PinWheels From Heaven: October 2024

Welcome To PinWheels From Heaven

WELCOME TO PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN. If you would like to have your "Angel" baby's or "Angel" child's name added to my Angel Tree list and Birthday list to be remembered at my annual events please click on the Angel Tree List button found at the top of this page to take you to that page with all the details. These events are for Angel Children only--PLEASE NO fake baby loss mommys.

NOTE: Pinwheel Wait List is currently CLOSED

Be sure to scroll to the end of this page to find links to other Baby Loss Mommies who write Angel Babies Names.

ANNUAL EVENTS FOR PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN:

(1) Once your angel baby/child is on my Angel Birthday List
they will be remembered in their birthday month in a special Angel Birthday blog post and picture. They will also be remembered on their special angel b-day on my PinWheels From Heaven Face book page.

(2) Oct. 15th--Wave of Light: Each year on this date I will be creating a PinWheel Healing Field in my front yard using all the angel baby/child's pinwheels and light candles by the pinwheels in remembrance of all of our angels.

(3) Christmas Angel Tree--For the month of December I will be hanging ornaments with all of your angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. On Christmas Eve I will light candles around the Angel Tree in remembrance of all of our angels.

(4) Easter Angel Tree--For Easter I will be hanging plastic Easter eggs with all of the angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. I will light candles around the tree on Easter in remembrance of all of our angels.

Pictures of events 1,2,3,4 will be posted here on this blog and on my face book page.

At PinWheels From Heaven Angel Babies and Angel Children are ALWAYS LOVED, MISSED AND REMEMBERED <3

A Precious Gift--Never Forget Janessa & Hope Abigail

The mention of my daughter's name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you really want to show me that you care, let me hear the beautiful music of her name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.

"If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died.

What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that is a great gift."
-Elizabeth Edwards

Wednesday, October 16, 2024

Wave of Light 2024

WAVE OF LIGHT

2024

In memory of my Angel Babies

Janessa, Hope, Jason, Rae Anne

And

ALL THEIR ANGEL FRIENDS!

YOU LOVED, MISSED, & REMEMBERED!

Thursday, October 10, 2024

Happy 11th Angel Birthday Jason

Happy 11th Angel Birthday

<3 Jason Nephi <3

You are Loved, Missed, and Remembered!

LOVED 4 EVER!

It still hurts!

11 years, that's how long it has been since the hope of my rainbow baby, Jason, was ripped from me. The pain and horror of all those memories has dimmed, but, the feelings of longing and feeling so shattered to have hope of a rainbow stolen yet again from me remains and does take center stage on days like today.

I try to be accepting that God had a better plan and to be okay that I got to carry Jason 12 weeks and I got to see his heartbeat on an ultrasound monitor, but, it never takes away the pain of not having a rainbow baby. Of getting so close and having so much hope that I would bring him home alive. Why couldn't the bleeding have stopped and everything healed?? Why was the blessing I received that everything would be okay and Jason would be born alive not answered??? Why did I have to go through the trauma of another baby loss??? So many unanswered questions, so much bitterness, pain, anger, and sadness. I feel it all now as a grief wave washes over me for today. But, tomorrow, tomorrow I release this wave back into the ocean and accept the unacceptable and choose to be okay even though I don't have all the answers, yet, but, someday I will understand.

I'm so grateful to have this new park that is close to my house that is a little piece of paradise in the middle of a noisy, bustling city. It is away from people, away from traffic, away from noise. It makes me feel like I'm on top of a mountain and gives me a chance to think and feel peace. The sunrises at this park are amazing! Totally worth dragging my grieving body out of bed for. I loved that a J formed in the clouds just above the sunrise and that a plane flew past just above that J. I'm grateful I got to go on 4 planes this year.

Happy Birthday in Heaven Jason!

Love, Mommy

Be Still and Know that I am God

Sometimes God
Calms the Storm . . .
Sometimes He let's the Storm rage
and Calms His Child.
Author Unknown

At times there appears to be no light at the tunnel's end-no dawn to break the night's darkness. . .We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. If you find yourself in such a situation, I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith. He will lift you and guide you. He will not always take your afflictions from you, but He will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face.

-President Thomas S. Monson

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
-Joseph Campbell