Double-Half
or One Ten without ham

After I finished studying the field of architecture was down.
Well, we went to Australia for 7 months...
I had the power after we came back to take the yellow pages. Looked up Architects, went in there with my work - paper on DIN A0, huge, without invitation I marched in again, and again.

Most told me off, they have to let go of good staff, and what I am thinking to bump in like that?!

I took it.

Blablabla, I digitilized my work, learned Flash Action Script and stuff on my own and after having become a graduated engineer I finally gave up and started as little trainee all over and finally made it to "IT analyst".



Now?

Signed sick, wrong meds, wrong meds, wrong meds and once again, wrong meds.

And now I really feel depressive.

I don´t want no meds no more.

Time runs, week by week rushes by and Ingo has no understanding, and NO. I will not see another doc.



I try to fight my way through.
All.By.Myself.

It´s a pain.

"Corinna" does not help.

"Get a job and I have respect again"... At times I want to give up for good.

I.Want.To.Work.!!!!

I want people around me and am stuck at home alone all day.
It´s a pain.

I had the power when I was young.
Now I saw what working life is and I have lost all energy.
All dreams.



I wake up at night with pounding heart, worrying, at times I think I can no more.
YES. Others are off way, way worse, I know.

But taking this all alone is hard.

Sorry.
I am a real person. I am sad, I am hurt, I am fed up, I am desperate. Fear, so many fears. So many "what if´s".

Why had this have to happen, I was agreeing on so much stuff like driving 75 km every day on these crazy no speed-limit-roads with a tiny Polo, even after my accident.
16 damn years!
Post, don´t?

My relationship to my partner is going down the drain.
What can I do, start at Maccas, will he have respect then?

I don´t rely on his money, thanks to my Mum.
I have to pay health insurance privately now.
And I DO feel VERY depressed.

I try to get out of this on my own.

I so hope for a good, happy, long weekend - May 1st is a public holiday - and start fresh.
FRESH, with POWER.

And I need to be strong, like a Lion, right?



I want to work in IT in this very city, no more driving.
Nice colleagues, good work times... feeling happy and useful again...

One good weekend would help...

Let me take you to Grill´d - who are sadly offline due to security problems - this time we go to Grill´d in Leederville.

You can certainly rely on wiki and learn about Grill´d here, but it does not give that much away.



In 2013 our friend M introduced us to Grill´d and to be honest, yes, expensive, but the yummiest burger you can get, and the most clever one, too.

I sadly never took a pic of the three jars you find at the exit.

Ingo and I always share a burger - big surprise, huh - yet, we get two tokens, as we are two people.
Tokens like... just let me show you, I took one home:



Take the token and choose one of three opportunities to support... a kindy, a school ... endless ideas!



All that after you had...



And they ARE yummy!!!
Made with love, too! You can watch them putting them together in most places.

And then you help your tastebuds with...



We always chose a Little Creatures - Oh, when can we do this again??? We have not booked Perth yet.

But we need...



Because...



This is for "Tom´s "Signs 2".

And the Lion...s of the day:



Our local beer, Märzen, with Emus from Wendy´s!

Btw! If you have bored kids at home, Wendy has some colouring stuff for free here!

And again: People are so friendly these days. "Corinna" sure teaches manners, no, no irony, most people are more friendly!
Same in your place?

There is no logic. I like asparagus. From the glass, but fresh? Ewwwww.
But this season I discovered I like it fresh as soup.
And especially the "heads", that Ingo refused to eat as a kid as he thought those were real animals, hence real heads, LOL.

To "Head Soup"!!! :-)

Art wise, heads, huh...



A grey page from the flow-magazine.



I pepped it up a bit with water-colours and...



...glitter.

Still cold, so... how about chocolate tea? My "drink-ticket" ;-)



Taking part in Elizabeth and Bleubeard´s "T Stands For Tuesday".

And Henry, well... not such a water-fan...



Notice how rubbed his back is? Kids love to take a ride on this friendly Lion :-)

My Niece is now attending 3rd grade, but she loved this kindy where I picked her up at times.
The school bus stops there, too and she still walks by there.

From left to right you see Hansel and Gretel, Rapunzel, both by Brothers Grimm, Max and Moritz by Wilhelm Busch, who lived 8 km from my old hometown, and likely the wolf from Little Red Riding Hood.

The artists were school kids, I think, there is no signature.

A close up, it was difficult,as it´s a narrow path only:



And here the witch that tried to kill Hansel:



And this last one is The Star Money, ha, everybody could need a bit of that, right, especially now!



Taking part again in Sami´s COLOURFULWORLD Monday Murals.

Yah, OK, was only half the truth.
Since yesterday masks are required in supermarkets and public transport, so Ingo was busy making masks, as we cannot buy any.
We went to buy fabric, no proper rubber band, but Ingo can do.

And. What happened????



