It was awful. I was awful.
The seminar of our meeting on Friday was worthless. The subject was "time management" and I would have known a hundred things better to do with my time. Like going into the weekend!
I went to my boss in the break and told him that I just got the invitation verbally in the morning from a colleague. That I have a weekend-relationship where the only thing you do not have is time and that hence, I will not stay for dinner. I had no chance to plan this. He said he understands, he once had a weekend-relationship, too.
And he tries to find a way the server between customer and company work properly.
Ingo was sweet. He did all the shopping. Bought the bread I like, some fancy fruits and Beef Jerky.
I tried to let my anger over the meeting go but I couldn´t. I simply was deeply frustrated. Also because it would have been good to catch up with the colleagues from other projects.
Saturday I got migraine, felt bad, couldn´t eat, was no good company. And I was so very much tired.
On Sunday I was simply awful and I don´t know why.
My project is likely to end, which worries me a lot. And somehow Friday afternoon simply was missing - I couldn´t help but being depressed and angry.
That way I killed the whole weekend and I feel still very bad.
Too much frustration due to too many things.
Sometimes life just isn´t fun.
4 comments:
Sorry you are feeling so poorly. I've been through that before. I have learned (now that I am 41!) that generally, my emotions are choices. I can choose to allow myself to stay angry over something done and over with, or something that I have no control over, or I can say "ok Universe, I see you've played a cruel joke on me today ... but I am not playing back -- I choose to stay happy today." It doesn't always work, but most times it does. There is a quote I like "Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional." I know it's a bit hard to swallow when you're feeling down to begin with, but it's true. Try to let it go ... try your hardest and wake up tomorrow and say "I will be happy all day today." (I should practice my own advice!)
Thank you, Wendy, the quote sure does make sense and I will give it a go next time!
That probably in combination with going for a fast walk outside, and alone.
I haven´t heard back from my boyfriend yet, but I hope he understands...
I'm sure he will understand Iris. You're only human ... just as he is. We all slip up and we all go through "moments". If he's not understanding, THAT would be something to consider. Have a great day. Go for that double fast walk! :~)
Thank you, Wendy, I hope you are right. I´m outta here now ;-)
Have a good day, too, over there!
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