!I hope it will be a better,good,lucky,fortunate++ month for me.Perhaps!oo no..is..PLease!

Well,before that,i might treat my halloween as a 'great' ending of bad Oct.Farewell Oct.See you next year!Happy Halloween!lalala~

Thursday, September 25, 2008

-HaPPY Mooncake Festival-

Haha,it was my first time celebrating moon cake festival with friends in the campus.
Well, was fun and we were like a big family which form from 14 people :- athinia de fierest,caryn de red hair,ainhur de rockstar,chin wei de son,lau de big tummy,raj de nice Indian,Felicia de missy,mandy de pretty girl,Jason de mandy’s cute guy,vikram de uncle perasan, sin ying de smart girl,Jacinta de funny housemate,shuwen de silent queen,and me!BRENNA de superb manja naughty lit girl!

Okay I shall starts from the beginning,
All of us went to the Tesco in the morning, and girls in charged of buying all those food for our steamboat tonight,BUT!after we met up with them(guySSS),they all nagged for the “insufficient” food for them,so….was their turn to in charge of the food.So and so,we spend about 144bucks!!!what the heck!After all,we were waiting for the bus to fetch us back and “someone” stupid-ING(perasan-V).Athinia snatched away his “nike” sandal and he kept shouting for his “nike” sandal (BUT why he doesn’t chase again athinia just for his sandal?!because…….he was STUCK IN THE TROLLEY!OMG!).After that,we all threated him to snap photo while he was stucked inside the trolley,and since he got no choice~~~hiak hiak~~ we got HIS Stupid photo..see his retarded camwhore below~

the outing was tiring but fun as i got many FOOD!!*wink*

(*NIGHT time event)

We started to prepare for our steamboat around 8pm and thinia was the “LEADER” of all (& known as MUMmy too..opps!shhh...)hehe
She kept scolding people for not helping and…….ehem…the one who “steal” food while preparing..well~I purposely shouted to lau as he was “half-way-stealing food” and that I can shifted thinia’s attention towards lau and “take” the food “unconciously” in the same time.BUT!was failed and thinia scolded me too!*smirk*!then mandy,ainhur and Jason came along to “pakat” with us and we were successfully “took” a big bowl of crabmeat by telling thinia that the crabmeat cannot cook for too long !wahaha! so yummy!
-“COOPERATION is the way that lead us success”!cheers gang!-

Our food.

Well well,during the steamboat,jason & ainhur were played with their guitars,mandy sang song,caryn busy chatting,sinying,shuwen them were laughing...blah..what about me!?hehe..i was squeezing my brain juices and came out with "stupid stuff"!hahas..my creativity was 100%..opps!okok..79.99% that time!guess what stupid weird stuff i did during our lantern steamboat???haha..i did "Fishball candle light& papaya candle light"..so......ehemz..candle light dinner?!..hahas!!!the outcome was extremely lame but to me,its FUN!(Who i m!?is BRENNA de superb manja naughty girl)!!.....S.S now..sorry..*control control*..^

NADAHHHHHHH!!!!!!*laughing with my jaw opened*

.papaya candle light

.fishball candle light

Nice right??hehe..(attn:contact me if u want to set up a 'special' candle light dinner!XD appointment is preferable !!s.s!)

Okay,as what i said earlier,was a "lantern" steamboat dinner,WHERE IS THE LANTERN?ya,there was ! and we took our own lantern and walked around the campus,was SO FUN and yet we camwhored with our lantern.And before all of us went back,we took our family 'sweet' photo as memories(except lau,raj and perasan v -the photographer).THANKs all.-end-

.ME camwhoring with my lantern and mooncake.

.every pairs came out with differ poses(i m in the most "obvious' pair.haha!)

.Me again(actually everyone of us took the pic like this!is so damn fancy!so many camera stand by!hehe)

. Say 'CHEESE'!

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Higgledy-piggledy

-My Art-

~toys

~studies

~shopping

~career

The latest issue in "one" magazine discussed the "PRIME DATING YEARS OF GIRL" ,which drive me crazy.
According to THAT mag,DATEABILITY RATING of girl is low in 18yrs old to 23 yrs old.W.H.Y!!?

*Smirk*
This is because we're still that "fresh" and VIVACITY Of YOUTH still ON,right girls??!

Unless SHE intends to get married,there is really no reason to date older men!BUT!!
What's the point that marrying a girl before she turns twenty and divorce by 25 yrs old?!
why they need a HUBBY?or a BOY?

Okay...

That does not mean that newbie cannot find quality dates,but just to avoid jerks that fool girls around.("someone" 's experience plz)
Who knows what is inside guy's mind,get me?
As most of the people said that girl's mind is very hard to guess but i do think the opposite way- "Guy's mind is EXTREMELY hard to catch."
Normally guys are with their pride ,dignity ,money ,jobs ,drinks ,car and girls.
"Obviously" their mind is easy to guess but "internally" is as hard as passing motion when having constipation,huh!DON'T EVER PAY LESS ATTENTION to their emotion,GUYS ARE typical "EMO KING" please!