Darn cheapy gave up.

Hence we went to get a new one.

Haha, stupid us!!!
No masks, no desinfectant, no rubber bands, did we really think we can buy a sewing machine?!
Sold out.

Online?
Sold out.
But before that happened Ingo got this far - Meow by hand, though, isn´t that a sign? ;-)



Gosh.
I went to the grocery, I had to.
Spooky with everybody wearing those masks, and worse!!!

Now people feel "safe" and come close!

After a while my cats really came close, too, wee, breathing free is differently.
Now I have an idea how my Mum must´ve felt under the oxygen mask.
Henry´s Sibling isn´t happy, either!



Also Kings & Co are banned...

What are "we" doing here right now?
If only... a real cat, huh. Or two.

This pic was taken last year.
My life was upside down, job-wise already, but I´d never guessed this could happen.

We still can...



I had this in the living room, in our red-green kitchen I might´ve lost it, just kidding.



Lion of the day:



Also Henry´s Sibling in the museum has had it now!
Back to normal life NOW!!!
Or slowly at least, but please! Masks from today on, too..

When my Dad´d died he came to my dreams. He was only 50% visible and never talked. But he was there.
Staring at me.

Same happened with my Mum.
She moved, though.



Now... it´s been a long time, and when I dream of them I do not see them anymore, but they talk.
We "interact".

Tom published this article just after I dreamed of doing some, oh I think we packed up stuff, Dad and me.

I think panic sets in, so I dream of their support so much?

From tomorrow on I´ll get no money no more from the state - I will not depend on Ingo. My parents gave me two condos to rent, so, "all nearly good".

I payed in for 17 years into the state,like into an insurance..., got no help as for further training or such, even when I asked, they seem to read "graduated engineer - nope, can do it by herself".

Why only 17 years?

Broke my arm, got treated wrong, nearly lost my right hand, took a year, then I studied.
Took one semester off to visit Australia.



Ingo had to get two more cuppas of water with the smell of coffee until the lille guy was satisfied and likely jumped like crazy all day!...
Well, actually it was like this: The Wallaby came to me, why ever, I had no food. I saw his claws, he tried to touch me! - and I was like "Ingo!.... Ingo!!!!" and Ingo took care.

Studied.
Finished.
Went to Australia for another - only - seven months-trip.



Ingo feeds everyone. Animals, cars... me, also.

Architecture was down, blablabla, started at zero after trying hard and long to find a job.
Digitalized my work and found the way to IT.

Being an engineer, I started at zero as a trainee, cause I wanted to.

Took 3 months.
Then a job, finally! IT analyst.
Then... new boss, blablabla...

Diesel-affair, wrong medication 3 times ...

That took up LOT of time!

Our "visitors", thank you Merkel, get money and never worked here.

One called me "Hello, whore", even when I was fully dressed - well, he, they - "they", you never see them alone - could see my "naked" hands.

How to get a job in these times. Starting at ZERO just once again???

JUST ONCE AGAIN.

I am sick of it all.

Sometimes I wish I could call my Mum for real and ask for advice.

Or just run away.

They come back in my dreams. My parents, former work mates, company-cars. Stupid work I never did like... filling tubes..

I think we all look for some happiness these days especially... safety.



That was taken on my way to work...

I nearly got a heart attack turning around the corner and this huge guy was standing there.

Yah... Sadly just a fake.
I´m - in contrast to my parents in law - not at all into boxing.

But. I am pro Siblings, and somehow these two, reckon you know Vitali and Wladimir Klitschko, they even managed to stay sane!
Vitali is Mayor of Kiev now, no boxer anymore, yes, we all get old...er ;-)
They were both into heavyweight boxing, 2m-guys, but so gentle.
They speak perfect German, too, so I did not have to endure subtitles watching their docu.



They are funny and help each other, as my Brother and I do.
Well... yes... beer is alcohol-free, btw...

        

The kids are more or less involved, too, soooo sweet:

        

He´s not too old for the snack, but the shorts?! Pressie from his Son. Will he wear those at work?

And certainly... no German required...

        

The other day we got in a real fight on the phone, my Bro and I.
Next day I got a WhatsApp with him apologizing.
We stick together, even in these rough times, right.

Just like they did...







Yet, really - don´t put up those huge, fake guys around a corner!
Heart attack and hope can be sooo close ;-)
Strong, clever AND funny is just too sexy, plus they stick to their wifes, too - sexy!

I am so sick of "Corinna" by now.
Turn on the TV and... either it´s that nasty little Austrian man, Hitl#r, or "Corinna".



From...



... to...



Yes, our town belongs to the cities of Science and hence... blablabla.

At least shops open and Ingo can...



Henry by now is really fed up, being so lonely, too!!!



That virus can get small and tiny now, don´t you think, it got a BIIIIG ROAAAAAR!

Let´s fight Corinna!