maybe, in that life, we could have been friends
joy & admiration
Morishige did nothing wrong.
do you guys ever like forget you’re interested in something until you start engaging with it again and you go “oh wait i’m like crazy crazy about this yeah”
doomed confusing tragic yuri with a bad awful ending(s)
I got the first book today and they’re on the cover of course… holy craparoni I was nottt expecting it to be that thick
trying to think back to when i was like 14 or 15 and a kizash/ge shipper and like, yeah, the only way i got to the conclusion of shipping it back then was by completely ignoring mayu's character unless i could utilize her death to torment morish/ge
its like, genuinely the only way to come to the conclusion that morish/ge is a gore freak and in anyway actually similar to k/zami is to ignore everything he has with mayu. and the purpose of the ship wasnt to explore dynamics, it was exclusively an excuse to find myself edgy and cool for being into gore n shit. obv cant speak for every kizash/ge shipper but my experience as a dumb idiot teenager was entirely projecting my own fucked up thoughts and mania onto morish/ge even though they fell far out of line with the actual text of his character
dunno really where im going with this but maybe thats why kizash/ge shippers in particular get so defensive. theyve taken what they interpreted as a mostly blank slate character (morish/ge) and took a single element and projected and flanderized him to hell and back. and because of their unpacked misogyny, couldnt fathom mayu as an actual character, so they had to pair him with another man.
i think theres also probably something to be said about the fetishization of the relationship because of it being gay but its 1:30 in the morning and i cant get into that
hope this provides an interesting perspective on the whole awful mess that was the kizash/ge takeover of this fandom
actually adding onto this i need to affirm that the projection onto morish/ge made up like 99% of the attachment to the ship. like i cannot undersell how important it was to even considering it in the first place. back in the day, it seemed like a lot of other kizash/ge shippers were the same way. people obsessed with gore and latching on to the first quirky character that they could even somewhat project onto. like a weird wish fulfillment of being a gore freak(male) and finding another gore freak(male) to have happily bloody after romance with