So here is the last birthday letter that Shawn ever wrote me. A few things you need to know before reading. 1. He always called me his Angel 2. His career was hard and we never knew what was going to happen next or where we would be moving to, 3. After watching Titanic about 20 times and me crying during every time we always said "You jump, I jump" to each other, we said it and also wrote it in every letter that we each wrote. 4. Last year he got me the Journey Diamond necklace. 5. Shawn's nickname was Hoss, 6. At the time of this letter we had been trying for a baby for about 5 months. Here it goes, I've never shared any of Shawn's letters with anyone ever before.
Angel,
I know this hasn't been easy in any way shape or form. However, despite all the bullshit we go thru on a daily, weekly, monthly, and seems now yearly bullshit, I can't imagine anybody else I would want to go thru this with. That being said while the journey has been less than desirable, we are just getting started. I can't imagine anybody else I would have rather gone thru the journey with. I hope this will celebrate our past journey and we can realize that our journey together will only get better, and the best part of OUR and OUR FAMILIES JOURNEY has yet to begin.
I love you Angel more than you will ever know or I can convey to you!
Love Hoss,
P.S.
You jump, I jump
P.S.S.
I can't wait to start our family together with you...
Our journey has yet to begin...
There it is my last birthday note from Shawn. I hope by my sharing this letter shows you all how great of a husband he was to me. He loved me so much and I know he still does. So far my birthday hasn't been as bad as I thought it was going to me. It still SUCKS, but not as bad as I was thinking it was going to be. I think Bo is keeping me occupied! My family and I went out for lunch and it has been a pretty low key day, just how I wanted it. Several friends have also called and told me happy birthday today as well. The "Coach" also called me bright and early first thing this morning to tell me too.
Well that is my post for today. Again, I hope you can see by the note how special Shawn was to me. Maybe in the future I will share some more of our notes.
Thank you ALL as well for the birthday wishes!!! You have been great!!!
25 comments:
Happy B-day Jenny! I know this cant be an easy day for you but I hope you are enjoying your day as much as possible. Your dog is the cutest! I wanted to tell you too that you and my dog Ellie (the little one) share the same b-day! I had to sing her happy b-day this morning. Ah.. the things we do for our pets! I'm glad you have lots of notes from Shawn. I'm sure they are very comforting to read. (((HUGS)))
Happy Birthday!! I'm glad that your day is being celebrated the way you had hoped it would. It sounds like Bo is great company and keeping you busy. Young puppies are a lot of work, I learned that when we got our little one. I really don't have any suggestions. It's going to be rough at first, but Bo will get used to things and be able to sleep better. Before you know it he'll be waking you up a only a couple times a night. Oh, and thanks for posting the letter from Shawn. I look forward to reading more letters you post, as you see fit.
Oh sweetie ... that letter just totally had me bawling.
Wishing you a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY, despite the circumstances.
Just remember, after today ... you've climbed another hurdle.
Hugs,
Emily
Thank you for sharing your letter with us. The fact that you have these letters, and your journey pendant, will forever be cherished - and will bring you a sense of comfort.
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday!! I hope you enjoy it. :)
Happy Birthday, Jenny,
I know this is not how you wanted to spend your birthday. But the letters from Shawn are so beautiful and you know he is with you probably sitting right beside you. You have lots of family,friends and people out here in the blogosphere who are here to support you. We are here for you. Thank you for sharing your special memories.
Patty Wood
Happy Birthday. Your husband was indeed a wonderful man. I am so happy that he wrote you those letters - they will comfort you for a lifetime.
Happy Birthday.
Happy Birthday! Thinking of you today and wishing you the best!
Happy Birthday! I'm so glad you have the love letters to read (and re-read) when you miss Shawn. May they bring peace and comfort to you. Thank you for sharing.
Hugs and prayers,
Amanda
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I've been following your blog for a while, but I don't think I've left you a comment yet. I was hesitant to read your post today because I was worried that I'd cry like a baby reading your note. It was quite the opposite, though. My heart smiled. I am so thankful that you have such wonderful memories of your husband. Even though he isn't on Earth with you, he will always be with you and in your heart. Thank you for sharing something so personal to you.
Hug that precious, little Bo and let him give you lots of licks. We adopted our youngest dog at 4.5 weeks, and I know a tiny puppy is so difficult. You'll look back to this time and smile - even with everything you're having to face each day - that puppy will bring you joy.
Happy Birthday Jen! I am so glad that your hubby wrote you that letter- it's as if he is speaking to you today. What a gift.
This day must have been hard for you. He would want you to be happy. Thank you for allowing us to jump aboard this journey with you.
You jump, we jump.
Jen
Happy Birthday, Jen! I am glad to hear Bo has been good company today!
WOW..........What an amazing man! It is so great that you have these letters from him. I KNOW NO ONE whose husband writes letters like that to them. WOW!
You are such an inspritaion! I come to you each day now like I have been going to Bring the Rain each day for a while.
I am also sending you hugs......but also some HIGH FIVE GIRLFRIEND!
Your post today made me smile.........which made me think that maybe you smiled a bit today too. I certainly hope so. You deserve some smiles.
Roxanne
Happy Birthday Jen
Jen, his letter is beautiful and the overall message that your blog sends just hit me like a ton of bricks. My hubbie and I have been ignoring each other because of a stupid fight over something so trivial since yesterday morning, I need to phone him NOW to make amends.
Thanks for sharing!
xx
Glad to see you making it through your birthday!
What a sweet memory in that letter. You can hear the love he holds for you in those words! Thanks for sharing!
I hope you found a way to have a good day even though I know it was very difficult.
Puppies are worse than babies in that they pee all over the floor, at least babies do it in diapers!
I would look into crate training Bo. And sometimes you have to just let him cry. If you pick him up every time he whimpers he'll never stop....
Happy Bday... a day late!
That is the sweetest note ever! You can tell he loved you so so much!
Hope you had a nice birthday. Thanks for sharing the note...it was sweet! :-)
I hope Bo gets used to his new environment and sleeps better soon!
Happy belated birthday! I've been reading your blog and praying for you since you left your meessage Oct. 15 at Bring the Rain. You're an amazing lady, Jenny. Thank you for sharing your journey with us and reminding all of us not to take our "normal" for granted. Obviously, Shawn loved you very much and was a lucky man to have found the love of his life. Enjoy the new love you have found in Bo and know that you are in the hearts of many. Love and hugs! An Illinois friend
Jenny-
I am (again) amazed at how many things the two of us appear to have in common. My husband's nickname for me is Angel, too. He is a note writer as well, and I cherish all the letters I have from him much more today, thanks to you.
Happy low-key birthday. That's how I like them best. Quiet and in the company of a pup. I am thrilled that you have Bo.
Happy Birthday!!! God bless.
Do you scrapbook? Those letters would make a wonderful tribute to Shawn and a precious piece for you to hold on to.
I hope you had a wonderful birthday! That was a beautiful note, thanks for sharing! It is obvious that Shawn loved you very much!
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