Baby Strokes

Last month, we lost another early pregnancy.  This is not being posted to invoke pity or sympathy - but rather to encourage all who are genuinely traveling this journey in search of our miracle.  Patrick and I have been able to get pregnant, again.   Of course the loss was heart breaking but it was very early - technically another chemical pregnancy (if you've been following this blog that was what happened a year ago in July).   I will not need surgery (thank God) and we will be able to keep "trying" in a few months.

Our doctor is extremely optimistic about our future family.   We trust his judgment completely.  He is an amazing, wise, and honest doctor who suggests 100% that we continue fighting for our miracle.  We are grateful and extremely encouraged.

As always, we thank you for your continued prayers and support.  We'll take as many cheerleaders in our corner as we can get.  ;)

Dearest Baby,

You are an amazing little miracle.  You are not even realized yet and somehow you have managed to teach me more about life and love than I have yet to learn in my 33 years of life.
You have taught me that there are things in life worth fighting for.  You are one of those things. 

You have shown me how important it is to hold on tightly to hope, even in the darkest hour...because hope is what causes the sun to shine again.

You are teaching me what it means to accept heartache as a way to learn and grow.  You have also taught me that this heartache will change me....for the better.

You have taught me to trust....really trust.  Even though the road to find you has been paved with tears, I know that I trust more completely than I ever have in my life.

You have shown me my own inner strength - and, quite frankly, even I am impressed by it.  You never know your own strength until you are placed in a situation that tests its limits.

You have taught me how to grieve...and with that, you have taught me how to be incredibly resilient. 

You have taught me that tears are OK.  They are a sort of magic that heals a heart and brings clarity to a soul and we are wiser because of them. 

You have taught me to let go of the things I can not control.  This is a sense of freedom I have never known before.

You have taught me to love the life I've been given.  

You have taught me to expect miracles - always - no matter what.

You have taught me - and continue to teach me - how to wait.  I now wait patiently, expectantly and with gut-wrenching determination.

Memorial Day weekend was a fabulous, relaxing 3-day weekend spent with family and friends.  We typically head to Chicago over this holiday but we decided staying home was more appealing.   We've been so busy, we just needed some R & R - and we got it! ;)

We enjoyed dinners with friends, hosting a BBQ for my parents, taking naps ;) and enjoying some time on two of MN's beautiful 10,000 lakes.  We enjoyed a sunset cruise on Lake Washington and dinner on the patio at Westwood on Friday (thanks, Mattes').  Monday, we enjoyed a day beginning with mimosas on Lake Francis and ending with the first sunburn of the season.  ;) Thanks, Brad and Laurie. The lakes in MN are absolutely magical - they have a way of making every worry or headache disappear in a matter of seconds.  ;)

So, we milked this 3-day weekend for all it was worth and loved every second.  I hope you had a wonderful weekend, too!  Summer is right around the corner - woo hoo! ;)