NEXT,dateability rating is HIGH in 23yrs old to 26yrs old.
That is girls GOLDEN moments with well career on her way,has loved,lost,independent and experienced.

But,
is that means they are "easier" in finding a date??!
What if girls settle down after 30yrs old?
still that charming with more stable career and experienced,right?

however,(-Life is a game that fool us in a 'circle'-),

The scarcity of "choices" might happen after her 30 yrs old,leaves her with the not-so-nice leftover.Sigh..What to do..cruel fact.

Now then i realised how stupid i WAS dragged along by the past,or even stuck in between.oh my god, symptom of ageing!I should (opps!) is I MUST live life to the fullest with FUN BUT NOT DRAG BY THE PAST! Learn as much as i can about love,relationships,money,chemistry,friends and that little curiousity of guy.The most essential things are enjoy my life with fun and happiness.Who ever say that girls cannot live their happy life without guy!?According to the issue in mag,18yrs old girls do not have to find their date that early,indirectly means they don't have to drag by the past but looking for the new one huh?pretty confuse,HAHAs!
*GAMPATEH KUDASAI* -winks-

Monday, August 25, 2008

oh no~Ah!

Ah!I hate to look into mirror now,
the reflection of my SCARY face.AH!!

At first i thought that was some fungal infection on my face but now then i know was "INSEcts bitE!"(not love bite huh,OPPS!)

*I HATE BUGS!*

Ah!!!my face!!my eyeslid!my neck!!my hand!!!
Will it left any BIG SCAR after all!??
can i just stop thinking about the scar or any discolour mark on my face
!??OMG!i can't!!frus!

I'm damn down of the bruises on my face,neck and hand,
i hate bugs that bite me like hell!
i dare not to meet anyone right now and
i just wish tO HIDE in my room until all scary bruises gone!
i don't mind how long it takes for me to hide in the room but i just hate to step out from my room.
i have no confidence in everything now and even a simple "hi" to my friend.
they all just look at my face with their "opened-BIG mouth" and ask me "whAT happened to yr face!?fall down?".hey..kinda hurt..
sigh..
sigh...
sigh.....
...i hate anything of me now and still i hATE BUGS!don't bite me anymore and I DON'T WANT SCAR!

"parabolic path" on my hand

my face!pain.

(post only two pics as the other pics are too scary!)

Saturday, August 23, 2008

D & H

I'm that "D"own of freaking fungus infection on my face yet stupid couple still came along and "H"urt me.

It that fun to FOOL me like hell?
It that SWEET that u guys say "hi" to me in this way?

What i know is...
I'm HURT...

Don't u guys think that is too childish to fool around?
and HURT people(ex) as "easy as fucking (but not ABC)".

I know u guys are just "sweet & stable" now but please do something mature,
think before u do..stupid hurt sia...:(

Stay away from me and lead yr own childish "happy moments",
U guys are killing me with yr jokes(can i call this "JOKES"??!).

Thank you for the "jokes" ,
i won't laugh for it instead i broke into tears.thanks.

I don't know what happened to me but tears just pop out itself from my eyes,
my face is wet,my heart is hurt,my nerve is iritating and my mind is angry.

I'm so sick with both of u that hurt me deeply,
I felt tired...and suffocated.

Guess is time for me to close my eyes , breath slowly.
clear my mind and forget everything. -bren-:(

Friday, August 22, 2008

Art for my life

sp clock tower-by bren

my nike sportshoe-bren

...hostel^-bren

"musics as a cure"-i enjoy musics.

ahhhh...study!-bren

...hurt-bren

I love art and i like photograpy.

they are a part of my life.

I learnt art for many years,

but still i'm not bore with my art,

i love to explore art and photography.

all about me are art,

i lead my life with my art sense,

i'm calm when i doing something about art,

it happens itself.

caused by my passion of art, i think.

anyone with his/her art can share with me,

i'm open with art passionate.

there u go,

i love art & photpgraphy!

my story-i like to be myself

I like to be myself,of a story on my own.
I was borned to be like that,
an eighteen yrs old girl who longed for love but was hurt by the past,
that's me.

I m go damn afraid to fall in love and i had have try hard to avoid it.
well,sometimes i wish to be a protege,
a protege is a person who protected by another person,
i like that feeling without any reason but still i don't welcome anyone into my heart,
as there's still a wound on my heart,uncured.

I had learnt from the past and that i won't let myself to be affected foolishly in anything,dreams.
as i know,the things(person,happiness) that come towards me only happen in a sudden,
the word "permanent" is no longer in my story,i don't know why.

I 'm having a boring life.
The life without msg&call.
I know it is a retribution.

A retribution of been infatuated with a relentless person,a scumbag.
I had awaken of the foolishness i did,i know is infallible for me to welcome u into my heart before,
BUT LOVE IS INEVITABLE.

Still,i will try to flash back the sweet times of ours,as it is ineffable lovely,sweet.

But,
fact is cruel>

i rather live in the memories instead of the fact.
Anyway,was a past.
A story of myself,i will lead my way through..i love myself.

♥