Double-Half
or One Ten without ham

Bet everyone has stuff in life to manage that he hates.
Cause it´s so darn difficult.
Might be the very easiest to do to others, but oh-so-very-very-much-complicated to one self.

Well.
I was promised help. And made an arrangement for tomorrow.
A stupid argument and I´m off on my own.

It would be one thing to say, "come on, I´m really sick of you being afraid of doing this. I won´t do it for you - but I will be with you in case you need help."

Yes. That would´ve helped me.
Maybe I will have some... really embarrassing moments tomorrow. It is stupid to think of it all the time now already. But I do. Feel neglected, turned down. Asked to explain myself, my situation and was rejected.

Weird thing is: I was able to do what I plan tomorrow before. Because there was no one available to help. I think I can do it. It´s the how. The how being thrown into this situation.
Maybe I´m less flexible already? Anyhows.

If you see a helpless woman in a Polo cruisin´ around not exactly knowing where to - eeek! - , in the deepest center of traffic... looking for the delivery entrance in an - eeek! - deep-garage. Hope no one sees her who knows her.
See a woman with a heavy/bulky load not knowing where to turn to, struggling with doors? Me. Wish me luck. Hopefully I find my way back to the car. Would be good, cause I have to go twice - with each load.

Bet I can do it... It´s just the way I´m put to it, the how.

You can encourage people, which is a positive thing. You can force people by letting them down. Same result (hopefully), different ways. Would´ve preferred the first.

Or have made the arrangement for another time with help. But who knows. Maybe I just need to prove myself again ... it´s just the how, ya know?.
Ack. Just wish me luck.