but I have the best husband in the whole world (and he's holding an award for best father so he has that going for him too).
My plan long ago was to have 4 children (it didn't matter if they were boys or girls). They didn't come when or how I expected. Sheriff took his own sweet time coming with lots of medical procedures and expenses. Wannabe, Giggles and Smiley came years later through adoption.
I learned many things as I went through these experiences - waiting for something special to happen in my life. In the case of our little fostergirl our long wait to find out her fate has ended and she will return to her birthfamily. We are not empty handed however as she brought something special to our home the last 7 1/2 months. She brought a softness to our family that girls and babies bring. She melted our hearts, brought smiles to our faces, brought boys big and small to their kness, had me playing Primary songs on the piano to put her to sleep, and drew our family closer together as we prayed for her future.
As her time with our family draws to a close she will take with her our prayers, our hopes for bright and beautiful future, and the love of a family who will always remember her and think of her.
Thanks to all for your kind thoughts, prayers, tears and hugs!
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She now will have prayers that she will not have had, had she not come into your home, plus an auntie that loves her so much.
Oh, that was so sweet. And tenderly sad. And that photo just makes my eyes sweat. It is perplexing how life never turns out the way you expect it to.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
So so sad- I am so sorry you had to go through this. So glad you got to have her for at least a little while though. Prayers for her and for your family.
April, Traci is going to court today to find out what happens to Spencer's little girl- add her to the prayer list too ok!
I wish there was something I could say. A wise woman once said to me that perhaps it is kind of like a mission where you get to teach an investigator for a while and then you get transferred. You hurt because you can't see them get baptized, but you were part of the plan. I know this in now way comes anywhere close to even making this better. In my case after years of grieving, it started my healing a tincy tiny bit. If the Lord needed me to be the mother to my three year old little girl for just 3 months and that was the plan, and I gave her things in those three months that no one else could give her, well that helped make some sense out of something so insensible. I don't know why this life has to include such painful events, but apparently it does. It is times like these that make it awfully difficult to "come what may and love it." But I do know that the Lord will get you through this, and even though the hole in your heart will never heal, the ripping gouging pain, will not be this intense forever. Almost 13 years later I am not "over" the pain of losing a child I cherished to the system. I know nothing can make this better, but you are not alone. Big hugs and prayers.
I don't know you but am so sorry for your loss. I hope you have a big circle of Relief Society sisters huging and crying with you. Here's a virtual hug!
What a sweet and loving post.
I've had children in my life who I've loved and who have left their little hand prints in my heart to remember them by. Separation hurt horribly. But I can't regret the time and the love we had together.
I'll pray for your dear fostergirl, her birth family and for your loving family as well.
I'm so sorry :( How fortunate to have had your family's love and example imprinted on her heart to take with her. Doesn't help the hurt though...
Big hugs coming your way!!!
Oh my achy breaky heart... for you.
April said the wisest thing. I am just astounded that you can do any of it in the first place. You are cut from the finest fabrics to be such a giver.
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