I love, love, love the holiday season.
I adore holiday music. I am
obsessed with holiday movies. I find this time of year absolutely heart
warming. I will often plant myself in front of the TV when the holiday
classics air....yes, even the cartoons. I love them. I think it is
because they remind me of being a kid. What's funny is that this year,
while cuddled up watching Rudolph, I realized that I have a lot in
common with the Bumble. You know him...here he is:
I know this seems like an odd holiday character with which to identify....but, you'll understand in a minute. The
Bumble, if you remember, chases poor Rudolph and the aspiring dentist,
Hermey, and the gold seeking Yukon Cornelius, throughout the entire
movie until he plummets off of a cliff near the end of the movie. He is
pushed, and, falls down and hits rock bottom. This is where I
connected. Rock. Bottom. In regards to our journey to begin a family,
I hit rock bottom occasionally, too...but, our connection doesn't end
there.
adjective at the lowest possible limit or level;
extremely low, the end, finished
But....is it really? Nope....not for me, at least. Just like the
Bumble, hitting rock bottom can be the exact opposite....it just depends
on how we react. Newton describes it through his law of motion:
Newton's First law of Motion: The velocity of a body remains constant unless the body is acted upon by an external force.
So, what was the Bumble's reaction to the external force off of the long,
devastating fall off the highest cliff in the North Pole onto his rock bottom?
You remember.....
He BOUNCED.
So, there it is. My true connection with the Bumble. When I hit the
bottom, I crash - but, I don't break....like the Bumble, eventually, I
bounce. Bouncing has little to nothing to do with the rocks at the
bottom of my crash - it has everything to do with my reaction to it. I
can't stop myself from being sad, or coming undone, or melting down,
sometimes. But, I can control my reaction to that sadness. That scares
the crap out of me, sometimes, because it means I am in control. I am
not a victim. Much to my chagrin. Being a victim is so much easier.
'sigh'
This journey has given me perspective on emotions that i
wouldn't have had the opportunity to gain, otherwise. I'm thankful for
that....and, I'm thankful I have learned that I can hit rock bottom and
remain in tact. Oh c'mon, let's be honest. It doesn't always happen
quickly. There are times when my rock bottom gets the best of me for
longer than I'd like to admit. But, at the end of the day, I know I'll
rebound. Just like the Bumble....I will shift momentum....I will
re-gain control.
Yup. In the end.
I bounce.
***
Rudolph: But - But you fell over the side of the cliff.
Yukon Cornelius: Didn't I ever tell you about Bumbles?
Bumbles *bounce*!
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