Monday, February 28, 2011

What's Friend For?

Friends? i have a lot. People say that i have a wide network.

Yeah. I agree. But when we talk about good friend or true friend, who are there?

This had been happening for so many many many times.

I believe is my problem ba. Just like what you said, Im selfish. Yeah i am.

Perhaps, i should really accept my company offer. Just leave this place and get rid of everybody. and have a new life.

I am so tired of everything. So tired so tired. During meeting, i was almost shoot to dead. I am thinking, why do i have to tolerate all these? No one is supporting me. I did not do anything wrong yet i have to take up everything. Fine. i accept. But why there isnt anyone there to even give me some moral support?!

There is no one there to listen to me.

Im just so tired. I had been working so hard. I spend all my time on these stuff. I don expect anyone to give me anything.

I always tell myself, at least i have got you guys around. But now, I think i lost my way again.

What should i do? Tender my resignation? It seems to be fun to hold this post right? but back to the point, im on 22! what can i do?! i had been trying my best and everyone is booming me! i really had enough.

You are here this afternoon, left within 5 minutes. I wish to tell you how pain is my back now. i cant even seat properly. But you just don seems to be care. Fine.

What you said i always remember. Your message is just too hurtful. To you it meant nothing, to me, it meant everything.

I do not know what to do now.

Perhaps, i just live for myself. And just left all of you behind.

I HATE ALL THESE............

2 comments:

chloe said...

sir, don't think that way ba... For one I know that I really appreciate all your help towards us... Last time many of my seniors had a hard time getting things done, and had no one to turn to when they had problems... But now with you around I personally feel very lucky because always can ask you and always can get help. Sorry if we got make you feel unappreciated or anything... I dunno about others la, but sincerely from SJAM SSI we really really thank you a lot for being a great help and true role model in St. John for us. Jiayou to you sir! :)

Thomas Tan said...

Thank you Chloe. You had given me the strength to continue. Up to now, all my strength that help me to hold on this position is the Cadets. My only wish is to help all the cadets to get whatever we could. haiz......

Once again, thank you~!