I'm finding that the reason I struggle so much in life is because I absolutely, positively lack one critical virtue...patience. I find that I am always thinking ahead to the next step instead of being patient and enjoying the time at hand. It is quite difficult to be blessed with a passionate desire to be a mom however, the pain of being unable to decide if and when that happens is almost unbearable at times. I accept that I am supposed to learn something throughout this journey. I guess God is teaching me patience.
The irony is...I'm a slow learner. :)
I found this poem to be inspirational. Maybe you'll be inspired, too.
"Desperately, helplessly, longingly I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate
And the Master so gently said,"Child you must wait."
"Wait? You say, wait!" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith, I have asked, and am claiming Your Word.
"My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and You tell me to WAIT?
I'm needing a 'Yes," a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'No' to which I can resign."
And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask and we shall receive.
And, Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
'I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!'
"Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "you must wait.
"So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"
He seemed, then, to kneelAnd His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.
"All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want--But, you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power I give to the faint;
"You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me;
When darkness and silence were all you could see.
"You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My Heart.
"The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have last.
"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that, 'My grace is sufficient for thee.
'Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you!
"So, be silent, My child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And though oft' may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still,
'Wait.'"
-author unknown
